My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Nikki's POV:
I forcefully dug my heels in the porch as Ashley kept dragging me towards his grandparent's house. He turned around and gave me a huge grin. He reached for my cheek and pulled me closer, kissing my lips.

It was the Christmas evening and we arrived at Ashley's grandparents. I was anxious as fuck and Ashley didn't help me at all. Of course he assured me that his grandparents will love me in an instant but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to believe him.

I haven't slept too much last night because my nerves were getting the best of me. So I spent around 6 hours picking my outfit. I didn't know if I should be myself or if I should cover every inch of skin. I chose a silver long sleeved blouse and some black skinny jeans that weren't ripped, adding my converses.

When Ashley saw me he frowned and told me that we weren't going to a funeral. So he played dress-up with me. He made me wear a black short top that exposed my stomach and my lower back, claiming that my OUTLAW tattoo should always be visible. He picked for me some ripped white jeans and wanted to make me wear heels.

He changed his mind when he saw me giving him the death glare and chose my black cowboy boots. Already being late, I just let him have it and I grabbed my jacket and some bracelets. Now, being on the Purdy porch I wished I hadn't let Ashley dress me up. What if his grandparents get the wrong impression?

''C'mon, Tiger. It's gonna be okay."

"What if it's not? What if they don't like me? What if they don't like my music? Or they think that I'm weird? Or that I am too slutty? Or-''

Ashley stopped my babbling by grabbing the back of my neck and colliding his lips with mine. My mind went blank as his tongue traced my bottom lip and I gasped when he bit it genly, pulling away afterwards.

"They will like you. My grandpa loves your music and my grandma said that it has a very strong meaning. You're weird anyway and you're not slutty, you're just smoking hot.'' he said winking and I frowned.

"What do you mean I'm weird anyway?''

"Well, for start... You're dating me." he smiled kissing my forehead.

I blushed and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He chuckled and kissed the top of my head, drawing circles on my back.

"They're here!" I heard a lady shout.

I quickly turned around and I saw Mrs. Purdy, smiling as she watched us.

"Grandma!" Ashley yelled as he dragged me after him.

He hugged her tight and I smiled, seeing him so happy. His grandpa came and he looked straight at me. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding once I saw him smiling at me widely. Ashley hugged him too and his grandma invited us inside.

"So, you are the girl that we heard so much about." Mrs. Purdy said hugging me tight.

"That's me." I answered hugging her back.

"'Bout time this little devil would settle down." Ms. Purdy commented as he hugged me too.

"Hey! It worth the waiting, grandpa. Now, I have the girl of my dreams and the best part is that she's just as crazy as I am." Ashley said proudly, wrapping an arm around my waist and kissing my temple.

I was pretty sure that my face had the color of a tomato as they invited us to the living room to chit chat. I found myself relaxing pretty fast. They were awesome. Even though they were old people, they were probably cooler than most of the people I knew.

They asked us about everything. How we met, how we realized we love each other, tour, Warped, Ashley's proposal, everything. It was kinda hard to talk about a few things, like the time when I miscarried and my suicide attempt but Ashley managed to change the subject smoothly and I was grateful for that. His grandpa actually asked for my autograph and told me that he simply loves my music.

I nearly fainted when Mrs. Purdy joined him and practically worshiped my voice qualities. They made fun of our matching OUTLAW tattoo and said that we should probably choose that as our wedding theme. I just nodded smiling, knowing that the marriage was still something soft for me.

"Hey, Nikki. Would you like to help me with the plates? I think the turkey is ready.(A/N: My mom always cooks turkey on Christmas, so yeah...). Mrs. Purdy said.

"Of course, I would love to."

Ashley reluctantly let go of my hand and I stood up, following Mrs. Purdy to the kitchen. I set the plates on the table and she smiled at me after she pulled the turkey out of the oven. I smiled back and she grabbed my hand, looking at my engagement ring.

"You have no idea how happy you made us, Nikki. You're the only girl who managed to tame him." she said, her eyes watering a little.

"He tamed me. I was a wreck, Mrs. Purdy. I didn't exactly care about anything. I lived reckless and I did everything I wanted because I was broken. But..." I stopped feeling the tears burning my eyes.

"You found him, don't you?" she smiled, tightening my hand.

"Yes. And even though, there were several moments when I wanted to kill him... I knew that I would be nothing without him."

I looked down and I felt a few tears escape my eyes. Mrs. Purdy handed me a tissue and helped me sit on one of the chairs. She sat in front of me and took a deep breath before speaking again.

"I remember when you were in a coma. He was so desperate. We never imagined that he could love someone with so much force. We were crazy worried because he kept saying the same thing as you. That he is nothing without you. That his life would be worthless without you. He was so damaged and he kept blaming himslef. At some point, we wanted to fly to Ohio because we were worried that he might..." she stopped and I looked away.

I remembered the...encounter I had with my parents when I was in coma. I remembered when I woke up and I told him that he's not the one to give up. I remembered how he stared at me and asked me how do I know. It was really terrifing. It was one of the times when I realized just how much I love Ashley. How much I depended on him.

"Those times are gone, Mrs. Purdy. We're over stupid fights and reckless decisions. We really want to take it slow now. We want to make it right this time." I smiled and she nodded happily.

"It smells wonderful!" Ashley said walking in the kitchen with his nose up,pretty much like a dog.

"Time to eat!" His grandpa shouted placing himself on a chair and starting to slaughter the turkey.

Ashley gave me his famous grin as he sat near me, face to face with his grandparents. During the dinner, we exchanged several glances and I knew what he wanted. I couldn't help but shift my positions every time he would lick his lips or moaned in pleasure at the food's taste. It was weird considering that we were having dinner with his grandparents but he didn't seem to mind.

We ate the best turkey I've ever tasted and we continued to talk about random things. After the dinner, Mrs. Purdy gave us her famous chocolate cookies. I swear to God! Those cookies were the devil's instruments! I ate one and I couldn't get enough. I stopped only when I was full and I had to fought with Ashley for the last one. We ended up splittling it,because neither of us wouldn't give up. Ashley's grandparents laughed hard seeing us practically growling at each other over a cookie.

"Why don't you take Nikki to the horse stable while I'm making more cookies?" His grandma said while his grandpa managed to stop laughing.

"Great idea. C'mon, Tiger. You have to see my horses."

His eyes lit up like a Christmas tree as he dragged me after him. I barely managed to wave to his grandparents as he slid in his boots, making me do the same. I grabbed my purse and we exited the house. He waved back to his grandparents, who were watching us as we headed to the stable.

I managed to take my contraceptive that I always take in the evening as Ashley practically dragged me after him. Yeah, better a pill than a condom. My breath was caught in my throat when he opened the door and I took a deep breath.

Once we entered inside, I was slammed against the door and Ashley's lips devoured mine. I dropped my purse as I wrapped my legs around his waist and kissed him back hungrily. He pushed me harder against the door and I could feel just how badly he wanted me.

I moved down to his neck and bit his soft spot, enjoying the sound of his groans. He started to rub himself against me and I let out a loud moan. His hands cupped my ass and he squeezed it hard.

"The stable? Really, Ash?" I breathed and he chuckled.

"Have a problem with that?" He asked licking my collarbone.

"Yeah... I...I wanna ride a horse...." I said and he looked at me deviously.

"Only if you promise it won't be the only thing you will ride tonight."

"I promise." I said laughing.

He pecked my lips and set me back of my feet. He grabbed my hand and led me to the horses. There were 5 horses and I gotta say they looked awesome. two of them were brown, one grey, one white and one black.

"These are mine." he pointed to the black and the white one. "This is Storm and that's Snowball."

"Which one do you ride often?" I asked as I patted Storm's mane.

"Well, Storm is pretty reckless. So I go with Snowball. You did this before?''

"Yeah, when I was around 8. It's been a while." I said frowning.

"C'mon, I have an idea."

He smiled before placing a saddle on Snowball. He led her outside and I followed him confused. He climbed on it and extended his hand to me. I climbed behind him and I wrapped my arms around him tight.

He motioned to Snowball and we left fast. After about ten minutes we arrived at a lake shore. It was pretty much like the one where I had my old lake house. The sun was about to set as Ashley helped me get off the horse and led me to the shore.

We just sat down with our fingers intertwined, watching the sunset. My breath quickened when Ashley lifted my chin and stared into my eyes. He moved his thumb over my bottom lip while I got lost in his beautiful chocolate orbs.

"I love you, Tiger." He whispered against my lips.

"I love you more."

I closed the gap between us and I melted feeling his lips against mine. He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me gently until there was no sign of sun on the sky. When we pulled away, I stared at him breathless, happy that this man was only mine.

We walked around the lake for a while, just talking about random things. I told him that John already wanted us to start writing for our next album and he became even more excited then I was when I found out. He said that the guys and him will have to worry about that in a few months since the selling of BVB IV was great.

I knew why we were practically rushed. We didn't have our own tour. We released an album but at that time we were still the opening band for Black Veil Brides. And Warped was a totally different thing. John wanted us to have our own tour and I kinda loved the idea. I loved being on stage and I loved making music. And everything was possible because of Ashley and the guys.

"Let's go back. I wanna ride you, instead of a horse."

He chuckled and flashed me his famous grin as we climbed back on Snowball. When we got back to his grandparent's house everything was quiet and I realized that we spent more then three hours on the shore.

"Wait! I want more cookies!" I whispered when he tried to drag me upstairs.

"Can't you wait? Because I can't!" He said pissed pointing to his obvious boner.

"I want cookies!"

"Fine! I'll wait in my room. Second door on the left."

I stubbornly let go of his hand and went to the kitchen. I ate about a dozen cookies and I sighed happily seeing that there were two other bowls on the counter. After I turned off the lights, I tip-toed to his room as I started to feel a little sick. Too much chocolate!!! Dumb, Nikki, dumb!!

I entered in Ashley's room and I saw him onn the bed. The lights were off but I still could see his naked body in the moonlight. I forgot about my sickness as I practically ripped my clothes off and joined him. He chuckled seeing my rush and I just slammed my lips against his, desperate for his touch.

I straddled him and his hands started to roam over my sides as he kissed my hungrily. I tried to hold back my moans, afraid that i will wake his grandparents as his hand started to travel past my belly.

I pinned his hands over his head, grinning as I started my way down. His breath quickened and his fingers entangled in my hair as I kissed all the way from his neck to those sinful hips of his. He became impatient and I decided to stop teasing him.

I took his tip in my mouth and he let out a growl. I smirked even more when he arched his back as soon as I started to suck him hard. His breath was shallow and I knew that he wanted more. I deepthroated him and a loud moan escaped from his lips. I started to suck him fast until his fingers tugged my hair hard.

I stopped for a moment to look at him and he took advantage of it, dragging me by my hands over him. Our lips collided again as he pushed hs hips up to meet mine. His thumb was drawing circles on my clit and I felt him smirk, knowing that his moans alone were enough to make me dripping wet.

I lifted my hips as he positioned himself and I forcefully slammed my hips down. Another groan escaped his lips as he threw his head back when he filled me up completely. I picked a slow steady pace as I grabbed his shoulders, staring into his eyes.

He grabbed onto my hips and urged me to go faster. I complied and I sped up my pace, breathing hard. He forgot about everything as his moans filled the room. I felt the familliar sensation in my lower stomach and I started to feel dizzy because of the quick breaths.

Ashley felt it and he flipped us over, lifting my thighs to have better access. His thurts were insanely fast and I felt my eyes roll in the back of my skull. He bit my neck, leaving sloppy kisses over it as his breath became shallow. I felt his length twitch inside me and I opened my eyes.

"Keep it quiet!" I whisper-yelled.

"Really, Nikki?" He growled as he sped up his pace again.

"Your grandparents already heard us!"

It was useless. He came hard, almost screaming and I followed him in seconds. he collapsed on top of me shaking and I caressed his hair until he calmed down. He pulled out of me and looked at me mischeviously.

"I couldn't help it." he said shyly.

"I know."

I lifted myself and that's when a wave of nausea hit me. I felt my insisdes twitching and I placed a hand over my mouth.

"You okay?" Ashley asked concerned.

"Too many cookies."

I ran to the bathroom and emptied my stomach in the toilet. Ashley came and held my hair as I breathed hard, feeling my mouth sour. He chuckled as I flushed and I rinsed my mouth with some Listerine.

"Stop looking at me like that. I couldn't get enough of them." I said frowning.

"Nah, I've been in the same situation waaaaay too many times."

I just smiled as he wrapped me in his arms and kissed my forehead. I sighed and he looked at me. He leaned in and kissed me with passion. I just melted and he picked me up, carrying me to the bed.

"Merry Christmas, Nikki. I love you." He mumbled against my hair.

"Mhmmm, I love you too."

He pulled a blanket over us and I fell asleep as soon as I closed my eyes.

Notes

So.... a crazy long chapter.... I had to make up for the lack of update in the last week xD

Also I wanna dedicate this chapter to PurdyGirlAndBiersackBabe! Your comment really made my day!

Comment people!! I really wanna know what you think!

<3 I love you <3

~nikki~