Rose's POV:

When I knock gently on the BVB bus, Jinxx answered groggily, but when he saw my tear-stained cheeks, he pulled me into his arms comfortingly.

"C-can I stay with you guys?" I hiccuped.

Jinxx smiled softly, "of course you can, Rosie. You know you're always welcome."

He then led me into the for once, silent bus, and I collapsed into his arms, no longer having the strength to hold myself up.

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*Flashback*

"Rosie," Chris began slowly, "what are those?"

I didn't know how to answer him, I was frozen. My worst fears coming true. They'd think I was some mental person and drop me off at the closest rehab centre.

Ricky approached me, gently placing his hands on my shoulder, but I still flinched away from the contact. "Rose, can you talk to us? We just want to help you," he said reassuringly.

Ryan nodded in agreement and added, "we care about you. We want you happy and safe."

Balz seemed stunned. He had yet to move or speak, and seemed permanently paralyzed, his gaze fixated on the angry cuts slashed across my pale skin.

Ghost wrapped me in his arms, careful not to brush up against the red wounds, and wiped away the tears that had unconsciously begun to fall. I tried my best to smile, but my mind still hasn't recovered from her brutal intrusion the other day.

"I'm sorry," I whisper, my voice barely audible.

I then raced towards my bunk, and I started hastily shoving everything into my bags. I still when I saw a flash of metal, picking up the blade in cautious hands, I slipped it into my pocket. Then I picked up my bags and turned to rush out of the bus when I bumped into a tall figure. Chris.

"Rose," he said weakly, "don't go. We can help you. I can help you. I love you," he whimpered.

I dropped my bags and wrapped my arms around him, and he hugged me tightly to his chest. "It's okay, it'll all be okay. I promise. I'm not letting you go ever agin," he whispered.

I kissed his neck, the highest place I could teach without him bending down, and pulled away. He frowned and reached for me, but I stepped back, picking up my bags in shaking hands.

"I need to figure out everything before I restart a relationship with you. I love you so much, which is why you don't deserve to have to deal with my shit. BVB has dealt with me before, so I think it's best I stay with them until I leave. Besides, it'll give you and the guys a chance to rebuild your friendship and trust within each other. I'm constantly a problem for you all, I'll leave as soon as we reach the next venue. I love you, Chris?" I said as tears filled my eyes once more.

He shook his head and opened his mouth to speak but I was already gone.

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*end of flashback*

I woke in the back lounge. I guess Jinxx had carried me here after I'd fainted.

I scanned the outside world as we drove, the moon casting shadows on the deserted roads. It must've been a little over 1am, and there weren't any loud noises from the front of the bus either.

I pulled my razor as i leaved against the window pane, turning the weapon around absentmindedly. I stared down at my bare wrists, scowling at the marks caused by my own hand. I shouldn't have to deal with this.

In one fluent motion, I opened the window and threw the blade out. Smiling to myself as I did so.

Notes

Shitty chapter sorry