Now Remembered. But For How Long?
Beautiful and Alive
*Ashley's POV*
I walked into the waiting room and all I saw was Jake crying his eyes out, Andy hyperventilating, CC being yelled at by a security guard and the girls clinging to each other trying to calm things down.
"What the hell is going on?!" I yelled. CC and the guard stopped and everyone looked at me.
"This young man was being disruptive and this man here was completely intoxicated and needs to leave." The guard was talking about Jake. "But, he," the guard pointed to CC. ", refused to let me to take him away."
"Well, the intoxicated man, just so happens to be here because his sister is here in the hospital and he has to stay. The man you're yelling at has a right to protect him. His sister may not make it and he needs to see her. So you either leave us alone, or let us tell your boss that you denied us access to see a patient." The guard looked like he didn't believe me.
"Oh, really. And who is the patient you are visiting? And how can I tell that he's her brother and not a stranger?"
"You fucking idiot, I came in an hour ago without a shirt. And she's in room 269. Her name is Juniper Pitts and he's Jake Pitts. Now get out of my fucking way. I'm taking him to see his sister." The guard looked shocked. Serves him right for being a dickhead.
I lifted up Jake and helped him to the room. CC got Andy and the girls trailed behind.
Jake looked at Juni and shock hit his eyes. He ran to Juni and sobbed. He looked at me and anger hit his eyes. He got up and slid down the wall.
"I am the worst brother in humanity. I'm losing her for good now. Why didn't I just force her to come watch the set?" Jake hung his head and 20 minutes later he passed out on the floor. Andy slept on the couch. Sammi and Jinxx got the bed next to Juni and CC and Lauren fell asleep together on the recliner. I ended up sitting next to Juni on her bed and fell asleep next to her.
*One Week Later* Jake's POV*
Juni is still in a coma and their pulling the plug tomorrow. I'm really nervous. If she doesn't get out then I'll be lost without her. I haven't moved or spoken at all this week. I haven't eaten. Just drank water. I'm too upset to do anything. I've sat on this floor all week. Mom popped in yesterday and tried getting me to eat and talk. I wouldn't budge. Ashley and Jinxx tried getting me up but my dead weight wouldn't let them. Even CC's stupidity couldn't make me better. And CC makes everyone better. This fucking sucks. I'm going to lose Juni and it's my fault.
Jacob Mark Pitts! Juniper is alive and she WILL make it. Stop blaming yourself and eat. You're going to die if you don't. This is not your fault. Juniper had ZERO control of what happened to her. I watched what happened. I tried reaching out to her but her mind was too powerful for me to help her. She fought hard but eventually her depression took over. She called it her 'demons'. I understand you're scared but you must trust me.
"Mom leave me be. I'm not hungry. I won't believe you unless I see her fully awake. What do you mean she didn't have control?" I mentally told my mom.
I'm serious. I won't talk anymore. Ella called but I didn't talk. Jinxx had to talk and explain what happened. Ella tried leaving earlier but she couldn't. She said she'd be here next Monday which sucks for me since I really need her. Juni's in a coma. I shut my eyes and slipped into the darkness called sleep.
*CC's POV*
Jake fell asleep again and he won't eat or talk. I'm seriously scared about him. He hasn't moved an inch since he's gotten here. I can't even get Jake to move and I get everyone up and running again. *mental sigh* Ash was asleep next to Juni on her bed. I've never seen Ashley this way before. I guess family really does come first in his life. Andy went with Sammi for a walk and Jinxx went home to change and charge his phone. He also was going to my house/ parents house to get stuff for them and pick up some food. Lauren had to leave to go film something for a show. She wanted to stay but she doesn't want to get fired. We had to cancel the two weeks of Warped Tour because of Juni. Somehow the press hasn't found out about Juni which is a blessing. But she has been under the radar since we've gone big. Thank god. Shit, I'm hungry. Where the fuck is Jinxx with my tacos? Fuck this I'm going to Taco Bell which is ironically across the street. I don't know if that's ironic but who cares. OFF TO TACO BELL BITCHES!!!
*Ashley's POV*
I slowly woke up to a groan. I looked over and saw everyone was gone except for me and Jake. But Jake was still asleep. HOLY SHIT!! It was Juni!! She groaned again and pushed me slightly. The lights were off this time because last time she flipped shit. Juni mumbled something incoherent and kicked my leg hard.
"Owww" I whined.
"move." she grumbled.
"Well hello to you to. You've been in a coma for a week and the first thing you say is move. I see the love." I smirk.
"Shut your mouth Purdy. I'm still tired and I wanted to move but you were in my way."
"Thank god you're awake. I really thought you would be gone for good this time."
"And why would you think that? Do you not remember who I am? I fight everything. I may not always win but I sure as hell put up a good fight."
"That’s my baby girl Juni I've missed." I kissed Juni's hair and smiled.
"I'm not a baby. I'm twenty -two."
"Whatever you say cutie."
"Are you seriously flirting with me?"
"Noooo." I lied. Yeah I was flirting with her but I was just playing with her. But Juni is still very pretty and hot. ;)
"Liar!"
"You got me. But you are beautiful. And hot. Just saying. Don't let anyone tell you differently okay?" I kissed her forehead and hugged her gently. She smiled.
"Where is everyone?" Juni looked around.
"Jake's over there. The same spot he's been in since he's gotten here the night I got you. I'm not sure where everyone else is. CC's probably getting food. Lauren left yesterday to go film something for a show. Ella won't get here until next Monday."
"What do you mean same spot he's been in since you've gotten here?" Juni had pure terror in her eyes.
"Jake was shitfaced along with Andy when we got here. Well CC brought everyone here. I stayed with you. CC said Jake sobered up immediately when he found out what happened to you. He broke out into a crying fit. Andy was hyperventilating when I saw him."
"ohhh." Juni looked at Jake then back at me.
"He's still sleeping. Let him be though. He looks at peace right now. He's been getting up a bunch this whole week. He hasn't eaten or talked. Just had water. That's it."
"Well, that'll change when he wakes up. Wait CC couldn't make him better?"
"No."
"Then he was really scared."
"Speaking of being scared. Did you by any chance hear what I said when we got to the hospital?" I scratched the back of my neck a bit nervous.
"You are a dickhead though. I was being honest when I called you that." She laughed.
"Thank fucking god. Oh and you're in the perv room. 269" I winked.
"Nasty. But you were being serious about you not having a happy life without me?" She looked up at me. Her eyes were glistening.
"Every word I said to you was true. Why would I lie to you about something as serious as that? I love you too fucking much. I really don't want you out of my life. Meeting you in high school was the best thing ever. You are definitely a crazy bitch. But you're my crazy bitch. And I just couldn't stand the thought of you not being there to mess with me." Juni hugged me as tight as she could and gladly did the same.
"You wanna wake Jake up? I think he'd be glad to see you again." I smiled deviously.
"Sure. You can jump on him and I just laugh at his anger. Since I really can't move."
"Sounds like a plan." I smiled and got up. I jumped on Jake screaming. Jake woke up but still didn't say anything. He gave me the scariest fucking death glare I've seen my whole life. Juni looked shocked.
"Holy shit you weren't kidding."
"I thought he'd talk by now. Seeing as I practically jumped him." Jake looked at me angrily and then looked at Juni. He went into total shock.
"What the fuck?! Juni, you're awake."
"Umm yeah. I've been up for a bit with Ashley just talking. If I wasn't alive I'd be running around as a ghost scaring the shit out of people and I wouldn't be right here talking to you."
"Jake, that’s the first thing you've said all week!!" I exclaimed. It was true.
"Ashley it doesn't matter."
"Yes it does. You would not talk if your life depended on it. I honestly thought you were gonna go mute."
"Now why the fuck would I do that?"
"You basically were mute Jacob." Juni butted in.
"How could you know?"
"Ashley told me. And plus even though I was in a coma I could still hear things. I'm not a retard."
"I missed you" Jake went over and hugged Juni.
"I missed you so much. If you thought I was going to die then you had another thing coming. I fight until I can't fight no more. You should know that."
"I know. I was just so scared. I can't lose you anymore. Juni you need to promise me you will NEVER do this again. You might not make it."
"I'm really sorry Jacklepuff. I didn't intend for this to happen. I had no control over it. I swear. I tried to stop but I just blacked out and well this happened." Juni pointed to her arms.
*Juni’s POV*
"What do you mean you had no control?"
"I was gonna go for a walk to clear my head. I sat on the floor and I heard the voices talking and slowly taking over my mind. They called me a worthless bitch, stay inside so I wouldn't worry you, I should be dead and to always remember that. They said to make a tiny cut to release pain. I fought and said I promised but they wouldn't go. They said I got lucky last time and there was no return after, Ashley should've let me die, no one cares for me, I'm a waste of space, you'd hate me for sure because I'm a fucking liar, and that Jinxx wasn't there to save me." I just broke down after that. "They told me to run before you saw me Jake. They said things that scared me shitless." I couldn't take the pain anymore. Jake probably hates me now. I am such a fucking failure. I went from ruining my streak to almost killing myself. Jake’s warm embrace brought me out of my mental babble.
“Juniper, all I care about is that you’re safe. I ‘m not mad at you, okay. I could NEVER be mad at you. I went through the same thing as you. I didn’t end up here, luckily, but I understand. There would be days where I really didn’t have control. I gained my control right before it got worse, but it took time for me to get there. Please, don’t do this again. I mean it this time. From now on, one of the boys, me or the girls will ALWAYS be with you. Do you understand?”
“Ju Ju, I would never let you die. We all care for you. WE love you too much to let you kill yourself.” Ashley spoke. I smiled and nodded. Then I looked at Jake.
“Jacklepuff, I am so sorry. I really didn’t want this to happen. I understand fully. But why didn’t mom come and stop me or at least tell one of you?”
“She couldn’t get through; your depression was too strong for her to stop by the time she got there. I don’t know why she didn’t tell one of us.”
Ashley was already on his way to the bus. There was no need to. I know it sounds like I’m a bad mother but, he was already there.
We both nodded. Jake was still hugging me and I was hugging back. I really can’t lose them anymore. I felt warm tears pour down my face and onto Jake’s jacket.
I walked into the waiting room and all I saw was Jake crying his eyes out, Andy hyperventilating, CC being yelled at by a security guard and the girls clinging to each other trying to calm things down.
"What the hell is going on?!" I yelled. CC and the guard stopped and everyone looked at me.
"This young man was being disruptive and this man here was completely intoxicated and needs to leave." The guard was talking about Jake. "But, he," the guard pointed to CC. ", refused to let me to take him away."
"Well, the intoxicated man, just so happens to be here because his sister is here in the hospital and he has to stay. The man you're yelling at has a right to protect him. His sister may not make it and he needs to see her. So you either leave us alone, or let us tell your boss that you denied us access to see a patient." The guard looked like he didn't believe me.
"Oh, really. And who is the patient you are visiting? And how can I tell that he's her brother and not a stranger?"
"You fucking idiot, I came in an hour ago without a shirt. And she's in room 269. Her name is Juniper Pitts and he's Jake Pitts. Now get out of my fucking way. I'm taking him to see his sister." The guard looked shocked. Serves him right for being a dickhead.
I lifted up Jake and helped him to the room. CC got Andy and the girls trailed behind.
Jake looked at Juni and shock hit his eyes. He ran to Juni and sobbed. He looked at me and anger hit his eyes. He got up and slid down the wall.
"I am the worst brother in humanity. I'm losing her for good now. Why didn't I just force her to come watch the set?" Jake hung his head and 20 minutes later he passed out on the floor. Andy slept on the couch. Sammi and Jinxx got the bed next to Juni and CC and Lauren fell asleep together on the recliner. I ended up sitting next to Juni on her bed and fell asleep next to her.
*One Week Later* Jake's POV*
Juni is still in a coma and their pulling the plug tomorrow. I'm really nervous. If she doesn't get out then I'll be lost without her. I haven't moved or spoken at all this week. I haven't eaten. Just drank water. I'm too upset to do anything. I've sat on this floor all week. Mom popped in yesterday and tried getting me to eat and talk. I wouldn't budge. Ashley and Jinxx tried getting me up but my dead weight wouldn't let them. Even CC's stupidity couldn't make me better. And CC makes everyone better. This fucking sucks. I'm going to lose Juni and it's my fault.
Jacob Mark Pitts! Juniper is alive and she WILL make it. Stop blaming yourself and eat. You're going to die if you don't. This is not your fault. Juniper had ZERO control of what happened to her. I watched what happened. I tried reaching out to her but her mind was too powerful for me to help her. She fought hard but eventually her depression took over. She called it her 'demons'. I understand you're scared but you must trust me.
"Mom leave me be. I'm not hungry. I won't believe you unless I see her fully awake. What do you mean she didn't have control?" I mentally told my mom.
I'm serious. I won't talk anymore. Ella called but I didn't talk. Jinxx had to talk and explain what happened. Ella tried leaving earlier but she couldn't. She said she'd be here next Monday which sucks for me since I really need her. Juni's in a coma. I shut my eyes and slipped into the darkness called sleep.
*CC's POV*
Jake fell asleep again and he won't eat or talk. I'm seriously scared about him. He hasn't moved an inch since he's gotten here. I can't even get Jake to move and I get everyone up and running again. *mental sigh* Ash was asleep next to Juni on her bed. I've never seen Ashley this way before. I guess family really does come first in his life. Andy went with Sammi for a walk and Jinxx went home to change and charge his phone. He also was going to my house/ parents house to get stuff for them and pick up some food. Lauren had to leave to go film something for a show. She wanted to stay but she doesn't want to get fired. We had to cancel the two weeks of Warped Tour because of Juni. Somehow the press hasn't found out about Juni which is a blessing. But she has been under the radar since we've gone big. Thank god. Shit, I'm hungry. Where the fuck is Jinxx with my tacos? Fuck this I'm going to Taco Bell which is ironically across the street. I don't know if that's ironic but who cares. OFF TO TACO BELL BITCHES!!!
*Ashley's POV*
I slowly woke up to a groan. I looked over and saw everyone was gone except for me and Jake. But Jake was still asleep. HOLY SHIT!! It was Juni!! She groaned again and pushed me slightly. The lights were off this time because last time she flipped shit. Juni mumbled something incoherent and kicked my leg hard.
"Owww" I whined.
"move." she grumbled.
"Well hello to you to. You've been in a coma for a week and the first thing you say is move. I see the love." I smirk.
"Shut your mouth Purdy. I'm still tired and I wanted to move but you were in my way."
"Thank god you're awake. I really thought you would be gone for good this time."
"And why would you think that? Do you not remember who I am? I fight everything. I may not always win but I sure as hell put up a good fight."
"That’s my baby girl Juni I've missed." I kissed Juni's hair and smiled.
"I'm not a baby. I'm twenty -two."
"Whatever you say cutie."
"Are you seriously flirting with me?"
"Noooo." I lied. Yeah I was flirting with her but I was just playing with her. But Juni is still very pretty and hot. ;)
"Liar!"
"You got me. But you are beautiful. And hot. Just saying. Don't let anyone tell you differently okay?" I kissed her forehead and hugged her gently. She smiled.
"Where is everyone?" Juni looked around.
"Jake's over there. The same spot he's been in since he's gotten here the night I got you. I'm not sure where everyone else is. CC's probably getting food. Lauren left yesterday to go film something for a show. Ella won't get here until next Monday."
"What do you mean same spot he's been in since you've gotten here?" Juni had pure terror in her eyes.
"Jake was shitfaced along with Andy when we got here. Well CC brought everyone here. I stayed with you. CC said Jake sobered up immediately when he found out what happened to you. He broke out into a crying fit. Andy was hyperventilating when I saw him."
"ohhh." Juni looked at Jake then back at me.
"He's still sleeping. Let him be though. He looks at peace right now. He's been getting up a bunch this whole week. He hasn't eaten or talked. Just had water. That's it."
"Well, that'll change when he wakes up. Wait CC couldn't make him better?"
"No."
"Then he was really scared."
"Speaking of being scared. Did you by any chance hear what I said when we got to the hospital?" I scratched the back of my neck a bit nervous.
"You are a dickhead though. I was being honest when I called you that." She laughed.
"Thank fucking god. Oh and you're in the perv room. 269" I winked.
"Nasty. But you were being serious about you not having a happy life without me?" She looked up at me. Her eyes were glistening.
"Every word I said to you was true. Why would I lie to you about something as serious as that? I love you too fucking much. I really don't want you out of my life. Meeting you in high school was the best thing ever. You are definitely a crazy bitch. But you're my crazy bitch. And I just couldn't stand the thought of you not being there to mess with me." Juni hugged me as tight as she could and gladly did the same.
"You wanna wake Jake up? I think he'd be glad to see you again." I smiled deviously.
"Sure. You can jump on him and I just laugh at his anger. Since I really can't move."
"Sounds like a plan." I smiled and got up. I jumped on Jake screaming. Jake woke up but still didn't say anything. He gave me the scariest fucking death glare I've seen my whole life. Juni looked shocked.
"Holy shit you weren't kidding."
"I thought he'd talk by now. Seeing as I practically jumped him." Jake looked at me angrily and then looked at Juni. He went into total shock.
"What the fuck?! Juni, you're awake."
"Umm yeah. I've been up for a bit with Ashley just talking. If I wasn't alive I'd be running around as a ghost scaring the shit out of people and I wouldn't be right here talking to you."
"Jake, that’s the first thing you've said all week!!" I exclaimed. It was true.
"Ashley it doesn't matter."
"Yes it does. You would not talk if your life depended on it. I honestly thought you were gonna go mute."
"Now why the fuck would I do that?"
"You basically were mute Jacob." Juni butted in.
"How could you know?"
"Ashley told me. And plus even though I was in a coma I could still hear things. I'm not a retard."
"I missed you" Jake went over and hugged Juni.
"I missed you so much. If you thought I was going to die then you had another thing coming. I fight until I can't fight no more. You should know that."
"I know. I was just so scared. I can't lose you anymore. Juni you need to promise me you will NEVER do this again. You might not make it."
"I'm really sorry Jacklepuff. I didn't intend for this to happen. I had no control over it. I swear. I tried to stop but I just blacked out and well this happened." Juni pointed to her arms.
*Juni’s POV*
"What do you mean you had no control?"
"I was gonna go for a walk to clear my head. I sat on the floor and I heard the voices talking and slowly taking over my mind. They called me a worthless bitch, stay inside so I wouldn't worry you, I should be dead and to always remember that. They said to make a tiny cut to release pain. I fought and said I promised but they wouldn't go. They said I got lucky last time and there was no return after, Ashley should've let me die, no one cares for me, I'm a waste of space, you'd hate me for sure because I'm a fucking liar, and that Jinxx wasn't there to save me." I just broke down after that. "They told me to run before you saw me Jake. They said things that scared me shitless." I couldn't take the pain anymore. Jake probably hates me now. I am such a fucking failure. I went from ruining my streak to almost killing myself. Jake’s warm embrace brought me out of my mental babble.
“Juniper, all I care about is that you’re safe. I ‘m not mad at you, okay. I could NEVER be mad at you. I went through the same thing as you. I didn’t end up here, luckily, but I understand. There would be days where I really didn’t have control. I gained my control right before it got worse, but it took time for me to get there. Please, don’t do this again. I mean it this time. From now on, one of the boys, me or the girls will ALWAYS be with you. Do you understand?”
“Ju Ju, I would never let you die. We all care for you. WE love you too much to let you kill yourself.” Ashley spoke. I smiled and nodded. Then I looked at Jake.
“Jacklepuff, I am so sorry. I really didn’t want this to happen. I understand fully. But why didn’t mom come and stop me or at least tell one of you?”
“She couldn’t get through; your depression was too strong for her to stop by the time she got there. I don’t know why she didn’t tell one of us.”
Ashley was already on his way to the bus. There was no need to. I know it sounds like I’m a bad mother but, he was already there.
We both nodded. Jake was still hugging me and I was hugging back. I really can’t lose them anymore. I felt warm tears pour down my face and onto Jake’s jacket.
Notes
So... Juni's ALIVE :DI do have more chapters written but i'm not sure if i just want to end the story here or not. hmmmm.
READERS!!!! it is up to you to decide whether i should continue or end it here.
Much love,
~Wolf Tiger <3
:)
9/7/13