Suffer In Silence
Their Telling Me it's Beautiful (part 2)
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*Dakota's POV*
I'm sitting on my bed, Jinxx left a few minutes ago, I already miss him, I wish he could stay... He makes me feel... better... oh my god he makes me feel better... maybe, with his help, I could get better, well, better for me anyway... I hear a knock at my door...my door... why do I have such a nice private room?... Nurse Mcmally walks in, she's nice, I like her... "Time to take your medication miss Pike, dinner will arrive shortly, how are you feeling?", she hands me my meds, my RCBD pill and something to make me tired and calm, I take them with the water she hands me.
I don't know why she still tries to get me to talk, I cant... She frowns a little, not angrily, more sad... Just as she's about to leave I panic and cry out "wait!", she spins around, shocked. "Yes miss Pike?", I faulter "I... um... uhh... whydoIhavesuchaniceprivateroomIknowmyparentscan'taffordthis..." I blurt out. "Well miss Pike, first, I'm glad you've finally decided to allow me to hear your voice, second, a man by the name of... what was it?... ah yes... Mr John Pierce, ring a bell?" she replies, looking at me expectantly. "Thanks" I say meekly, I try to give her a smile but it comes out more of a grimace. She smiles at me, "have a good dinner and sleep... Dakota..." then disappears out the door....
She called me by my first name, I'm glad I made her happy... but Mr Pierce... what about him? he's the reason I'm even in this mess, he didn't use protection... but he did pay for this really nice private room, I'm very grateful for that, I wouldn't be able to handle sharing a room with anyone else right now, maybe he's not so bad after all... yeah, I mean he could have pretended the baby was never his, but he's helping me, maybe he really does care about me....
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Over the past week Jinxx has showed up every day, it's really nice, by the third day I felt ready to talk to him. It makes me happy when I think of that beautiful smile that brightened up his face the second I let out the first word. From then on we started talking about random things, and watching movies while cuddling up to eachother. I'm happy that he understands that I'm not ready to see the others yet. They have been asking after me and he gives messages to them for me...
The only one that I haven't heard from, is Andy, I haven't seen or heard from him since the day I shaved my hair, which I have since had properly shaved so it looks like that side shaved hairstyle, except a more delicate version to suit me... Why won't he try to see me or send me any messages?, does he hate me now?, is he repulsed by me?, oh god I've done it again, I always do something to fuck things up with people, now he's left me too I just know he has... "Koda?, you ok?" Jinxx asks, a worried expression on his face. "Sorry I was just thinking about how gross I feel, I'm so having a shower after you leave" I laugh, hoping to convince him, he doesn't buy it but drops the subject, I love how he knows when not to push it.
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I'm finally nearing the end of my stay in the hospital, they say I've made lots of progress, I've even gained a bunch of weight... 'Feeling good about that are you? Haha what a loser, you actually like being fat again? You're 45 kilos now! Oink fucking oink!'... I groan, just fucking great, the voice is back... Fine, when I get home I'll start on getting thin again... I'm broken from my inner-batttle, by nurse Mcmally coming in holding another box. "It seems your admirer has left you another gift Koda" she says, yeah... she calls me Koda now... we're sort of friends, but not quite. "Thanks miss Mcmally" I smile for her, she leaves the room humming to herself.
I should explain, over the past few days Mr Pierce has been sending me gifts. Not even stupid ones, but ones I actually like, like books I love to read, movies, Kerrang!, he even sent me a new laptop!. I eagerly open this box... Holy shit it's a riding hat!... but wait... why would I need a riding hat?... I sit there thinking hard... then it dawns on me... he said when I get out he's got a surprise for me... Oh my god is he getting me riding lessons?! or even a horse?!, I bounce up and down on my bed grinning like an idiot. Over the past few days I've begun to grow soft towards Mr Pierce. After all... he always shows me kindness, even when I'm made to... have sex... with him, he at least tells me he loves me... maybe he really does love me....
Notes
And here is part 2, I really hope you like it, let me know what you think
@Lucifer
Thank you I do :) and don't worry I haven't forgotten the brumby, she goes to see him when she can but isn't 'pushing it' with his training, she's letting him get used to her presence first. And no problem, I love Spirit so using a song from the movie was awesome haha its coo to hear another persons point of view on the whole 'Mr. Pierce/Koda 'relationship'' thing. By no means do I condone the kind of thing that's going on there, but I wanted to give it a different feel to it that confuses the reader in some way at least. I'm very happy that y liked the chapter, I hope the next one is also to your liking haha :)
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