The Devil in the Mirror

Rose's POV:

I woke to the comforting aroma of coffee and the sound of the guys yelling in the front lounge. For a moment, I forgot what day it was and where I was. But then the curtain was pulled back slightly, revealing my boyfriend, with a goofy smile on his face. Once he noticed I was awake, he pressed his lips to my forehead, and I snuggled further into the blanket draped over me, relishing in its warmth.

"Morning, baby," he smiled, "how you sleep?"

I sit up, "okay I guess, why do you ask?"

"I don't know, I heard a lot of movement or something last night. And I thought you left actually. Everything alright?" He asks.

For a moment, my chest tightens, "everything's fine. Maybe it was one of the guys?" I ask, diverting the attention from myself.

"Yeah, maybe," he says uncertainly, but chooses to drop the subject.

I smile and jump out of the bunk, running my hands quickly through my hair before slipping into the front lounge. I can't let any of the guys know that I cut again, I'm hoping maybe my false positive attitude will block any suspicions. Luckly I pulled a sweatshirt on over Andy's t-shirt last night, shielding my new scars from MIW.

"Morning guys!" I chirp, ruffling each of the guy's hair as I pass them.

Through all of their morning yelling, they all pause when Chris and I enter. To be honest, I'm scared they'll disapprove of me getting back together with Chris. I know that they're friends with him, but the look in their eyes when they found out he hit me, and when they left me alone, it just killed me. Especially since I don't want them to think I'm an idiot.

"Morning sunshine!" Balz shouts, poking me in the side.

I squirm away from him and pout, "that's not very nice!" I tease him. "Ghost! Ricky! Balz is being mean to me!"

"Fuck off Rosie!" Balz mock scowls.

"Balz! Stop tortiring the girl!" Ricky scolds, hugging me.

I stick my tongue out at Balz and he returns the gesture, making Ricky laugh at our childishness.

Chris smiles and watches our dispute, but I can tell there is tension in the air. I feel like the guys hold anger towards Chrus for what happened. I can't live the next month like this, so I decide to diffuse the awkwardness the only way I know how. Abruptly and blunt.

"Alright boys, so there's some tension or whatnot here, and since you guys are a band, that can't happen. So, start talking!" I exclaim, gesturing my hands wildly.

The guys give me a look, and Chris clears his throat, "uh, yeah. I apologized to Rose, and she chose to forgive me, so why are you still mad?"

Ryan rubs the back of his neck awkwardly, "um, well Chris, Rosie is also our friend, and we can't just let the fact that you hurt her go. I'm sorry man, and I understand you're sorry, but this goes for her as well, it'll take awhile for her to be comfortable again around you, and for us to forgive you."

Ricky nods agreement, "yeah, it's nothing personal."

Chris closes his eyes and takes a deep breath, "so let met get this straight. You guys don't trust me? What, do you think she should be with Andy, or stay with BVB?" His voice raises with every word, making me slightly uncomfortable.

"We're not saying that!" Ryan defends.

"Actually, I am. I don't trust you with her Chris. Sorry, but you hurt her, and the night she was hurt by someone else she used to trust. Just, maybe give her some space, let her make her own decision." Ghost interrupts.

Chris narrows his eyes at him, and I shift in discomfort, "guys, please stop. I was just trying to help, maybe I'm causing too many problems. Maybe I should stay with BVB, just for the time being. It'll keep everyone happy," i add.

"no, you cant!" Chris exclaims.

Ghost puts his arm protectively across my waist, a silent warning telling Chris to back off. "She can do whatever she wants," Ghost claims.

Chris looks to be fuming, but manages to reign in his anger.

"I think I'm going to go see Black Veil Brides, and I'll be staying with them until the end of tour," I whisper.

Chris eyes me but doesn't stop me. Because they're all to busy staring at the cuts on my thighs.

Notes

fillerish chapter
sorry :(