I Need You Here Tonight

"Good mornin'" Jenna smiled, setting a coffee in front of me.

"Morning, Jenna." I replied.

She was up early as well and wearing her gym shorts and t-shirt. She dragged a hand through her blonde hair, letting out a deep breath.

"You guys are up early too." Vic walked over, sitting on one of the stools.

Jenna nodded and I leaned on the counter, reaching across to grab a spare cup and the coffee. A muffled giggle escaped the air beds and Vic turned round.

"Kells, I know you're awake." He said, sighing.

The sheet was thrown off and Kellin skipped over. He was especially happy this morning and hugged Jenna. She blinked a few times and reached up, patting his shoulder. He hugged me, nearly knocking the coffee out my hands.

Lastly he hugged Vic, resting his head on his boyfriend's shoulder. Vic rolled his eyes.

"You guys compliment each other so well." Jenna said, smiling.

"Yeah, I'm the sane one and Kellin is the lunatic." Vic chuckled.

I laughed a little and continued making a coffee, before slipping off the bar stool with both cups. Kellin pulled away from Vic and stopped me leaving. He looked really disappointed and I frowned.

"Don't wake him up with coffee," Kellin sighed. "Wake him with a blowie instead."

Jenna snorted out a laugh and Vic walked over, grabbing Kellin before anything else could be said. I nearly dropped the drinks at his suggestion.

"Poor Kota looks terrified." Jenna laughed, clutching her stomach.

"I-i couldn't possibly do that." I murmured.

Kellin escaped Vic's grasp and rushed over, laying his hands on my shoulders.

"It's fine. I'll teach you how. We just need some bannana's." He grinned.

Again, Vic grabbed him, yanking him back and smiling apologetically. Jenna was nearly falling on the floor at this point.

"Sorry, Kota. Just do what feels natural and don't rush yourself." Vic said, holding a hand over Kellin's mouth.

I stepped back and walked up the corridor. Tay was just coming out the main bedroom and she smiled at me.

"I had the same idea." She grinned, eyeing the coffee.

I got to the next door and nudged it open with my shoulder. I set my cup down on the bedside table and rounded the bed to set the other cup down. Jake was still fast asleep. I sat on the bed, leaning over to look at him.

He looked so peaceful and innocent. I smiled and moved a few strands of hair from his face. I was starting to get a lot braver when it came to touching him, but I still couldn't do something so intimate. My face heated up and I buried my head in my hands.

I sighed, leaning over and kissing his cheek. I pulled back slightly when he started to wake up.
His eyes shifted over to me.

"Hey, you're awake." He murmured.

"Yeah, I got us some coffee." I said.

He shifted and sat up, picking up the coffee and taking a sip. This was really nice. Moments like this made me so happy.

"You seem quiet. You ok?" Jake asked, glancing at me.

I suddenly realised I had just been staring at him for the past two minutes. I looked away and toyed with my pyjama sleeves.

"Y-yeah, sorry about that. I was just happy." I mumbled, feeling increasingly stupid.

"I'm glad you're happy," Jake paused and smirked at me. "I'm gonna have a shower after this. Want to join me?"

I nearly fell off the bed. My face must have gone several shades of red at that point. A shower? Together? Completely naked? My brain nearly short circuited.

"But you'll see me without clothes on." I said, stupidly, because I often did that.

"Yeah, I guess I will, but I think that's the whole point." He chuckled.

I ducked my head, trying to hide under my hair, hoping the blush on my cheeks would be hidden by the red of my hair. I felt the bed shift and when I looked up, Jake was directly in front of me. He gripped my chin and our eyes met.

"Don't worry. I'm just messing with you." He laughed, and I went to shove him.

When he finished his coffee and left, I stayed on the bed, feeling like an idiot. I should have joined him. Why didn't I? I was twenty one. I should be flirtatious and fun-loving. Shay was like that. Tay was like that. Even Hannah excuded coolness. The only thing I excuded was ginger potato.

I lifted my head and looked at myself in the mirror on the vanity table. I needed to seize the moment and be more like my friends. Was every girl this nervous about their first time? Maybe I was nervous because I wanted it to mean something.


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The rest of the day was spent laying in the sun with the other girls. As the sun began to set, Alex started a bonfire and Jack had bought the stereo outside and we put some music on.

The cottage was on the edge of the beach and the nearest neighbours were a mile and a half down the beach so no one would hear the music or the noise. The drinks were bought out in a cooler and set on the sand.

"To us." Alex raised his bottle as did everyone else.

I did the same and took a drink with everyone else. The night wore on and everyone gradually became more drunk. I didn't and Vic also remained sober. Mostly to keep an eye on Kellin, who was insistent on skinny dipping. Jake also remained sober, which surprised me a little.

He seemed pretty comfortable talking to Ben, who was seated next to us. Ben had seemed in an off mood for some of the day. He kept glancing over at Danny and looking worried.

"She does not sit right with me." Ben said, slurring a little, and looking at Ariana.

She was leaning into Danny and she'd obviously had a fair bit to drink. I followed Ben's line of sight. Anyone else would have called Ben's reaction jealousy, but he did seem genuinely worried about Danny.

"When did she and Danny start dating?" Jake asked.

"Like, a month or so before this trip." Ben replied.

Danny was laughing now and he walked forward, stumbling and landing on his face. Ben stood and walked over, trying to get Danny to stand. I tapped Jake on the shoulder and he looked at me.

"Just nipping inside real quick." I said, standing and darting inside the house.

Whilst inside, I went toilet and grabbed a can of coke. I looked in the mirror in the lounge and smoothed out my hair. I went back outside and stopped when I saw Ariana sitting next to Jake. It looked like they were talking. My heart was beating madly against my chest. Everything else blurred and I stepped closer.

Jake suddenly got up and said something to her. He turned and saw me. Ariana stood too and smirked at me. This was the moment I'd been dreading. Jake started walking, taking my hand.

We walked down the beach, far from the bonfire and the music became a distant hum. I kept my head down the whole time. This was the moment I'd been dreading this entire time. This was the moment when he realised I was useless and dumped me for Ariana.

She looked so smug a minute ago and she obviously knew this was coming. We stopped walking and Jake's hand left mine. I barely felt myself starting to cry, but I must have done
because I tasted the salt of the tears on my lips. Jake turned round and he looked stunned.

"Kota? Why are you crying?" He asked, stepping closer and I really wanted to back away.

I wanted to run, just like I had that time at the cafe. I should have run the first time we met, but I didn't. I always ran away and this time I wasn't going to run away. I was going to be stronger and braver.

"You're going to leave me for Ariana, right? I saw you guys talking and she looked so smug when she-" I was cut off when he leaned down and kissed me.

We pulled apart and I was left reeling. He pulled back, smirking at my dumbstruck expression. Well, that was unexpected.

"Sorry, had to shut you up." He laughed, and I soon realised what he'd said and tried to punch his arm.

"Ok, we should do this calmly." I said, regaining my composure.

"I'm not leaving you." Jake said, stepping closer.

By this point, the beach was dark. The only light was coming from the moon as it's rays danced across the water and made the sand glisten. His hand cupped my cheek and our eyes met.

"Y-you're not?" I had to be sure.

"No, I'm not."

"What did Ariana say to you?"

"It doesn't matter what she said. She's not important. You're important."

I nodded, absorbing all the information at last. I looked at him again and he leaned down, capturing my lips again and kissing me. I stood on my tip-toes and wrapped my arms round his shoulders, pressing our bodies together. Jake pulled back first and I took a shaky breath.

"It's really pretty out here." I smiled then.

"Yeah, it is, which is what makes it perfect." He replied.

I frowned at that statement. My eyes looked out into the ocean and I watched the waves lapping at the sand. It was really perfect.

"We should go back." I said.

"Wait a minute," Jake was still holding my hands in his. He stepped back and I thought he was going to let go, but instead he lowered himself onto one knee. My breathing hitched.

"W-what's happening?" I knew what was coming, but a part of me could scarcely believe it.
"Dakota Kaplan, even though you freak out over everything and are a massive nerd," He grinned, and I blushed, rubbing my eyes. "Will you marry me?"

"Y-yes, my answer is yes." I murmured, then broke down into tears.

Jake stood then and pulled out a box. I watched the ring go onto my finger. I couldn't stop crying. I leapt forward, knocking the box on the floor and hugging him. Jake's arms wrapped round me, pressing me closer.

"We should go back now." He smiled, taking my hand again.

We went up a small hill and followed a path along the edge of the beach. It took us back towards the cottage, but we passed right by the party without being spotted.

The cottage was still quiet and no one had come inside yet. Jake and I walked up the corridor and into our room. The curtains were open and moonlight was spilling into the room.

I walked over to the window and looked at the garden as it veered onto the beach. I felt Jake stand behind me and sighed when his arms wrapped round me. I set my hand on his arm and looked at the ring on my finger.

I turned to face him and our lips met again. I mimicked his actions and a soft moan was absorbed when he nipped my lower lip. I parted my lips then and our tongues met and danced.

My hands rose draped round his shoulders. We pulled apart and he took my hand, guding me to the bed.

I sat at the top of the bed and he sat in front of me, holding my face in his hand and meeting my gaze.

"Jake, I'm really nervous." I whispered.

"I know. You know I love you, right?" He murmured, and I nodded, finally giving my consent.

His lips met mine again and we kissed for a bit before he pulled back, trailing kisses down my neck. I gasped when he bit me and he soothed the area with his tongue, before sucking the skin.

We pulled apart and Jake removed his t-shirt. I did the same and unclipped my bra. I'd been like this a few times so I was a little more comfortable with him seeing me topless. Our lips met again with more ferocity as he sucked my lower lip.

His hands traced down my sides and I repositioned myself so I was lying on my back. Jake's hands gripped my own, pinning me to the bed. His lips traced down my jaw and towards my neck again, sucking and nipping the skin. A few errant gasps slipped through my lips. One of his hands slid down my arm, leaving a trail of goosebumps in its wake.

I felt him grip my breast and his thumb traced circles round my nipple, teasing me. My head went back onto the pillow and I whimpered. His lips claimed mine again and when he pulled back he maintained eye contact.

A moan slid through my lips when he pinched my nipple and my body arched. I couldn't form a coherant thought at this point. Jake's lips moved down towards my collarbone and between my breasts.

I moaned again when his lips covered on of my nipples and he dragged his tongue over the hardened bud. For some reason, my hips rose as well and I could feel something pressing against me. It served to make me panic. This was really happening.

That thought was short lived when he sucked my nipple then gently nipped the sensitive flesh.

"J-jake." I gasped out. My breathing was coming out in desperate bursts.

I heard him chuckle. It reverberated against my already sensitive skin and made me whimper again. His lips moved to my other nipple, encasing it and teasing it as well.

I watched as he kissed down my stomach, pausing at the waist-band of my jeans. I took a steadying breath as he un-did the button and zipper. I kind of wished I'd worn better underwear, instead I'd worn Minions underwear.

I lifted my hips and my jeans were lowered. I felt especially vulnerable now. Jake's eyes traced down my frame and I really wanted to know what he was thinking at this point. His eyes were hooded and his hand traced down my hip, skimming the band of my underwear.

I nearly had a heart attack when he started undoing his jeans. The skinny jeans came off and he was on me again, kissing me. I could feel the heat coming off his body. He was so warm. The only thing seperating us was two thin bits of material.

I moaned into the kiss when his hand gripped my thigh, making me wrap my leg over his hip, further pressing us together. I could feel him now. We pulled apart and his hips pressed against mine, creating friction. MY body arched, copying the action.

"Fuck, just like that." His voice was husky, deeper than usual.

The friction was amazing and I could feel the pressure of something building. I could feel myself getting carried away. I must have done something different because Jake stopped moving and I whined.

"W-why'd you stop?" I asked.

"Because there's so much more I want to do to you." He replied.

Jake pulled back, gripping my underwear and removing it. I was suddenly struck by how cold it was or maybe that was the nerves. Jake shifted so he was on top of me again and I squirmed away when his fingers came into contact with my core. It was somewhere that no one else had touched, not even myself.

"Hey, calm down. I won't hurt you, ok." He murmured, and I nodded.

I whimpered when his fingers teased the outer lips. My body slowly started to relax and get used to the sensation. I moaned softly when his thumb traced down the middle of my core, pressing against something that made my body arch and a strangled moan escaped my lips.

Another strangled moan escaped when he slipped a finger into me. It was a strange sensation, but not unwelcome. His thumb continued to tease that something whilst his finger moved inside of me.

I barely noticed Jake lowering his head until I felt his tongue against that really sensitive area. My hips rose and I couldn't stop myself from pressing down as his tongue lapped my core. I could feel that familiar pressure building and this time Jake didn't stop. His tongue teased the most sensitive area and trailed down towards the inner lips, sucking them.

I gasped when his thumb pressed against that something again and I saw stars. My back arched as the pressure escaped. It lasted for what felt like an eternity. I slumped against the bed and he shifted to sit up, removing his boxers and laying back on top of me.

"That was really amazing." I gasped out.

"You ready?" He asked, and I realised what was happening.

My eyes went down and widened. I had never actually seen Jake naked. My eyes met his again and I nodded. I was definitely ready. He smiled and kissed my forehead.

"Hang on a minute." He leaned over, opening the bedisde drawer.

I had only ever put a condom on a bannana in health class before so this would be different. Jake opened one of the foil squares and handed it to me.

"I-i, um." I stuttered, sounding like an idiot.

He smirked and sat up, allowing me to see him properly. I pinched the tip and slowly started sliding it down his erection. My hands were shaking badly. I was really tempted to touch him, but was too afraid.

"Hey, don't look so scared." Jake chuckled, gripping my hand, making me grip him.

His hand enveloped mine and started to move up and down. My eyes went to Jake to find he was watching me. His lips were slightly parted and I watched when his head went back. My breathing hitched at the sight.

"Fuck." He groaned. His hips moved forward and I nearly leapt back.

He stopped and removed my hand. We lay down again and I felt him press against me. I tried not to tense up as the tip went in, followed by the rest until he was filling me. The first thing I noticed was the stinging pain. It wasn't really bad, but it felt sore and a little uncomfortable.

"It stings." I whispered.

"It always does the first time," Jake replied, kissing my lips, softly. "I promise this will be the only time I hurt you."

"I love you." I smiled.

"I love you too." He murmured.

The first few movements were tentative and gentle. It still stung, but I found that I could lift my hips to meet his. Our bodies moved together and I gasped when he hit a certain spot. The movements became less unsure and his lips met mine.

My hips rose and a soft thrum of pleasure built up inside me. That strange feeling from earlier started to rise again and I was suddenly tipped over the edge as the feeling enveloped my whole body. The world went bright and it felt like I was floating.

Jake's thrusts became sloppy and he let go as well. We both collapsed, completely exhausted. We stayed together for a few minutes, breathing deeply. Jake shifted and lay next to me. He disposed of the condom and pulled me closer, hugging me.

I pressed my forehead to his chest and enjoyed the way his heart was beating. I smiled when I felt his hand thread through my hair. My eyes closed and I fell asleep.

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