Suffer In Silence

*Sandra's POV*

I can't believe what happened, I was so mad, I didn't expect him to react like that at all. I've never seen Andy like that, he's always seemed so strong. But... something I saw in his eyes... it scared me... he seemed... like he was cracking, like his strength he was putting on was all an act... Something needs to be done... Andy's always been so strong no matter what... we need to help him, but how?... Jinxx would know... Jinxx!, yes he could help!, I should call him, but what if he can't help and Andy gets mad... I pace back and forth in my room, trying to decide if I should call Jinxx or not. Finally I stop, chewing on my lip, without hesitation my hand darts for my phone... "Hello?... Sandra?...are you there?... Sandra what's wrong..." he finishes, sounding really worried now. After a few seconds I let out my breath... "Jinxx... it's Andy..."....

*Dakota's POV*

I sigh contentedly, patting my cats and dog, making sure they each got equal attention. Fuck I missed them, their warmth and love. They've been all over me ever since I got back. It's both adorable and annoying at the same time. They make me feel so loved, though it was quite hard getting changed with them hanging off me. I yawn and climb into bed, exhausted, of course Bella, Scout and Batty join me. My eyes quickly get heavy and the room starts getting darker... I missed this... maybe it can be like this all the time, maybe they will really love me like a proper family now... I smile as I finally drift off to sleep.

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*Jinxx's POV*

"Hey mum?" I call out, "Yes, Jeremy?" she answers, using my hated first name... well hated is a strong word... but still, Jeremy?, what kind of a first name is that?... I sigh and answer hopefully, "can I use your car today?, I need to meet Andy early and CC's van isn't fixed yet..". I hold my breath... "Sure you can sweetie just be careful ok?" she finally replies, I let my breath out and find her, giving her a big hug when I do. "Thanks mum, I really appreciate it" I give her a kiss on the cheek, take her keys, and run out the door....

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After knocking on the door and being let in by Mrs B, I head upstairs to Andy's room. I knock loudly 3 times and let myself in rather loudly, for extra effect. "Uhgmphfuckoffnyewcunfrmble" mumbles a half asleep, clearly un-impressed and grumpy Andy. I chuckle, he never was a morning person. I grab and pull out his pillow from under his head, then proceed to hit him with it until he finally sits up. "For fucks sake Jinxx it's only 7!, school doesn't start till 9!" he whines like the fucking child he is. "Andrew... we have to talk, whether you like it or not... ok?" I say firmly but kindly, he sees I mean it and reluctantly agrees.

"Now... I need you to tell me about what went on with you and Sandra yesterday" I tell him, looking closely at his face. He stiffens, then sighs and begins talking... "Well... obviously you know what happened, so I guess you want to know why I reacted like I did?" he asks, I nod so he continues. "It's just... I try to be so strong all the time, I try to be strong for you guys, for my parents, despite the bullying, and yes, I do get bullied still, I just told you it had quietened down. But it's been getting worse, so I guess that, mixed with holding everything in, the accident, then seeing Koda really lose it, it all just added up, and I'm not really handling it very well..." he looks down. I see tears start streaming down his face and my heart shatters all over again. I embrace him in a big protective hug, Andy's like my little brother, I can't stand seeing him like this.

"It's going to be ok Andy, I'm here for you, we all are, you just have to let us in, it's ok not to be strong all the time, that's what we're here for. Sandra understands why you went off, she knows she pushed you too far, so don't worry about her. You do, however, need to make amends with Koda, you really hurt her by ignoring her like that, you know" I conclude my little speech, squeezing him gently. "Now, get your ass in gear, I'm your ride to school so get ready freak" I grin, he smiles sheepishly back and jumps off the bed to get ready, already seeming happier. Well... I think my work here is done... I smirk to myself, once he's made up with Koda everything will be much better again, almost like before...

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*Andy's POV*

I'm sitting at my desk, tapping my pen against it impatiently. For the love of God bell go already!... I'm waiting for lunch, that's when I'm going to talk to Koda, Jinxx is coming with me so I don't get scared and back out. I sigh dramatically when the bell finally rings, and pack my crap up with lightning speed, meeting Jinxx at my locker. "You ready for this Andy?" he asks calmly... How the fuck is he so calm?!... "As ready as I'll ever be..." I answer nervously. We head in the direction we know she'll be taking to get to our usual lunch spot under the tree. "There she is, go get her tiger' Jinxx says pushing me so I stumble towards her.

"Koda!" I gasp, finally able to pull myself to a stop. She looks nervous and surprised to see me, I can't help feeling really guilty... "Look... I know I don't deserve your forgiveness, but I really am sorry, it's just... I'm not handling things going on in my life real well... and well... I'm just so fucking sorry. I care about you so much, and seeing you like that... I couldn't handle it. I was so scared, I know that's no exc-" I'm cut off when she hugs me tight. "It's ok Andy... I'm sorry too, for scaring you... I forgive you, just please, promise we can forget the uh... incident... and be normal again?" she asks, biting her lip nervously... It's so hot when she doe- wait, what am I thinking?!, she's my friend!... I smile, "of course we can, just like before but stronger now". She smiles back, "you're an incredible friend Andy, I don't want to ever lose what we have...". I feel my stomach drop... I don't want to lose what we have either... So why does it hurt so much when she calls me 'friend'?....

Notes

Finally chapter 15 (technically 18 haha) is up :3

I hope you guys like it, I worked hard on it like I do with all my chapters, let me know what you guys think if you want to :3

Ch. Title Credit: The Never Ever - Glow (follow me