My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Nikki's Pov:

''Do you think he will like it?'' I asked Ashley as we drove to Andy's house.

''It's a motherfucking Camaro with a Batman logo on it. He will love it. I know that for sure.'' He chuckled.

Yeah, that was our present. Ashley wanted to buy him a car and I decided to give it a special look. I was sure that anything that has Batman on it will thrill Andy but I wanted to be something special. I couldn't wait to see his face once he will see the car.

''Hey, Tiger?'' Ashley snapped me out of my thoughts.

''Hmm?''

''I love you.''

''I love you too.'' I smiled holding his hand.

''More cookies?'' He laughed.

''God, no! I'm still nauseous.''

''You still ate half of the bowl this morning.''

''And I threw up everything. I love your grandma but I'm not eating those cookies til the next Christmas.''

Yeah, those cookies were indeed the devil's instruments. They were so good but you needed to have control while eating them. That's why I threw up again this morning. I stopped only when I was full. Too full...

Ashley laughed as we pulled in Andy's driveway and dialed his number. I could hear Andy's confused voice as we exited the car and Ashley called him outside. I leaned on the hood of the car, near Ashley as the Batman lover exited his house, followed by Kaylie.

My best friend placed a hand over her mouth in anticipation as Andy's gaze snapped to the car. His lips formed a perfect O and I burst into laughter immediately. We stepped aside as he shakily walked towards the Camaro with awe in his eyes.

''Holy shit! How did... This is... I mean... Fuck!!'' He managed to say as Jake and Jinxx joined Kaylie on the porch.

''Happy birthday, man!'' Ashley laughed and hugged his best friend.

''T-Thanks, man!'' Andy stuttered and looked at me. ''This has your name all over it.''

''Actually it has Batman all over it.'' I laughed as I extended my arms.

He pulled me in a hug and I hugged him back gladly. I buried my face in his chest, hearing his fast heartbeat as he kissed the top of my head.

Sometimes, I missed him. He was so different from Ashley and did so many things for me. He never let me down. He was always there for me. Even though, he did cause me some problems with Ashley, we shared the blame.

After all the things that happened lately, I knew that Andy had a special place in my heart. He was the first one who heard everything about me from my own mouth and didn't walk away. Of course, I knew that everyone already knew about my past but he heard it from me. He listened to my words.

He saved me in every way possible. He started saving me through his music. He saved me so many times when I wanted to end it all because of dad. He was the one who saved me when he found me in the bathroom with my arms slaughtered that night. He saved me when he hit me with that fucking frying pan when I couldn't get out of shock.

Although, he helped me the most after I lost our baby. He broke up with me. At that time, I hated him for it but later I understood. It was the best choice. I was madly in love with Ashley. Of course, I loved Andy with all my heart but it wasn't the same way. He let me alone then, he let me sort things out on my own and I realized how much that helped me.

Andy was indeed a saviour. I loved this man so much and I knew that I would be lost without him. I remembered the words he told me that day at the hospital. ''I just want you to be happy, you understand that? That's all that matters to me right now!''... And I was! I was happy and I was even more happier seeing him the same way.

Kaylie brought a light in his eyes that I've never seen before. The way he looked at her reminded me of the way Ashley is looking at me and I knew that gaze too well. Love. He was in love with her and I knew that my bitch was already in the same position. She had a crush on him for years and now, her dream was finally reality.

''Happy birthday, fucker!'' I said kissing his cheek.

''Thanks, princess.'' He answered brushing his thumb over my chin as he used to.

He kissed my forehead once again and squealed like a little whore looking at the car.

''Now, that everyone is here. Let's get this party started.'' Andy shouted and walked towards the house, blowing Kaylie a kiss in his way.

Ashley's hand found mine and he gave me a heart melting smile as we followed them inside. I grinned seeing that his smile was genuine and that he wasn't pissed or something. He was right after all. The therapists helped us a lot. We didn't fight at all ever since Warped and my self harming urges were long gone. Everything was finally back on track and I couldn't be more happier.

After I was practically crushed by everyone, I walked towards the bar to pour myself some whiskey. Ashley was teasing Colleen and Chase about their sickening sweet relationship and I watched them smiling as I placed myself on a stool, hearing the music at full volume.

CC watched Lauren in awe as she downed a shot of whiskey, blabbing about how it was a poison. She just laughed as she poured herself another one and handed him a beer. Jake and Ella were trying to convince Andy and Kaylie to get a dog as the boys were devouring a pizza.

Jinxx was sipping from a glass of wine, looking at his phone, probably texting Alice. Ronnie was messing around, half wasted, showing everyone pictures of Willow with a proud smile on his face. Troy and Ryan were playing Call of Duty and I was thinking if I should go to kick their asses when I heard a deep voice.

''Hey Nikks!''

I turned to my left and I saw Chris smiling at me as he placed himslef near me.

''Hey, Chris. How's it going?'' I smiled half hugging him.

''It's good. How have you been?'' He said hugging me back.

''Oh, you know. Just the ordinary. getting reday to start recording again and stuff like that.''

''yeah, I heard about it. Kaylie is ecstatic.'' he laughed.

I smiled and I downed my shot, looking down. I hated the fact that I gave Chris the wrong signals two months ago and that led him and Ashley to have a fight. I liked Chris a lot but I didn't have feelings for him. Still, he had. He told Ronnie about it and I heard it. I was still feeling guilty about the fact that I almost had sex with him while I was with Ashley.

I tried to convince myself that I had a bad mental state at that time and that's why I almost did it but I couldn't lie to myself. If Chris wouldn't have stopped in the moment I told him I was still with Ashley who knows what could have happened. On the bright side, I was glad that we sorted things out. He understood that I was in love with Ashley and let it go.

''You okay?'' he asked lifting my chin up.

''Yeah, I'm just really sorry about what happened at Warped and-''

''Hey, it's okay. It was my fault, I shouldn't have taken advantage of you. You were miserable because of Ashley and I tried to use sex to get to you.'' he chukled. ''Don't be sorry, I'm okay and you are too. Nothing to worry about.''

''Are you? Are you okay?'' I asked knowing about his feelings.

''Yeah. I... I met a girl, ya know? And she is great... She... She kinda makes me feel special.'' he answered blushing.

''Oh my God! Really? Chris, I'm so happy for you. What's her name?'' I said happy, jumping from the stool and hugging him.

''Thanks. And her name is Sabrina. She's our merch girl.'' he said hugging me back.

''Well, you gotta introduce me sometime.' I whined as his phone rang.

''I will. She's calling me. I'm... I'm really glad I saw you, Nikks.'' he said and kissed my cheek, walking away from me to answer his phone.

I just grinned as I poured myself another whiskey. Ashley's gaze met mine and he gave me a warm smile, telling me that he saw everything. He blew me a kiss and I mouthed an 'I love you' as he did the same. I still couldn't believe that all that anger was gone. He was even more calm than he used to and it amazed me everytime.

Two months ago, he would be probably beating the living shit out of Chris and strangle me to death. But now, he was more than ...fucking Zen or something. He would still get pissed for some stupid reasons but his sick jealousy was gone. He wasn't acting posessively towards me anymore and he didn't question me about everything. There was finally trust between us.

''Enjoying yourself, I see.'' Andy grinned as he snatched my glass.

''Hey! Today is your birthday but steal my glass again tomorrow and I will kick your skinny ass.''

''Oh please! You know you like that ass.'' he laughed handing me another glass.

''Ashley's ass looks better.'' I grinned.

''Okay, I'm not gonna have an ass competition with my best friend.'' he said litting two cigarettes and handing me one.

I thanked him as we watched everyone having fun. The Unforgiven by Metallica started and Andy gave me a warm smile.

''Remember how drunk we were when we danced to this?'' he asked flicking the ashes in the ashtray.

''Yeah...'' I said nostalgic.

''I love you, Nikki. No matter what. And I'm so fucking glad that you are finally happy'' he said seriously.

''I love you too, Batman. And the feeling is mutual.''

''C'mon.'' Andy said grinning.

He took my hand and we started dancing to the song. We sang the lyrics together laughing and I was glad that our relationship wasn't destroyed. He spun me around and let go of my hands just in time, grabbing Kaylie as Ashley caught me from behind. By now everyone was dancing and I felt him kiss my shoulder.

''Can you believe that everything is so perfect?'' Ashley asked as he turned me so I could face him.

''Yeah. As crazy as it sounds, I do believe it. We've been through so much shit and now is about damn time for everything to be perfect.'' I muttered kissing him.

He kissed me back, wrapping his arms around my waist as we kept swaying to the music.

''I love you.'' I whispered against his lips.

''I love you more.'' He smiled and kissed me once again.

Notes

So this chapter was meant to clear things up between Nikki and Andy and between Nikki and Chris. I'm really sory if it was boring.

But the next few chapters are gonna be awesome, I promise. Big things are gonna happen *wink*

Can you guess what? XD

Comment and let me know what you think... I love you, my teddy bears.

~Nikki~