Love-Hate

I looked at myself I the mirror, I actually look and felt beautiful. It was graduation day and I had my hair in loose curls that fell down my back and my moms old graduation dress that will be making another trip down the isle tonight for the third time.
I personally loved the dress seeing as it was a royal blue strapless dress that complimented what little curves I ever did have.
My makeup done to and for perfection courtesy to my cosmetology teacher Mrs. Martin who in fact was one of my closet friends next to Lindsay and Pete.
It's been a year and a half even since Andy broke things off with me.
The first few months he kept trying to apologize but I'd push him away, I didn't want to hear it.
After summer vacation flew by he came back totally ignoring me, which was fine by me considering I knew he wasn't the man I had fallen for and that I needed to move on, I dated a few guys but they all went down in flames after Andy started to make god awful rumours about me things that weren't true.
My last boyfriend Jason broke up with me because Andy said I had diseases like HIV and I don't even know where he made that up from probably his little posse that is practically his shadow. I tried to tell Jason that it wasn't true but he wanted me to get tested and I told him 'not a chance' then he left me for some Miranda girl who he's still dating.
I did end up getting tested and I was clean I just shoved the test results in his face and walked away.
After Andy started to spread rumours I'd become an A-class bitch to everyone except the people who knew me personally but whenever it came to Andy I'd be the same exact girl I was before and after he'd broken up with me. Fragile and completely under his spell, not to mention he had his fair share of girlfriends who were all prettier than me so it's safe to say they were upgrades from me but I tried to show him I didn't care by dating guys who had his pleasing attitude but he manage to scare them all off which I found annoying and rude. I picked up the picture of us from my dresser of memory lane and my heart ached for him to come and save me.
"God I need a sign?" I asked looking up. I got no reply so I tried. "Satan?" And at that moment my doorbell rung making me jump.
I walked downstairs and opened it. Expecting it to be satan at my doorstep but close enough it was Andy who was all dressed up in his tux smiling at me.
"What are... You doing here Andrew?" I said crossing my arms as his blue eyes travelled down my body.
"Picking you up for graduation. Did you forget our promise?" He tutted me. I rolled my eyes and walked away from the door back to my room and left it open to let Andy in.
"Of course I didn't." I whispered once we got into my room and he sat on my bed which had my clothes I had on earlier sprawled all over the bed.
"Then why do you looked so surprised?" He asked with his stupid lopsided grin on his face.
"I thought you'd forget about." I raised my arms to quote "'us' when we broke up. Seemingly you forgot the other deeper promise you made to me."
I told him putting in my earrings my dad bought me when I first got my ears pierced way back when.
"What promise? The one where I promised to marry you? Or when I promised forever?" He said getting up and walking up to me brushing one finger against my cheekbone making the heat rush to my face.
"That's the one." I mumbled staring at his lips. I didn't feel nervous but butterflies were swarming around the pit of my stomach.
"I didn't forget that sweetheart." Andy said dangerously close to my face.
"You're beautiful Catherine." He whispered kissing my forehead making me close my eyes.
He always use to kiss my forehead at the most random moments and he always had a way that I mesmerized. Slowly and carefully as if I'd fall to pieces.
Once he pulled away he smiled at me and offered his arm for me.
"Come on Juliet, the limo awaits you." He said making me cackle and scrunch up my nose.
"You're using William Shakespeare? How tacky." I told him.
"Ah still the same Catherine. You were never one to be romantic." He laughed out loud.
"You do know how Romeo and Juliet ends right? If you're Romeo we both die." I said flatly.
"But I'd die for a good purpose." He told me.
"Dying because you think I'm dead? Not hardly a good purpose." I replied.
"Don't forget Juliet. You die because I'm dead." He winked making me roll my eyes. He won this round.
As we got to the limo the driver came over to open the door.
"Thank you." I said and got in.
"Thanks man." Andy told him patting his shoulder and the limo was empty as can be.
"So Catherine, how were you going to get to grad?" Andy asked.
"I was going to go with Lindsay and Pete-"
"And watch them swallow each other?" Andy said with a disgusted face, I hit him softly.
"Be nice. Lindsay use to have to watch us when we dated." I sighed and then it hit me.
I'm in a limo with Andrew Biersack, we were just acting like we never broke up and that nothing ever happened between us, like he never spread lies about me and how I never hated him. We were acting how we did when we were together and happy, so sure of our future together.
We had it all planned out, I would watch our six children while Andy went on tour and supported us so I didn't have to work and he'd fly home every birthday for our children who were going to be named Junior, Evan, Mason, Scarlett, Lucy, and baby Catherine.
I was going to go insane with our children while Andy went insane on stage performing in front of thousands of people. What a crazy life we'd have.
I looked at Andy who stopped laughing and stared back at me. I searched his eyes for any kind of explanation to why he did what he did, did he love me?
I desperately wanted to know but every time he was going to tell me I shrugged him off because I wasn't ready to hear it. Andy placed his hand on the back of my neck and leaned in slowly closing his eyes and then I closed my eyes waiting for him to meet my lips but instead I felt his forehead against mine.
"I'm sorry, I can't Catherine." He said and them we stopped outside the school.
"I-" I couldn't find anything to say, I wanted to tell him it was alright but it didn't even know if we were ever going to be alright.
"I'm sorry Catherine but you have to go in there alone." Andy said not looking at me. I opened my mouth to talk but shut it as I just got out without another word I felt my heart break all over again after I was carefully stitching it back together and he just rejected me again.
I turned back to Andy and he looked at me once before the door closed and all I seen was my reflection of someone who should be filled with pride as I was graduating but Andy somehow found to ruin even this day where I thought it would never rain on.
A tear dropped on my cheek as I wiped it away and ran away from the limo, away from the school, away from my problems.
A sob made it's way out of my throat as I kept running holding my dress up so I wouldn't ruin such a beautiful thing. After I ended up at the cemetery, where they had buried my grandmother Catherine who had given her beauty to me and her eye colour, I gently sat down in front of her tombstone.
My tears no longer running down my face but I somehow knew my face was a mess. I looked at the tombstone.
"What do I do now Nona? I'm lost." I said hugging the stone and I felt somewhat protected as held onto it for dear life and cried my heart out. The wind picked up but it was warm and I soon felt my eyes close.
"I can't sleep." I murmured. "I need to be somewhere Nona." I whispered before I became unconscious.
I didn't dream of anything, except darkness and I felt peaceful being there staring into the dark.
"I found her!" Someone shouted and I cracked open my eyes and was blinded by what I thought was the end but it was a flash light, oh how ironic.
"You're so cold." I knew that voice from anywhere it was my brother Brendan. He slid his arms around my body and picked me up carefully.
"Brendan." I whispered and I felt his lips to my forehead.
"What is it Cat." He replied softly.
"I'm cold." I said and grabbed fistful's of his shirt trying to find any sign of warmth. I opened my eyes again.
"Brendan. I'm late, I need to graduate." I told him my eyes closing again.
"Sh Cat. Just sleep. You're tired." Brendan said making me nod and close my eyes.
"Oh my god Catherine." I heard my mom but didn't dare to open my eyes, I couldn't face her just yet.
"My baby." She said sniffling. And I felt her warm hands on my face.
"I thought I lost you." And I was placed in a warm vehicle still in Brendan's arms but now my mom was hovering over me I could tell from her shaking breath.
I fell asleep again but woke up in a bed and someone hugging me. I sat up and noticed I was in my parents bed with my parents both cuddling me, my mom slept with a sad frown upon her beautiful face and my father with the same expression.
I quietly got out of bed and wandered the house, my brothers and sisters were here all watching tv in the lounge room but I quickly backed away.
I didn't want to answer any questions instead I went to my room and seen my diploma on my bed with roses and a note.
This wasn't a dream, I had missed one of the most important days in my life, I had missed my graduation. I missed the ceremony. I picked up the note and sat on my bed taking a deep breathe before opening it.

Dear my little angel,
You finally did it my darling! You've graduated and I'm so proud of my little angel for doing so. I'm missing you from up above very much and wish I could've stayed a little longer until you've graduated so I could give you my gift I've planned since the moment I seen you.
Follow my instructions. Behind the letter will be a card, go down to the bank with your diploma and give it the lady at the front and she'll tell you exactly what it's for okay my little angel? How's life treating you? Any boys break your heart yet? I'm sorry I can't be there to help you heal physically but I'll always be alive in your heart and in your memories.
Goodness sakes it seems like only yesterday I was holding you in my arms for the first time and when you smiled at me I knew you were exactly like your mother who had smiled the same exact toothless grin even if she couldn't see me.
I love you very much my little angel, I'll always be watching over you and thinking about you.
Love, Nona your big angel xoxo

After I finished reading the letter I hugged it tightly and it felt like a hug from her, I could still smell her presence in the letter. I looked at the back and as she said there was a card. I picked up the roses and they too were from my big angel.
I set them carefully on my bed and picked up my diploma and put it on my desk. I wanted some tea.
"You finally got to get your letter from Granny?" My brother Brendan said startling me.
"Yeah." I whispered a tear escaping my eye. Brendan came forward to hug me.
"You gave us quite a scare Cat. Mom fainted twice and dad actually cried when we didn't see you walk down the isle or see you go up and get your diploma from the princpal. You practically worried the whole damn crowd." He said pulling me in for a hug.
"Don't ever go missing again okay?" He asked.
"I promise I won't." I said and hugged him right.
"Let's go get some tea and go sit on the roof? Lucas and Sarah will join I bet." He said making me smile.
"Okay." I whispered and followed him downstairs.
"Look a shooting star!" Sarah said gasping point up and we seen it.
"Make a wish." Lucas said with his simplest smile.
I closed my eyes and made a wish with all my might before sitting up to drink my tea.
It was about four in the morning and we were sitting on top the roof sipping out tea or in Sarah's case her coffee talking about everything and anything.
"Do you remember we'd always come up here whenever we hide from mom." Sarah said making us all laugh.
"Or whenever that one girl was here? Lindsay was it?" Lucas joked making me slap his arm.
"I'll have you know Lindsay and I are still friends." I told him.
"So Catherine." Brendan said making me give him all of my attention. "What happened today?"
"Yeah sister." Lucas and Sarah said with listening ears.
"I'm not ready to talk about it." I told them laying down and looking at the stars.
"Was it with that Andy kid?" Lucas asked. I sighed but didn't reply but I knew it just sold Andy out.
"I'll kill him! I fucking knew he was no good." Lucas growled.
"Lucas you need to calm down before you get arrested." Sarah said making us laugh again.
What would I do without my annoying and loving siblings?
After about another couple of hours and after watching the sunrise come up we all went back inside for some sleep.
We all moved the blankets and pillows down to the living room and made a comfy bed with teamwork well basically just me and Sarah because my idiot brothers were having a nasty pillow fight and they broke one of the picture frames from the wall.
We now all laid huddled under the blankets with me and Sarah in the middle and Lucas and Brendan on the outside since they insisted because they were 'men' I mean what man sleeps with their siblings? Eh who cares I missed this, they made my crappy day become less crappy.
They truly cared about me, of course we had our ups and downs but what family doesn't? No one is perfect and I know that, believe I have three older siblings growing up not to mention my other relatives. Sarah's snoring lulled me to sleep.

"Mom I'm going out for a bit. Be back soon okay?" I said with my diploma and the card in my bag.
"Okay sweetheart." My mom yelled from the kitchen as I walked out the front door. I had only woken up an hour ago with my brother and sister still peacefully sleep away but I had places to go says Nona. I got in my car and fired up the engine before pulling away from the driveway.
I wonder what my big angel has in store for me? A few minutes go by of me singing along to some Simple Plan as I got out of my car and walked into the bank wearing a smile on my face to the receptionist.
"Hello how can I help you today?" She asked and I pulled out the card and gave it to her. She smiled and called somebody on the phone.
"Hello Frank? Yes I have a young Catherine Nicho here with me and-okay. I'll send her right up immediately." She hung up and smiled at me.
"Mr.Greens would like to meet with you. Just go to that elevator and push the too floor. He is excited to meet you Ms.Nicho." She told me making me nod slightly and I went up the very high building.
As soon as I knocked on the door a muffled 'come in' answered and I walked in to be meeting Mr.Greens who was a very old man with a nice tux on.
"Hello Catherine. You must be Catherine's granddaughter yes?" He asked getting up and offering me a seat on his leather chairs.
"Yes that's me." I said smiling.
"I'm Frank by the way." He grinned. "As planned I believe you have your diploma?" He asked.
"Yep. Right here." I said pulling it from my bag and handing it over to him. He pulled out a pair of dark brown glasses and placed them on his face while looking at the paper.
"So shall we get to business then?" He asked giving it back to me.
"I'm sorry but all that was in the letter my Nona-Catherine left was for me to come here." I said as he went to his desk.
"Well Catherine. Your grandmother has left you a little money." He said going over to his desk. "A few years before she passed she had written her will and handed all of her things to you." He said smiling and my jaw dropped slightly. Everything? I could only wonder what she left me.
"Now shall we get down to business?" He asked making me sigh and nod with a smile. She said follow her instructions and that's exactly what I'm going to do.

Notes

I apologize if I offend you with these religious remarks, it's not my intention.
So I'm excited! This is the last part of the prologue! So now the story may begin!
Thank you all for the generous comments and I will be replying right after this is uploaded.
I did have a different chapter for the prologue but the writing was shitty and this writing is much better.
I hope you enjoy this third chapter.