Love-Hate

It's been one month since Andy broke up with me and it still feels like a fucking dream.
I see him all the damn time in school but I always turn around or avoid all contact with him.
It's been hard to see him and not kiss him or to be wrapped in his arms.
How can he be so damn heartless? I feel like crying every time I look at him and it sucks because he's not there to wipe my tears away like he use to. My heart breaks every time I hug Patrick or whenever one of my friends bring Andy up, I just simply walk away. I don't need to hear that.
Right now I'm sitting under a tree in the shade watching the world go by as I sit there frozen as a rock.
The only noise would be my breath as I watch the cheerleaders practise in the grass a few yards away. My eyes search for some sort of scenery that I haven't already seen until they found Andy's eyes.
He staring directly at me, my heart starts to race and my palms get sweaty. It's not often when I look in Andy's eyes but every time I do I don't want to look away.
"Cat. Hello earth to Cat." My friend Lindsay said making me break eye contact. I looked down and looked at her with my heart still beating a hundred miles per minute.
"What?" I asked as she made herself comfortable.
"You said you were going to be right back and you never came back." Lindsay frowned.
"I'm sorry but I can't stand to be indoors, I need to be outside." I told her.
"So you could see Andy?" She snapped making my eyes widen.
"What? No. You just.. Don't get it." I sighed and brought my knees up to my chest.
"I don't get it because you never tell me anything!" Lindsay said her voice raising. She got up.
"You know what screw you. I'm the only one in the group who tried to be your friend but you're too 'heartbroken' to even realize you lost all of your friends. Bye." Lindsay said and stomped away leaving me the same way I felt every day. Empty.
I sighed and began picking at the grass beside me.
"What a show." Andy suddenly said making me jump. I looked up at him and looked down, he looked the same he had always looked while I looked rough.
"Are you going to say anything?" He asked sitting next to me. I shrug and continue to pick at the grass.
"Listen Catherine. I'm really sorry." Andy sighed and I got up quickly before I start to bawl like the baby I was.
"And I'm sorry for loving you the way I did. I'm sorry I was just a dare to you. I'm sorry you had to go through with it." I told him before trying to speed walk away.
"Admit it. I was the best thing that ever happened to you." Andy said making me turn around.
"Yes! I fucking admit it. You were the greatest thing that ever happened to me! You seemed so sure and now you're the worst thing to happen to me Andrew!" I shouted at him.
"You're going to regret saying that." Andy sneered.
"I regret the whole damn year and everything I said through it!" I snapped but truth was I didn't. I wanted the old Andy to still love me and say it every time he slept over or whenever I slept over.
I wanted a time machine to turn back time to where we loved each other. I meant everything I said during our relationship and still fucking do.
"You're lying." Andy said his face emotionless.
"I wish I was." I said my voice breaking.
"Were you always this bitchy?" He asked me.
"Were you always a liar!?" I shot back.
"You know what whatever. Sorry I tried to apologize." He said backing away.
"Good! Walk away like you did with our whole relationship." I growled and turned away and stalked off to cool down.
Let see what I all lost.
•My boyfriend
•My friends
•My social life
•My dignity
•My heart
•My happiness
It looks like everything Andy wanted to take away was gone. He'd done a good job. I cooled off and went back to school entering the building feeling empty. I don't even know what to do anymore, my life came tumbling down so quickly and that had to happen was that little mr perfect had to dump me and this is the way my life fell.
When I got to my locker I was busy opening it when Lindsay walked up to me.
"Hey I'm sorry about earlier. You need me and I wasn't there." She said. I smiled a little and pulled her in for a hug.
"It's fine Lin." I sighed. "Let's go to class okay?" And we walked to class arm and arm, all I could think was about Andy since he's in the same class as me and how he seems so fine and here I am a fucking ship wreck because the guy I love doesn't love me back.
Andy looked around the room and he looked at me, he mouthed something I couldn't read but after about the seventh time I finally understood and he mouthed. 'I'm sorry.'
Why the hell would he say sorry? If he knew we would end up like this why would he even take the dare? I shook my head slowly and looked down, feeling the pain take over as the tears were threatening to spill.
What is he sorry for?

Notes

So this is chapter two and I hope you like it.
This is part two of the prologue and it's almost over so the story may begin!