My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Nikki's Pov:


"I really think that this is a bad idea." Ashley muttered as we headed towards the BVB bus.

"Yeah, but we have to talk to them. We've been too caught up in our own drama and we ignored our friends, Ash." I answered grabbing his hand.

He squeezed my hand and looked t me lovingly. I almost melted on the spot as he stopped in front of the bus and kissed me softly. I smiled as I wrapped my arms around his neck and I kissed him back. I bit his lip and he opened his mouth as he pulled me closer, deepening the kiss.

"It hurts, you know?" he whispered, pulling away.

"What?" I asked confused.

"Loving you. I love you so much that it hurts." He smiled.

"I love you more. So much more." I chuckled and I knew that I meant every word.

"OH MY GOD! THEY'RE BACK TOGETHER!" CC screamed with his head out the window, grinning like idiot.

I blushed a deep shade of crimson and Ashley smiled proudly. Jinxx opened thhe door with a relieved expression and Jake stumbled near him, widening his eyes.

"This is your idea. If it goes wrong, you're screwed." Ashley whispered seriously.

"Oh, I can't wait!" I said flashing him a dirty smirk.

"Nikki-pooh!" Jake screamed and hugged me tight.

I saw Jinxx placing a hand on Ashley's shoulder, smiling just as Andy and Ryan walked in, with looks of relief. CC engulfed me in a bear hug just as Kaylie tackled Ashley, screaming happily. After I was practically suffocated by everyone, I gulped hard and I sat on the couch near Ash. He looked scared and that didn't help my knoted stomach. I took a deep breath and I looke at my friends, scattered all around the living area.

"Well.... We are really sorry about everything. We know that we acted stupid and shut everyone out. But we're perfectly fine now and everything can be back to the way that it used to, right?" Ashley said quickly.

Andy eyed him suspiciously and Troy crossed his arms. Jake and Jinxx exchanged a look and Kaylie watched me intently. I looked at Ryan and I saw his raised eyebrows. They knew something ws up.

"What happened?" CC asked.

"Nothing. We just talked and decided that we are going to take it easy." Ashley answered.

"Nikki?" Jinxx said.

He looked at me and then he noticed Ashley's fingerless glove. A wave of fear rushed thruogh me and I looked at Ashley with guilt inn my eyes. We had to tell them. We just had to be honest. They were going to find out anyway so better sooner than later.

"We had an argument. I stormed off because I was pissed and Ashley cut himself and took cocaine." I said and I looked down, feeling Ashley tense near me.

"WHAT?!"

I looked at them and they all looked shocked. Ryan and Troy shook their heads and Kaylie eyed Ashley biting her lip.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" Jake screamed.

"Man, arre you nuts?" CC joined.

"Why would you do that? It's aginst everything you've ever stand against!" Jinxx yelled.

"BECAUSE I CALLED HER A WHORE! I FELT MISERABLE AFTER THAT AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO." Ashley screamed.

"So you self-harmed?! How the fuck do you expect Nikki to stop thinking about it when you do the same damn thing??!" Andy yelled angry.

"I WAS PISSED AND NIKKI JUST DUMPED ME!" Ash yelled back.

I tensed up in fear imediately. He noticed and placed a hand over mine but I stood up, walking away. I was still afraid of him and I hated it but I just had to put some distance between us. Kaylie took my hand and Troy glared at me.

"What did you do? He snapped for a reason!" he said bitterly, defending Ashley.

"I wanted to cut. I needed to leave and he thought that I was going to Chris." I whispered as I looked at Ash with sorrow in my eyes.

"Okay. You were dumb," Ryan started, loking at me, "And you were beyond dumb." He continued looking at Ashley. "What's the thing withbthe cocaine?"

"Well, I thought that I could express my feelings better. I couldn't lose her and I was willing to beg on my knees if it was necessary. But I didn't know what to say when I was sober and when I was drunk I said only bullshit." Ashley said looking down.

Kaylie sighed deeply and I walked back to Ashley. He looked up at me and I just sat on his lap and snuggled to him. Tears were brimming my eyes and I tried to blink them back but it was useless.

"Just don't do it again, guys. You two are meant for each other. Sometimes you have to make compromises and take risks. It's never eaasy but you have to try. For the sake of he one you love." CC said and I looked at him in awe.

"When did you get so smart?" Ashley said surprrised.

"Ehhhh... It comes out sometimes." He grinned.

"Everything is okay now?" Kaylie spoke.

"Yeah, we're good." I said wiping away my tears.

"Good. We've been through enough drama." Andy said and wrapped an arm around her.

"I'm sorry, guys. I really am. I promise everything will be back to normal." Ash said tightening his arms around me.

"TThe next time this shit happens, I'll bite both of your heads off." Jinxx said smiling.

We burst into laughter and after a few more threats, we left to get ready for the show tonight. I was straightening my hair when Ashley came and wrapped his arrms around me. I smiled as I placed the straightener down and I turned around. He kissed me forcefully and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He grabbed my hips and I pulled him closer, feeling desperate. I moved my leg, touching his crotch and he moaned, breaking the kiss.

"I want you. NOW!" I growled when he bit my neck.

"I want you too, but-"

"No buts, Ashley! Just take me." I breathed and lust clouded his eyes.

He was about to say something but I didn't let him, crashing my lips on his. He bit my lip hard and I hissed in pain. I glared at him and he chuckled, pulling away from me.

"We have a show, Tiger. Maybe after it." He whispered against my lips.

"Maybe?" I said slipping my hand in his jeans.

He moaned and grabbed my wrist. I dug my nails in his arm as I wrapped my fingers around his rock hard member. I smirked seeing his eyes roll back and his mouth letting out shaky breaths. Damn, he really tries hard.

"Ash?" I whispered licking his neck.

He took both of my hands and pinned them behind my back, glaring at me. He was still breathing hard annd the way he looked at me turned me on badly. He was pissed! Really pissed!

"Fine! After the show! But you won't b able to move tomorrow!" He hissed and I smirked.

"I'm looking forward to that."

He passionately kissed me one last time and he let go of my hands only after he pulled away. He smiled at me and I kissed his forehead as I grabbed his hand, heading to the venue.

Notes

Ok guys.... thanks for the comments....

I will continue this story a bit... Maybe make it 100 chapters but not more....

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