Love And Other Drugs

The room was crowded and hot-the Maryland venue they were in only had the one dressing room and so the Dolls and BVB were all cramped together, trying to make things work. Luxe was against the far wall, applying her makeup carefully, but she could feel a pair of crystal blue eyes on her back like it was a target.

The M&G was done and over with and Luxe had sailed through it with a fake smile on her face as she stood beside Andy and tried to play her part. It was hard being so close to him and not killing him, but Luxe had managed and thankfully the night was almost over.

Her corset was tight across her chest and Luxe seriously wished that Alex would let the whole corset thing go because it was making it really hard for her to breathe and perform. Luxe looked up in to the mirror, caught Andy's eye and quickly looked back down at her makeup palette. If he thought making puppy dog eyes at her was going to fix shit then he was sadly mistaken. Finally finished with her makeup, Luxe flipped her growing blonde hair over one shoulder and moved to leave the room. She needed air and the back hallway would be the perfect thing to provide her with that.


"Luxe! Wait up!" Someone called from behind her and Luxe groaned as she picked up her pace and tried to disappear around a corner. Andy, all dressed and ready for the stage in his dark makeup with his hair perfectly messy, was coming up right behind her and this was the last thing Luxe needed.

"Fuck off Andy." She said through gritted teeth as she kept on walking. Obviously this guy couldn't get the hint that she wanted nothing to do with him-ever.

"No-no I'm not going to do that Luxe!" Andy said as he finally caught up with her and watched as the small girl turned to face him. The top of Luxe's head only came to the bottom of his neck and as Andy looked down at her he felt something swell within his heart. He didn't like her being mad at him, but she was always mad at him so he should be used to it by now.

"Why not?! Why do you continue to pester me after what you tried to do last night?" Luxe asked and Andy felt completely confused. He hadn't tried to do anything with anyone last night and he couldn't figure out where Luxe was getting all of this from.

"Luxe nothing happened! How many times do I have to tell you that?!" Andy was growling now and it was only making Luxe more irritated.

"Then why was I in your bunk instead of my own?" She asked and Andy wanted to scream. Was this girl being for real right now? Was she really being this stupid?

"I. Don't. Fucking. Know. Maybe you have feelings for me that only come out when you're drunk-or maybe you were just too fucking drunk to care where you slept!" Luxe was looking at him with wide eyes and Andy could tell that she didn't believe him.

"God you are so stuck in your own fucking ego...it makes me sick." She spat at him before pushing past the other singer to get towards the stage. It was almost show time and she needed to warm up.

"That's the fucking pot calling the kettle black..." He murmured as she walked away and Luxe only rolled her eyes as she left Andy standing there alone.


Why did they always fight? She wondered as Luxe walked towards the side of the stage where the other girls were already standing. They would probably like one another if they could only stop fighting for ten minutes and actually listen to what the other was saying. But that was never going to happen and as Luxe stood there and went through her scales, she could see that Andy and the rest of BVB were coming towards where they were standing, but Andy was avoiding her gaze.

Good-he needed to feel bad about what happened the night before and the way he was talking to her, but deep down Luxe knew she was probably over reacting and blaming him for something that didn't happen. Oh well. Luxe smirked as Char came over to her, picking at her strings as the two girls made faces at one another.

This was one of the ways they hyped one another up before a show, something that the girls needed because they were all starting to feel the exhaustion setting in. Alex had them working non stop-if they weren't on stage they were in interviews, or filming videos or writing for the next record or doing photoshoots and honestly the girls were becoming kind of bitter about the entire process.


"What's going on with you and Andy?" Char asked as she stopped making faces at Luxe and the blonde girl only looked at her friend in an uncomfortable silence.

"Nothing. Why?" Luxe asked as she pulled her hair off of her neck-she was getting hot and would only be hotter once she got on to the stage to perform.

"You guys were just being so cute together last night and then I heard about your argument this morning. Did you guys break up?" Char asked and Luxe only bit down on her lip and looked over her shoulder. Andy and the guys were all standing around, laughing and joking with one another before the Dolls went on the stage.

"I don't know." Luxe said and ended the conversation by walking off towards the small cooler to grab her bottles of water. Each girl drank a ton of water before going on, Luxe drinking the most and lately she went through ten bottles a night. Her throat had been feeling scratchy and she was wondering if she was damaging something every night on stage.


The house lights over the crowd began to flicker, going down to a pitch black color and Luxe knew that meant it was time for her to get out there. The girls all gathered by the left side of the stage, all their hands in as they revved one another up before each walking out. The US tour was almost over-they were headed south down to Florida, then they would head west, hitting Louisiana, Arkansas and a few more states before ending in Texas.

Then it was over seas to the UK before heading to Europe with the tour ending in Australia. The girls were excited to get over seas, but Luxe was nervous as that meant flying for a longer period of time.

Finally she focused on the crowd before her and as Char led them in to Do Your Worst, Luxe only smiled as she performed her heart out. At first she had been a timid performer, but after weeks of doing the same thing over and over again, Luxe had finally gained some confidence when it came to singing her songs. She loved getting a reaction from the crowd and she loved hearing them all sing her songs back at her, but most of all she just loved being on stage with her four best friends. They fought like sisters and yet they were the reason why Luxe still stuck things out. She couldn't let them down, she couldn't let them see her fail.


"How are ya'll doing out there Maryland?!" Luxe asked as the first song ended and they had a short break. The crowd screamed in response and it lifted her heart to see so much love.

"As you all know we are The Hollywood Dolls from Hollywood California, but some of you also know that I myself am from the East Coast. It's good to be back home!" More screaming and Mads hit her symbols and stuck her tongue out at the singer.

"Now I feel that since we come from the same coast I can share something with you guys! Can I trust you?!" She asked and received so many shouts and screams that the rafters shook.

"Good! Now sometimes in our lives there are people that let us down. We think we can trust those people, we think that those people really care. Turns out that the only ones you can trust are your closest friends." Char had come to her then, the guitarist knowing full well what Luxe was saying.

"This next song goes out to someone who I thought I could trust and that person completely let me down and took advantage when they shouldn't have. You know who you are and you know what you did..." The crowd screamed as Luxe stood perfectly still and let Char, Pixie and Lulu get going into their next song.


Take me I'm alive
Never was a girl with a wicked mind
But everything looks better when the sun goes down

Luxe sang and as she said the words aloud, she let her grey eyes fall on the one person in the room who she hated the most. Andy was standing on the side of the stage, one thumb nail in between his teeth as he watched her with his sad crystal blue eyes.

I had everything
Opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
Your eyes, your eyes
I can see in your eyes
Your eyes

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love will burn up in the light
Every time I look inside your eyes
You make me wanna die

This song was everything to her in that moment and Luxe began to run around the stage, holding her hands out towards the girls in the front as they sang along with their favorite singer. Everything in her life in the past few months had been handed to her and while Luxe appreciated it all, she couldn't help but wonder how much longer it was going to last.

Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things that I shouldn't know
And there's a blue moon on the rise

Luxe was up again, looking over her shoulder towards the side of the stage and she noticed that Andy was no longer standing there. Obviously he had gotten the message and maybe now they could move on and just leave one another alone. The song was coming to an end, but her set was just beginning and Luxe wanted to make it the best one yet. Just to prove Andy wrong.

I had everything
Opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
Your eyes, your eyes
I can see in your eyes
Your eyes everything in your eyes, your eyes

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love will burn up in the light
Every time I look inside your eyes -burning in the light
You make me wanna die

I would die for you my love, my love
I would lie for you my love, my love -make me wanna die
I would steal for you, my love, my love -make me wanna die
I would die for you my love, my love
Well burn up in the light

Andy would never know how much he had hurt her and as Luxe finished up the song, she looked over her shoulder once again and saw that Andy was back and he had a pained look on his face. He had wounded her, now it was her turn to fight back.

Notes

Well Andy pretty much ruined everything he had going with Luxe. Truce-over. Their budding friendship-done. Will he be able to fix it?

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