Love And Other Drugs

Luxe felt two things upon waking up-confusion and burning thirst for anything that didn't contain any traces of alcohol in it. Where was she? Not in her bunk on the Dolls bus because she didn't remember walking back to the bus with the girls, but she also didn't think she was in her bunk on the BVB bus either. The sheets were nicer, more lived in and oh fuck...there was someone laying beside her. Should she move? Who was sleeping beside her? Who's chest was her head just laying against and who's heart could she hear beating?

Quietly Luxe opened one eye and looked around. She was in a bunk with the curtain closed and as she looked down at the arm that was snaked around her middle she could faintly see tattoos. That didn't mean much as all of the guys had them, but soon enough Luxe could tell who it was and she only became angrier.

Andy was leaning up against the back wall of the bunk, his pillow smushed between his lower back and the wall and Luxe had been sleeping on his chest. He had one hand wrapped around her while the other one was resting gently on his upper chest. His blue eyes were closed and his lips were parted gently.

What had happened? All Luxe could remember was beating the guys at poker, taking a few too many shots and drinking a few beers. The girls had left early and then everything got fuzzy. The better question would be why was she in Andy's bunk instead of her own and did anything happen? Slowly Luxe sat up, running a hand through her hair and she winced as her head began to pound. She was never drinking again-well, at least not for a few days. Andy grumbled in his sleep and while she was sitting there, Luxe took a good hard look at the guy laying before her.

His black hair was messy and sticking up-it always was lately-and his blue eyes were closed gently to the world. Andy was still fully clothed, his shirt crumpled from sleep and Luxe knew he was probably uncomfortable sleeping in jeans. Thankfully she was still in her clothes, but she couldn't help but wonder if Andy had tried to lure her back here in her drunken state and she had passed out before he could get anywhere.

That was probably it!

Ugh it was so like him-Mr. Rockstar thinking he could have any girl at any moment. Suddenly a pair of bleary blue eyes were looking at her and Luxe felt her anger surge.


"Morning." Andy said before yawning and Luxe couldn't speak. How could he just sit here and act like everything was normal? They had been sleeping in the same bed-something that they both had agreed wasn't supposed to happen.

"So-uh-why am I in your bed?" Luxe asked and Andy sighed as he ran a hand through his hair and noticed that Luxe was sitting as far away from him as his bunk would allow.

"Funny story..." He laughed but then stopped as he looked at Luxe's face. She wasn't smiling and she looked pretty pissed off. Did she think something had happened between the two of them?

"Do I look like I'm laughing?" She said as she cocked a perfectly sculpted eyebrow and Andy only smirked at her. It wasn't the cute smirk he had been giving her last night-it was a stuck up smirk that said he knew more than she did. Luxe only growled at him, pushed her hands against his chest and quickly got out of the bunk.


Luxe could tell by the silence that the bus was stopped-they were supposed to be somewhere in Maryland by now-and that no one else was up yet. She had no clue what time it was and she didn't care, she needed to get off of this bus and it had to be now. Luxe quickly walked towards the front of the bus, only stopping to pick up her jacket which had been tossed over the back of the couch. She could hear foot steps behind her and Luxe knew Andy was following her, but she didn't care.

Just as she got to the front of the bus, Luxe felt someone reach out and grab her arm, stopping her from going any further.


"Don't touch me Andy!" She snarled at him as she tried to rip her arm out of his reach but he had a hard grasp on her. He looked down at her, confused and perplexed but she knew exactly what he was doing...or what he had tried to do last night.

"Why not? Why are you mad at me Luxe?" Andy asked, still holding on to her arm and he felt scared in that moment. She was looking at him like she was going to kill him and Andy actually thought that Luxe hated him enough to accomplish her goals in this moment.

"Why was I in your bunk last night Andy?" She wouldn't answer him and instead was looking at him with her head cocked to one side and an angry scowl on her face.

"I don't know. You got drunk, told us some things I don't think you meant to and then disappeared. When I came to bed you were laying in my bunk and you were sleeping so peacefully I didn't want to wake you..." He explained and Luxe said nothing and only rolled her eyes at him.

"What things?" She asked, again changing the subject and now Andy was beginning to get angry.


Why couldn't Luxe just admit that they had slept in the same bunk and that it had been nice? As soon as he had gotten into his bed last night she had curled right up to him and Andy couldn't deny that he had actually slept last night. His insomnia had been worse than ever lately-stress- but something about last had been different. Luxe had been sleeping, sighing softly while she dreamt and Andy had fallen asleep to that sound. He had even dreamt a little bit himself, his sweet dream being interrupted by Luxe finally waking up and being pissed at him right off the bat.


"Just shit about you not really knowing Lulu and Alex pulling you from some small town-" Andy stopped as Luxe inhaled a deep breath and just stared at him. There was no color in her face at all and it was at that moment that Andy knew it was all true and he couldn't help but feel slightly betrayed.

"Yeah and when was it that you decided to get me back into your bed?" She asked, obviously regaining her venom and Andy growled as he let her go and ran his hands through his hair.

"You are being fucking ridiculous Luxe!" He shouted, no longer caring about who was sleeping or who heard them at this point.

"And you're a fucking piece of shit!" She cried out at him, tossing her hands up in the air before letting them rest on her slim hips. She made him so angry and all Andy wanted to do in this moment was shake the girl before him.

"Get out! Get the fuck out and don't fucking come back!" Andy was angry now, Luxe could see it in his blue eyes and she was kind of scared. He was moving towards her slowly and Luxe in turn began to walk backwards.

"I don't want to come back! No amount of money in the entire world would make me come back to this piece of shit bus!" She screamed and Andy only smirked and continued to walk towards her. She was backing up-good that meant she was actually going to leave.

"Really? I thought the all amazing Luxe had a price for everything!" He said and then Andy felt his head whip back as a small hand came out and connected with his cheek.

"Bastard..." She said before disappearing out the door and Andy only stood there. He could hear whispering coming from behind him and he knew who was standing there and in this moment he didn't give a fuck.

It was over...he was free.


Luxe stomped her way back to her own bus, which was behind the BVB bus and even though the wind was cold against her skin, Luxe felt hot. How dare he stand there and insult her like that?! Did he think she was stupid? Of course he did-Andy Biersack had always looked down on her and probably always fucking would. Luxe cried out as she lashed out once again and this time her hand slapped the side of her own bus. There was laughter coming from inside and she knew that some of the girls were up.

Luxe put her key into the lock, turning it as slow as possible as she really didn't want to get on this thing but really she had nowhere else to go. The first thing she heard as she walked up the stairs was Andy's name and immediately Luxe wanted to turn around and walk out. She couldn't though and as Luxe faced the room before her, she felt her courage sink to the floor. The girls were all up, Char and Mads both sitting at the table eating cereal while Pixie and Lulu were sitting on the floor in the front lounge watching cartoons.


"Walk of shame!" Char called out to her and Luxe tried very hard not to lash out to her bandmate and best friend.

"Oooo Luxe got some last night!" Pixie giggled loudly and Luxe shook her head. Mads was sitting by quietly, taking everything in, including Luxe herself.

"You know I've been wondering how Andy is in bed. Come on girl-spill the deats." Char laughed as she got up to get Luxe a cup of coffee, but the singer wasn't moving. Mads could tell, just by looking at her, that something was very wrong with Luxe.

"Char..." The red haired girl warned, her eyes making contact with Luxe's sad ones.

"No! I wanna hear- how big is Mr. Rockstar anyways?" Char obviously wasn't getting the hint and it finally seemed to sink in when Luxe burst in to tears, turned around and ran right off of the bus.


Luxe couldn't stand in there and let the girls make her night of hell even worse by mocking it and so she just left. She could hear them calling after her and she wouldn't be shocked if one of them came after her, but Luxe just couldn't deal. She couldn't deal with this life anymore-with these feelings that kept coming up every time she got close to Andy or thought about him. Luxe kept walking, past the busses and around the corner until finally she spotted a familiar person coming up in the distance.

Alex's eyes were covered in black sunglasses, his hair slicked back and he had a Starbucks coffee cup in his hands. Luxe gritted her teeth as she stopped-he was standing right infront of her now, his phone up to his ear like always but he had held up one finger for her to wait. As he finished up his call, Luxe weighed her options.

She could leave-just keep on walking until she got tired or found the place she belonged. Or she could go back, suck it up and keep playing along like the good little girl everyone thought that she was.


"Luxe, I need to speak with you about the coming Broken release party." Alex had ended his conversation now and was looking at her over the top of his glasses.

"What about it? Dress nice and show up-that's what you told me." She said and Alex only smirked as he tossed an arm over her shoulders and they both began to walk back towards the busses.

"Yeah, well you and Andy will be expected to attend together and I've heard about your little spat. Play nice will ya?" He said as they stopped at the Dolls bus and Alex walked on, leaving Luxe out in the cold.

"Fuck. My. Life." She sighed as she pressed her back against the cold metal of the bus and slid down.


With her blonde head in her hands and anger in her heart, Luxe had some hard choices she needed to make.

Fast.

Notes

O.O Luxe is being a little hasty, but soon enough you'll find out why. That slap though...the southern rage in Luxe is beginning to surface.

Review<3

Went and saw BVB on Saturday and of course it was amazing! The guys seemed a little tired, but of course the tour is in it's last few days, so they're all ready to get home.