My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Three days later... Nikki's POV:

I was walking back and forth in the bathroom thinking about what I was about to do. I talked to Ella and I told her that I'll make the pictures. Ashley still wasn't OK with that, which made me wanna do it even more. She said that everybody will keep theit mouths shut. The calendar was supposed to go on sale in two weeks. By then, we will be back in America. The release was planned in the same day as our last performance before another three weeks break. I was nervous and I didn't like that I was lying Ashley. I wanted so badly to help those kids because I used to be like them. I'm not doing it for publicity or something. What he said three days ago still haunted my mind. I knew that I will get hate when we will get public, but I never thought that people will actually compare me to Kina.

Honestly, I think he said that just to piss me off. I don't think that the fans would be so blind. They will understand why I did the photos and they will understand that this is not a way of life for me, like it is for Kina. I didn't believe that they will label me as a whore. I haven't talked to Ashley about the pictures again and I like it that way. I knew that probably hell will break loose when he will find out but at least some kids will get the help they needed. What bothered me the most was that Ashley started to act all jealous no matter where we were. Somehow, he managed to be there wherever I was and act possessive towards me. At first, I thought it was cute but after a while I got tired of it. It was like he didn't trust me at all. And it bothered me.

I sighed and fixed my make-up once again. The girls will be waiting for me in the lobby and then we will go to the studio to make the photoshoot. I felt bad and I felt good at the same time. I just shrugged and I exited the bathroom. Ashley was on the bed with his phone in his hands. He looked at me and smiled.

”Well, well, well. Take care, babe. Someone might kidnap you at how beautiful you look” he said to me.

”Nah, no one would be able to do that when I have Kaylie beside me.” I answered and I threw myself on the bed and kissed his cheek.

He laughed and caressed my cheek. He stared in my eyes and I leaned in his touch. God, I love him so much! Why is he such a douchebag sometimes?! He gently turned my head to my right side and looked at my neck. Most of the bruises from three days ago faded but the one on my neck and the one on my breast were still visible.

”It looks better” he said and kissed my neck softly.

”Yeah. How's your back?” I asked grinning.

”Still hurts. Badly!” he said seriously.

”That's what you get if you piss me off!” I said and I jumped a little on the bed.

”At least I was able to walk. You weren't.” he answered ruffling my hair.

I smacked his hand and I blushed. He was right. That day I wasn't able to walk. My legs were sore and my whole body ached. Even my hair hurt, for fuck's sake!! Not that I minded because that was probably the best sex I've ever had.

”I gotta go. See you in a few hours!” I said and I kissed him.

”Ok, have fun! Tell the girls I said hi!” He said as I exited the hotel room after I grabbed my purse.

I sighed once again and I went in the lobby. Kaylie smiled sadly at me, knowing that I was upset about this whole thing, while Ella and Juliet hugged me.

”Ready?” Ella asked and I nodded.

We exited the hotel room and we got in a cab. The road was silent and in about half an hour we arrived in front of a big building. Juliet payed the cab and we went inside. We took the elevator and went to the fifth floor. We entered in a room that looked like a mix of seasons for me.

”Scott!” Juliet yelled and hugged a tall man with blonde hair and green eyes.

”Hey Jules. How have you been?” Scott asked hugging her back, longer than necessary if you ask me.

”I'm good. You know Ella, these are Kaylie and Nikki. They tour with the band” she said happily as we shook our hands.

”I've seen you in New York! You guys, are amazing.” he said smiling.

We thanked him as he asked for our autographs. Another guy came in and he introduced himself as Tommy. He was the photographer.

”So ladies, I want you to pick up a paper from here.” he said handing us a bowl.

”Summer!” Ella said excited reading her paperr.

”Autumn!” Juliet followed.

”Spring!” Kaylie continued.

”And that makes me winter” I joined after I read my paper.

”Now that this is set up, your props will be a scarf. Red for Ella, brown for Jules, green for Kaylie and white for you” Scott said looking at me.

I nodded and we all went to get changed. Or get naked actually.

(Time lapse, after the photo shoot)

We changed back in our clothes and we said goodbyes to Scott and Tommy. Juliet exchanged another weird look with Scott and I just shrugged.

”You OK?” Ella asked me.

”Yeah, I'm fine.” I answered and I lit a cigarette as we exited the hotel.

”Don't worry, Nikki. The pics are awesome. They're artistic not pornographic like that dickhead thinks.” Juliet said and smiled at me.

”Mhmm!” I nodded being a little pissed at her for insulting Ashley.

We got back to the hotel and I sighed before enetering in the room. Ashley was on the couch, switching the TV channels and he looked bored. His eyes snapped at me and he smiled widely. Goddammit! Why is he so fucking perfect??!

”How was the girl's day?” he asked as I sat next to him on the couch.

”Fun but I missed you.” I said and I kissed his cheek.

”I missed you too.”

”Shouldn't we get ready for the concert?” I asked checking my phone.

”We have five more hours.” he said taking it away and kissed me hard.

”Should I assume that now you wanna show me how much you missed me?” I breathed when we pulled apart.

”Something like that” he answered and picked me up, carrying me to the bed while he was ravishing my lips.

What have I done?! He is going to be so mad about those photos. We're going to fight again over stupid things like that. I sighed while he ripped my dress off and I pushed all the thoughts in the back of my head. It's gonna be bad, I knew it, but for two more weeks, I still had time to think about a plan.

Notes

A little short but I had to write it too!

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