My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Two weeks later: Ashley's POV:

We arrived back to LA and I couldn't be more happier. Today was our last show and then we will have another three weeks break. I managed to convince Nikki to stay with me in LA instead of going back to her house in San Francisco. She agreed after a little argument but she had a condition: she will buy a new car. And so she did. The bitch spent 100.000 $ on a red Ferrari. She was in love with it and I wondered if she had any more money in her account. We arrived two days ago and we just finished unpacking. Something was up with her for about two weeks. She was jumpy and nervous all the time. I didn't know what was wrong with her and I asked her about it. She shrugged and said that she wasn't feeling well. I panicked, remembering that time when we had angry sex and we didn't use a condom. She laughed and she said that she took the pill and there is no Purdy Jr inside of her. Still, there was something that bothered her. I wondered if this was about Andy but I pushed the thought aside because she was jumpy with everyone, even with Kaylie.

Today was our last show and Nikki was a little sad about it. She loved being on stage and I could tell she will miss the feeling. We were in the kitchen, drinking our morning coffee and she kept tapping her left foot while she inhaled deeply from her cigarette. Tokyo and Killer were cuddled together near her right foot, lightly snoring. My dogs loved her in an instant. She was scared of them at first, claiming that a small dog's bite was the worst thing ever. I laughed and soon, she wanted her own dog. She happily said that she will have a husky as soon as she'll get back home. The only problem was that I didn't want her to get back home. I wanted her here, with me.

"Calm down, Tiger. It's not the end of the world." I said and I kissed her temple.

She smiled and placed her cup of coffee on the table, after she extinguished her cigarette in the ashtray. She stood up and she wrapped her arms around my neck.

"You know I love you, right?" she whispered against my lips.

"I know. And I love you too." I said and pecked her lips.

"Don't forget that." she mumbled and she exited the kitchen.

Yep! Something was definitely wrong with her. I wondered if that was about those photos. I was positive that she didn't made them. I mean, she was with me the whole time. Maybe except that day when she had a girl's day with Kaylie, Juliet and Ella. But she didn't had the time. She missed only three hours.

My phone rang and I looked at the caller ID. It was CC.

"Hey man, we're at the studio. Wanna come?"

"Uhm, yeah, I'll be there in 20." I said and I hung up.

I placed the cups of coffee in the sink and I walked in the living room to find it empty. I went upstairs and found Nikki in my- our bedroom with her phone in her hands. She looked at me and grinned.

"What now?"

"The Purdy girls want to kill me already. They suspect that we're together because, apparently someone saw us when we walked out of the hotel at our first date." she said and handed me her phone.

There, was a picture of us holding hands when we exited the hotel. I was kissing her temple and she was smiling widely. I shrugged and an idea popped in my head.

"Why don't we make it official?" I said and I handed her back the phone.

"Wait, what?"

"Let's make it official. Let's make a picture and post it on Twitter." I said happily and grabbed my phone.

"Ashley, I don't think-"

"Shut up and smile." I said and she nodded.

She was already wearing my shirt and that made me even prouder. I wrapped an arm around her shoulders and I pulled her on the pillows with me. She started laughing and that's when I took the picture. I was grinning like an idiot and she looked cute and innocent, something she is definitely not. I quickly posted the picture and tagged Nikki. The description was 'Sorry ladies, but this woman stole my heart'. I shut my phone off, knowing that it will probably explode with notifications and comments.

"You're nuts. I'm going to need a bodyguard now." she said and smacked my chest.

"You have Kaylie. And stop smacking me, woman!" I said rubbing my chest.

She gave the puppy dog face and I jumped out of the bed.

"Don't do this, Morgan! Don't give me the puppy face" I said pointing my finger.

"Why not?" she said pouting.

I sighed and I climbed back in the bed. She knew what was coming next so she tried to run but I grabbed her arm and pinned her under me. I tickled her so hard that she was now crying and begged me to stop.

"A-Ash.... Stop.. I ca-can't breathe!" she managed to say between laughs.

I've never seen someone as ticklish as she was and I enjoyed it because that was my secret weapon. She gives me the puppy face, I tickle her untill she can't breathe. I stopped at some point and she wiped away her tears. I was on top of her, our foreheads touching, as I was staring in her beautiful, green eyes. She smiled and lifted her hand to caress my cheek. I leaned in her touch and I closed my eyes. God, I love this woman so much that it almost scares me!! I wanted to stay all day with her just like this. Having her near me was the best thing ever. I rested my hand in the crook of her neck, inhaling the scent of strawberries that her hair always had. She caressed my hair,playing with strands of it. For some reason, I got turned on by the action.

I licked her neck, sucking gently her sweet spot. She turned her head to a side , allowing me better access as a soft moan escaped her lips. I ran my hands under her shirt and I felt her shiver. Her breath quickened when I slid it off and she found my lips in a passionate kiss. I really had to live but I couldn't think about anything else except Nikki. Reluctantly, I pulled away ans she gave me a questioning look.

"I have to go to the studio." I whispered.

"When will you get back?"

"In a few hours. And I expect you to be naked when I get back." I said and I bit her lip softly.

"Deal." she said smiling.

I got dressed and I gave her one lat, long kiss before I exited my house. I climbed on my bike and arrived at the studio in 15 minutes. As soon as I entered I heard the guys talking about....a calendar?? What the fuck? I remained behind the door and I listened their conversation.

"I never thought that green would suit Kaylie." CC said.

"I think she should've been the summer, I mean she has red hair." Jinxx commented.

"Ella said that they had to choose from a bowl a piece of paper." Jake answered.

"Oh my fucking God! Now, I'm glad I'm born in December!" Andy said and took a deep breath.

"Holy shit!" CC answered and I entered in the room.

They tried to hide the calendar that they were holding.

"What's going on?" I asked pissed, although I knew already what was happening. Nikki made those pictures and more than sure she was the winter.

"Nothing." Andy said simply.

"Give me that." I said and I took the calendar from Jake's hands.

My jaw dropped when I saw the pictures. In December, Nikki was sitting in fake snow on her knees. A white scarf was wrapped around her hips, hiding her feminine parts and her arms were firmly pressed against her breasts. She was smiling innocently and her eyes sparkled brightly. I turned the page and my breath quickened. In January, she was lying down in the fake snow on her back. Her beautiful black hair was sprawled all over the snow and the scarf covered her breasts and her hips. She looked lustfully and I could feel myself getting harder only looking at that damn picture. In February she was exposing her back and her wonderful phoenix tattoo that had 'outlaw' written under it. Her hair was on her left shoulder and the scarf was draped over her hips, covering her ass. She had a dreamy expression on her face and she was looking above her.

I had to say, the pictures weren't pornographic at all. They were pretty artistic and Nikki looked like a queen in every single one of them. But the fact that she did them without telling me, even though I firmly told her that I don't want her to do them, pissed me off. I was hurt because she crossed me. I knew that it was for a good cause but still...

"Did you know about this?" I asked Andy looking him dead in the eye.

He swallowed hard and nodded.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Juliet said that she will kill me if I spill something."

"Actually, Kaylie and Ella said the same thing." Jake said.

"You don't mess with a sisterhood, man" CC agreed.

I groaned and threw the calendar into a wall. Jinxx came near me and rested a hand on my shoulder. I looked at him pissed while he started talking.

"Don't be mad at her. You know why she did it. She was abused too but she didn't get help. She did it for those kids, Ash"

"I don't give a fuck why she did it! I specifically told her NOT to do them. And she did. She didn't care about me. She just did what she wanted not giving a fuck about what I said." I said pissed.

I grabbed the calendar and threw Andy one last glare before I stormed out. The guys yelled for me but I didn't care. I needed to talk to Nikki. I jumped on my bike and got home faster then I expected. I barged in the house as Tokyo and Killer started barking. I ignored them just as Nikki exited the bedroom and smiled at me. I raised my hand and when she saw the calendar her face turned pale.

"All this time you lied to me. That's why you were so nervous. Because you were fucking lying to me>" I yelled at her.

"I told you I will do them." she said calmly.

"And I told you NOT to." I screamed.

"AND I SAID THAT I WILL." she yelled, her eyes brightening with anger.

"Why the fuck can't you listen to me for once?"

"Because you were absurd. You thought that I'm gonna turn into your slutty ex." she said and tried to move past me.

I grabbed her arm and spun her around so I was facing her.

"Don't give me this shit. You know I'm right."

"No, you're not. I did something good, you idiot." she spat and got rid off my grip.

She walked to the hallway and slid her boots on.

"Where the fuck are you going?" I yelled pissed.

"Out. I don't wanna talk to you if you're like this." She said and I grabbed her arm once again and pinned her against the door.

"You're not going anywhere" I breathed against her lips.

All this fighting with her turned me on. I knew that she felt the same because her eyes darkened with lust but she held her ground. She looked at me angry and I knew that she wouldn't let me have it.

"I am. Now get off of me before I'll make sure you won't be able to have sex again." she threatened and I let go of her. She gave me one last glare before she slammed the door shut.

I was pissed as I went to the bar and grabbed a bottle of Jack. I poured myself a glass and I downed it in one gulp. I was staring at the calendar that was now on the floor, open at January. I kinda smiled. That was the sexiest picture and it was on my birth month. I am sure the bitch did it on purpose. God, how I wanted her now! I wanted to ravish her lips and fuck her senseless, maybe even harder than the last time we had angry sex.

A knock on my door snapped my from my thoughts and I was glad that Nikki returned. Tokyo and Killer started to bark angry and I found that odd. I opened the door and I dropped the glass I was holding, shattering into pieces. Leaning on my doorstep was a woman that I thought I will never see again.

"Hello, Ashley. Did you miss me?" Kina said smirking.

Notes

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