Shadow Children
8 days...
“So Jay…” Sammi said raising her eyebrow.
“I know what you are thinking and no I still have the v card!” I said getting defensive.
“Okay, okay… but he is really sweet. How do you feel?” Juliet asked.
“Terrible… I feel like someone hit me with their car, ran back over me, and then changed vehicles and ran me over with a truck and then lit my throat on fire…”
“Aw poor baby…” said Niki walking in and squeezing my cheeks.
“How are things between you and Ash?” Sammi asked her.
“No more than friends with the occational bed call. Nothing big…” She said looking disappointed.
“I’m pretty sure he likes you so don’t get upset. There’s still hope for him to not be a complete womanizer.” I said reassuring her.
“How are you sure about that? He hits on every Barbie doll-plastic girl he sees!” She came back at me.
“Calm down, calm down…” Juliet said rubbing her shoulders. Just then I heard the door bell ring.
“DANNY FUCKING WORSNOP! Here in our room again!” I heard Andy yell.
“What’s up man?” Danny asked.
“We’ve been partying and you saw us the other day and shit like that…” Matt answered.
“Why does CC look like he hasn’t showered in days and like he hasn’t changed his clothes once?” Danny asked. I heard some whispering, but it wasn’t able to pick up any words. I saw Danny walk over and knock on the door. The girls got up and evacuated the room. He came over and sat down next to me.
“I heard Andy’s version of the story, what’s yours?” He asked.
“Well I found out that either my band-“ He cut me off.
“No… from the beginning…” I just nodded and started my story.
“And then CC found my scars when he was helping me get excess grease paint off of my wrists. I had to tell him the story, and then Ash saw me crying. Then we fell asleep on each other and then the other guys found out…” I finished. Danny hugged me and stroked my hair.
“You are stronger than that and I’m glad CC is your boyfriend, everybody here has somebody. Whether it’s Matt and Andy, or Sammi and Jinxx, or even Niki and Ashley… And you have everybody to turn to. There is no dead end.” I hugged him and said thank you.
“Rest up, you’ve got a big day ahead of you...” He said.
“Dude! Why were you petting my girlfriend’s hair?” CC yelled.
“CC he was just being a good friend, don’t worry…” I croaked
“Anyways guys… I have to run, I’ll see you later Andy!” Danny yelled half way out the door.
CC’s POV:
After Danny left my jealousy went down a few notches. It’s not my fault I’m protective of my girl! I walked into the room and sat down on the bed.
“I’m sorry about me being like that…” I said snuggling into her chest.
“It’s fine, I happen to find it adorable when your voice gets high pitched…” She said. I looked into her eyes.
“You know I love you right?” She nodded, “You are fucking beautiful and awesome! And I can’t believe that you’re mine…”
“Well you’re the most amazing boyfriend ever, and you are quite handsome I might add!” She said right back. I noticed that she wasn’t wearing her bracelets; mindlessly I was tracing her scars.
“Each and every single one of these is beautiful…” I whispered.
“No they’re not…” She argued. I took off my cuffs like the first time on the bus so she could see mine too. Silence fell over us, we were just looking into eachother’s eyes remembering that day on the bus. The corners of her mouth lifted up into a slight smile. My eyes were beginning to close.
Back to Jay’s POV:
I woke up cuddled in CC’s arms. There was 8 days left until the competition, big whoop. I went into the lounge and saw Jinxx sitting at the table.
“No Andy this time huh?” I asked.
“Nope, but the sunrise was beautiful.” He said quietly not to wake up Jagger who fell asleep on the couch.
“It looks like it…” I said. He smiled.
“Did you have a good two days rest?” He asked.
“Like any teenager of course I did!”
“I thought so…” He said, “Can I ask you one thing?”
“Shoot!”
“If you knew how uncomfortable you were going to be why did you choose to let your band play?” He asked. I knew it was going to be this topic, but all I could think of was a quote that I once saw.
“If you want to sing out… sing out…” I whispered. He looked a little confused, but I got up before he could say anything else. I grabbed Niki’s guitar and walked to the elevator and went down to the lobby. And no I didn’t forget my phone. I sat in the lobby playing a song that I wrote a while ago.
“Do you really think, really think that I’m going to love you after the pain you put me through…” I sang. Once I was done I heard clapping and I looked up, it was Andy.
“Wow… we really need to write something together. I think a Fear the Silence and BVB collab. is in the making.” I smiled at his comment.
“I guess so…” I said. He saw a sharpie in the guitar case.
“Can I?” I nodded at him, “Okay turn around…”
“What are you doing?” I asked.
“Writing a quote on your back!”
“How am I supposed to know what it says?” I asked.
“You’re not!” He said.
Andy’s POV:
I went down into the lobby trying to think and I heard Jay singing. When she was done I clapped.
“Wow… we really need to write something together. I think a Fear the Silence and BVB collab. is in the making.” She smiled. I slowly walked closer.
“I guess so…” She said. Just then I noticed a Sharpie in her case.
“Can I?” She nodded, “okay turn around…”
“What are you doing?” She asked.
“Writing a quote on your back!”
“How am I supposed to know what it says?” She asked.
“You’re not!” I said. I drew the words carefully in between her shoulder blades right next to the lyrics that she had previously tattooed there. I wrote Never loose hope and smiled.
“Please tell me!” She whined.
“Nope figure it out on your own!” I argued.
“So is there any plan for today?” She asked me.
“Not really, just packing to take the plane tomorrow…” I replied. She nodded.
“Let’s go back upstairs…” She said. I helped pack up her stuff and we headed to the elevator.
We got back into the lobby and I heard Jay’s band practicing.
“How are they up playing this early?” She whispered.
“Want to go back down stairs?” I asked. She shook her head.
“I’m going to go back to sleep…”
“I know what you are thinking and no I still have the v card!” I said getting defensive.
“Okay, okay… but he is really sweet. How do you feel?” Juliet asked.
“Terrible… I feel like someone hit me with their car, ran back over me, and then changed vehicles and ran me over with a truck and then lit my throat on fire…”
“Aw poor baby…” said Niki walking in and squeezing my cheeks.
“How are things between you and Ash?” Sammi asked her.
“No more than friends with the occational bed call. Nothing big…” She said looking disappointed.
“I’m pretty sure he likes you so don’t get upset. There’s still hope for him to not be a complete womanizer.” I said reassuring her.
“How are you sure about that? He hits on every Barbie doll-plastic girl he sees!” She came back at me.
“Calm down, calm down…” Juliet said rubbing her shoulders. Just then I heard the door bell ring.
“DANNY FUCKING WORSNOP! Here in our room again!” I heard Andy yell.
“What’s up man?” Danny asked.
“We’ve been partying and you saw us the other day and shit like that…” Matt answered.
“Why does CC look like he hasn’t showered in days and like he hasn’t changed his clothes once?” Danny asked. I heard some whispering, but it wasn’t able to pick up any words. I saw Danny walk over and knock on the door. The girls got up and evacuated the room. He came over and sat down next to me.
“I heard Andy’s version of the story, what’s yours?” He asked.
“Well I found out that either my band-“ He cut me off.
“No… from the beginning…” I just nodded and started my story.
“And then CC found my scars when he was helping me get excess grease paint off of my wrists. I had to tell him the story, and then Ash saw me crying. Then we fell asleep on each other and then the other guys found out…” I finished. Danny hugged me and stroked my hair.
“You are stronger than that and I’m glad CC is your boyfriend, everybody here has somebody. Whether it’s Matt and Andy, or Sammi and Jinxx, or even Niki and Ashley… And you have everybody to turn to. There is no dead end.” I hugged him and said thank you.
“Rest up, you’ve got a big day ahead of you...” He said.
“Dude! Why were you petting my girlfriend’s hair?” CC yelled.
“CC he was just being a good friend, don’t worry…” I croaked
“Anyways guys… I have to run, I’ll see you later Andy!” Danny yelled half way out the door.
CC’s POV:
After Danny left my jealousy went down a few notches. It’s not my fault I’m protective of my girl! I walked into the room and sat down on the bed.
“I’m sorry about me being like that…” I said snuggling into her chest.
“It’s fine, I happen to find it adorable when your voice gets high pitched…” She said. I looked into her eyes.
“You know I love you right?” She nodded, “You are fucking beautiful and awesome! And I can’t believe that you’re mine…”
“Well you’re the most amazing boyfriend ever, and you are quite handsome I might add!” She said right back. I noticed that she wasn’t wearing her bracelets; mindlessly I was tracing her scars.
“Each and every single one of these is beautiful…” I whispered.
“No they’re not…” She argued. I took off my cuffs like the first time on the bus so she could see mine too. Silence fell over us, we were just looking into eachother’s eyes remembering that day on the bus. The corners of her mouth lifted up into a slight smile. My eyes were beginning to close.
Back to Jay’s POV:
I woke up cuddled in CC’s arms. There was 8 days left until the competition, big whoop. I went into the lounge and saw Jinxx sitting at the table.
“No Andy this time huh?” I asked.
“Nope, but the sunrise was beautiful.” He said quietly not to wake up Jagger who fell asleep on the couch.
“It looks like it…” I said. He smiled.
“Did you have a good two days rest?” He asked.
“Like any teenager of course I did!”
“I thought so…” He said, “Can I ask you one thing?”
“Shoot!”
“If you knew how uncomfortable you were going to be why did you choose to let your band play?” He asked. I knew it was going to be this topic, but all I could think of was a quote that I once saw.
“If you want to sing out… sing out…” I whispered. He looked a little confused, but I got up before he could say anything else. I grabbed Niki’s guitar and walked to the elevator and went down to the lobby. And no I didn’t forget my phone. I sat in the lobby playing a song that I wrote a while ago.
“Do you really think, really think that I’m going to love you after the pain you put me through…” I sang. Once I was done I heard clapping and I looked up, it was Andy.
“Wow… we really need to write something together. I think a Fear the Silence and BVB collab. is in the making.” I smiled at his comment.
“I guess so…” I said. He saw a sharpie in the guitar case.
“Can I?” I nodded at him, “Okay turn around…”
“What are you doing?” I asked.
“Writing a quote on your back!”
“How am I supposed to know what it says?” I asked.
“You’re not!” He said.
Andy’s POV:
I went down into the lobby trying to think and I heard Jay singing. When she was done I clapped.
“Wow… we really need to write something together. I think a Fear the Silence and BVB collab. is in the making.” She smiled. I slowly walked closer.
“I guess so…” She said. Just then I noticed a Sharpie in her case.
“Can I?” She nodded, “okay turn around…”
“What are you doing?” She asked.
“Writing a quote on your back!”
“How am I supposed to know what it says?” She asked.
“You’re not!” I said. I drew the words carefully in between her shoulder blades right next to the lyrics that she had previously tattooed there. I wrote Never loose hope and smiled.
“Please tell me!” She whined.
“Nope figure it out on your own!” I argued.
“So is there any plan for today?” She asked me.
“Not really, just packing to take the plane tomorrow…” I replied. She nodded.
“Let’s go back upstairs…” She said. I helped pack up her stuff and we headed to the elevator.
We got back into the lobby and I heard Jay’s band practicing.
“How are they up playing this early?” She whispered.
“Want to go back down stairs?” I asked. She shook her head.
“I’m going to go back to sleep…”
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