Nonstop To Nowhere - Fallen Angel (Tome I)

She lowered her eyes mechanically on her IPhone. She couldn't pretend very long before him and she knew it. She felt trapped, completely betrayed by her friends but at the same time she was grateful to them. She didn't take long to understand that they had somehow kidnapped her to talk with Andy. However, that explained the fact that they only took dresses ... But what they imagined? That I was going to fall back for him? And why was he stirring the knife in the wound? I hadn't suffered enough? Or did he want to see how badly I could be physically and morally broken? Thought the dancer.

The next day, as promised, he called her and offered to meet at a small restaurant. Skylar was stressed and didn't know how she was going to handle the situation. The dancer then walked a little more towards the door of the restaurant. She looked discreetly through the window of the latter and saw the singer sitting at a table nervously typing with his fingers on the table.

She took a deep breath and entered the restaurant to join him at his table. She simply greeted him and sat down, barely looking at him. She felt ashamed lying to him yesterday and she knew she was going to have to spit it out. She had no way to escape, Jenny and Cassie were going to do everything to make her talk to him and judging by the many calls and message of Andy the time she was in Miami, he wanted to make it even. She had no choice but to listen to him speak.

- So, where do we know each other ? She asked, still playing the game of amnesia.
- We were together and we or rather you left me because I hid you my job and you didn't accept it. He said simply, his face without any real emotion, as if he expected her question.
- Oh...

She felt the tears rise to her eyes, but swallowed them immediately. It wasn't the moment to cry. She looked up at his face and looked away as soon as she saw his eyes resting on her. She preferred to look beyond drowning in the brown of his irises.

A waiter arrived at the moment breaking the silence that was beginning to settle and took their order.

- I have to tell you something ... said Skylar.

She felt trapped and she knew she had to tell him.

- I know very well that you remember me. Jenny and Cassie called me last night to tell me.
- Oh the bitches !Then exclaimed the blonde girl.
- We organized this trip together. Jenny answered one of my call when you were still in the hospital.
- What?! How did you organize all of this?She asked at once surprised, angry, but also happy.
- You still have my number ...he said simply.

She lowered her eyes mechanically, her gaze stopping on a piece of cloth hanging on his left wrist. She recognized it immediately. It was her favorite scarf. So I had forgotten it in L.A ... she thought.

- Can you give it back to me?
- What?
- My Carré d'Hermes that you wear on your wrist.She answered, nodding at the blue fabric.
- No.
- Excuse me ?! Who do you think you are? This scarf is mine and you will give it back to me! I'll get it somehow even if I have to fight for it!
- You can always try! He said smiling.

No, but you've got to be kidding me, it makes this jerk laugh ! Thought the dancer. For any answer she glared at him, a glance she hoped was blackest, cold eyes, a look of a killer to make short.

- What do you want exactly ? Since we're there you better tell me immediately what you expect ... Added the dancer with a sigh.
- I want to talk ...
- Well go, I'm listening.
- Wait, you too have things to tell me don't you think? Between you pseudo amnesia and your unjustified departure.
- My pseudo amnesia and my unjustified departure you've got to be kidding me ! And I didn't come voluntary, so it's more you who have to talk!
- Well, very well as you want... Why did you leave?
- Didn't you see my word or you can't read?
- I'd just like to hear it from your mouth ... Know the real reasons ... You cann't have left me just because I'm a musician and because I didn't tell you ...
- And why not ?
- I actually think that you left because you're not willing to face a serious relationship?
- If I had willing to face our relationship, you don't believe that I would have done it from the beginning by giving you a wrong number or not getting your calls after you left Miami ? Maybe it doesn't happen oftenly to you to be dumped by a girl but it's not because you're a rockstar that I can't do it ...
- I didn't say that and that's not what I think ...
- Of course !

The dancer began to feel anger rising in her, and the absolute calm that Andy was showing didn't help her. She thought that this meal was going to be fast and without any real confusion, but it's gone badly.

- Why didn't you stay in the morning to tell me in this case?
- I didn't want to stay with you any longer ... I ... preferred to leave and wait for the first flight to Miami at the airport ...
- How did you react when your memory came back and that you have to live again what Mike did to you?

Oh, the asshole! How he dares to ask me such a question?Thought the young woman again on the brink of nerve crisis. He had touched a sore spot and he knew it, but it was the only way to make her talk.

- It doesn't concern you!
- Oh yes, I assure you.
- Oh, and can we know why?She asked curtly.
- It doesn't concern you.He answered, smiling weakly.
- You're such an asshole!
- Do you really think what you just said?
- Oh yes dumbass or I wouldn't have told you ...
- Well it's funny because I don't believe a word of what you say ...
- I don't care, believe what you want!
- You see, I rather think that you suffer, that you still love me - and it's in both ways - that your amnesia reached you especially morally because you felt vulnerable, that you want to kill me and kiss me at the same time. I'm sure you feel betrayed and trapped. I want to admit it is more or less the case ... I also believe that you running away from our relationship because you were afraid of making a commitment and that you have seized the first "valid" opportunity to leave me because you're scared, scared to live again what that asshole Mike did to you, but you're too proud to admit it ...

He was unpacking his speech while eating quietly, however, it was too much for Skylar, he was going too far in his remarks. Some customers seemed both shocked and intrigued by the stormy conversation that Skylar and Andy had.

- Who you think you are to dare to say such things to me? Who are you to tell me what I think or not? You are not a psych to what I know and I need to be analyzed or to spoke to anyone ! She answered dryly.
- Your friends seem to think otherwise ...
- My friends, let's talk about them! They are no better than you in the end! You're asshole, all of you ! You are delighted by seeing me suffering... She answered of a dry tone and but fills with rage...
- Well, you see, you're not well ! It's useless to bury your head in the sand !
- What do you care?! I didn't ask you anything, it doesn't concern you, you're not even a member of my life!

This remark made him feel like a stab in the heart but he didn't get flustered so far and added:

- Yes, I'm part of you, your life. I'm not a part of your past but your present, seeing by how you react ... You still love me, I'm convinced I am right !
- And how can you know?It seems to me that you did not look too much affected by our relation on the backstage photos which I was able to see, you even seemed to amuse you rather well with all these half naked groupies!
- It's just the job ... It's not my fault if the Russians are not modest! I have nothing to do with that ... Now first, your eyes maybe doesn't sparkle anymore but I still see some desire in there like the first evening we met each other. Secondly, you didn't deny a single second the fact of still loving me ... And then how do you know for the backstage photos?

The blonde girl couldn't handle it anymore and the tears began to run down her cheeks, only increasing her anger. She got up, completely forgetting her Carré d'Hermes still attached around Andy's wrist, grabbed her bag, got out of the restaurant and walked down the street but one hand held her arm firmly. She turned around in front of this gesture and he bent to tell her that he loved her and kissed her.

He let go of her arm during the kiss and Skylar took advantage of it to move away from him, tears flowing more and more and ran out. She heard him calling her but she didn't turn around. Her vision was more and more confused by the tears streaming down her cheeks as she returned to the hotel, throwing herself on her bed, crying her eyes out.

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