My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Ashley's POV:

I walked in the hotel room and slammed the door hard. I went to the minibar and poured myself a vodka and downed it in one gulp. I poured another one and I looked on the window. I was really pissed about this calendar thing. I don't want her to do it! I don't wanna see pictures with Nikki naked everywhere. I don't care that it is for a good cause, I just don't want her to do it! We weren't public yet but I was planning that to happen pretty soon. If she makes those photos and the whole world will know that she is mine, things will get bad. Everybody will label her as a slut. Everybody will compare her to Kina. I didn't want that to happen. I didn't want her to get hate from people. Also, what I feared the most was that I will loose her. She was beautiful, she was smart, she had a temper, she was all you could wish for in a woman. I knew that she won't let fame change her but I couldn't help but think that someday, maybe she will get tired of me. Maybe she will find someone else and will forget about me. My thoughts were interrupted when the door slammed.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" she yelled pissed and poured herself a vodka.

She downed the glass and slammed it on the minibar. Her eyes were shining and I could tell that she was really angry.

"There is nothing wrong with me." I said calmly and sipped my vodka, still looking on the window.

"Then why you told me that I can't make those pictures?" she spat.

"Because you won't, Nikki! You won't make them!" I yelled and turned around to face her.

"You can't tell me what to do!"

"I can and I will! I am your fucking boyfriend!" I yelled and poured myself another vodka.

"That's not enough, Ashley!" she shouted and lit a cigarette.

What the fuck did she just said? What's that supposed to mean? That she doesn't give a shit about me? That I'm not important to her?...

"Well, it should be enough! You won't make those pictures! End of disscusion!" I spat angry.

"I thought I made myself clear! You can't tell me what to do! I can do whatever the fuck I want! I'm gonna make those pictures and I don't care if you agree or not!" she said an threw her cigarette out the window.

I grabbed her arm and forced her to look at me. She tried to get away but I didn't let her. I looked in her bright, green eyes and I almost got lost in them. She was looking at me with a mixture of anger and hate in her eyes and I was taken aback by that.

"YOU WON'T MAKE THOSE GODDAMN PICTURES!"

"Why the fuck not?" she screamed exasperated.

"BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE LIKE KINA!!!" I screamed back and I realized in horror what I just said.

Nikki's eyes widened and she lifted her hand. Her palm collided forcefully with my cheek and my head turned to my right side. I was shocked at first that she just slapped me but then a wave of anger rushed through me. Why the fuck can't she see that I am trying to protect her??!

"HOW THE FUCK YOU DARE TO COMPARE ME TO HER??! I'M DOING THIS FOR SOME KIDS, ASHLEY!! I DON'T DO IT FOR MONEY LIKE SHE DOES IT!!" she screamed and wanted to slap me again but I caught her arm.

"I didn't compare you to her! But once we will get public that's what everybody will do! They will label you as a whore and they will compare you to her!" I said looking her dead in the eye.

"Why should I care??! If I know why I'm doing this, that's all that matters!" she said and got out of my grip.

"That's not the point!"

"I don't care what the point is! You just made a big mistake, dumbass! Don't ever talk to me if you think I'm like Kina!" she said and turned to leave.

I ran after her, realising that I messed up big time. I didn't mean to compare her to Kina. I knew that she was nothing like her. But I couldn't help it. I felt insecure and she seemed to be always the confident one. After all the shit she's been through, she was still confident. She had faith in everything that she did. She was absolutely nothing like Kina! I mean, she just slapped me! She wasn't afraid to show her point of view. I caught her right when she opened the door. I pushed her arm and slammed her against the door, closing it.

"I know you are not like Kina! But I don't want you to get hate for being with me and doing the stuff that she does!" I said holding her arms against the door.

"I'm doing this for charity! I'm not going to make a habit of it! I will never do it for money! Why the fuck can't you see that??!" she spat.

"Why the fuck can't you see that I wanna protect you?" I said frustrated.

"I don't need you to protect me! I don't care if I get hate! All I care about are those children who will get help if I make those pictures. And I will! No matter what! Now, let go of me!"

"No!"

"Ashley, let go of me right now, or I swear-"

I crashed my lips on hers and wrapped my arms around her waist, digging my fingers in her hips. She bit my lip hard and I moaned in pain. Yep! She was definitely pissed. She was driving me crazy. Sometimes, I loved how stubborn she was, but sometimes, I just wanted to kill her because of it. She wrapped her hands around my neck as we fought for dominance, neither of us holding it back. I moved to her neck and quickly, found her sweet spot. I bit down hard, making sure I left a mark, while she moaned loudly.

Nikki started tu rub herself against me and that was the moment when I lost it. I picked her up, still kissing her neck and threw her brutally on the bed. I climbed on top of her and I spread her legs, pressing my already painful boner against her slit. She entangled her fingers in my hair tugging it, while I was now, biting hard her collarbone.

I was mad at her because my cheek still hurt. I knew that she was mad at me too when she ripped my shirt, making all the buttons fly all around the room. I threw her jacket on the floor as I found her lips again. I got rid of her shirt and I enjoyed the feeling of her skin against mine. She switched angrily our positions and pinned my hands above my head. She rubbed herself against me and kissed my neck gently. I clenched my teeth, knowing that she will probably bite me hard. I was right! I got rid off her grip and forcefully grabbed her ass. She moaned as her lips found mine again.

I got frustrated when I couldn't unclasp her bra so I ripped it off of her. I hungrily sucked her left breast while I was massaging hard her right one. She moaned loudly and she threw my jeans and boxers on the floor. I switched our positions again and I started to suck her right breast. I moved lower and I bit her hip. She moved in that moment and my teeth grazed her skin. She hissed as I licked the little blood. I lifted her lower body when I took of her jeans and her undearwear. My breath quickened, just like everytime when I see her naked. She forcefully dragged me and our lips met again in a battle for dominance.

Her right hand traced my body until she reached my lenght. She started to stroke me and I groaned in pleasure. I kissed her shoulder and I shoved two fingers inside her already wet sex. She gasped in surprise and her hand moves became sloppier. I scissored my fingers inside her and her moans became painfully pleasurable for me.

I removed my fingers and I licked them slowly, looking in her now, dark green eyes. Her cheeks were flushed and her lips were swollen. She was breathing hard and she was still gripping the sheets with her left hand. She kissed me forcefully and rolled on top of me. She moved lower and lower and I entangled my fingers in her hair when her mouth found my lenght. She started sucking me and I was surprised at how rough she was. My back arched and I knew that I was close but I din't let her finish.

I pulled her forcefully by her hair, not caring that I might hurt her. She didn't make a sound as I threw her body violently on the sheets. I spread her legs and I positioned myself at her entrance. It was now her turn to pull my hair and drag me for a kiss as I shoved my lenght, roughly inside her. I didn't even care that we weren't using a condom. I moaned loudly at how tight she was. It was like fucking a virgin everytime.

Nikki wrapped her legs around me and pushed her hips up to meet mine. I gripped them tightly, holding her in place as I thursted hard. I didn't know why, but I was getting more and more angry with every second that passed. I could tell that Nikki was in the same situation when she grazed her nails on my back. I knew for sure that there was blood. She arched her back when I sped up my pace. By now, we were both moaning uncontrollably but I kept fucking Nikki like there was no tomorrow.

My knuckles turned white because of the tight grip I had on her hips. I tried to kiss her but it was kinda impossible. Instead, I stared into her eyes. They were filled with lust and anger. I almost lost myself at the sight of her moaning, almost screaming. I wanted to look in her eyes when she will reach her climax. I wanted to see how badly she wanted me.

"I hate you!" she screamed and dug her nails deep in my shoulders.

"I hate you more!" I screamed back, knowing that the words we just said were just another declaration of love for each other.

She grinned as she grabbed my cheeks and kissed me hard. It was a brief kiss before I burried my head in the crook of her neck, still thursting like a mad man. I felt her walls clench around me, signaling that she was close as she shut her eyes and threw her head back.

"Look at me!" I demanded.

She opened her eyes and stared at me almost in pure ecstasy. I felt myself twitching as she dug her nails in my sides once again. She came hard, looking in my eyes and screaming my name and I soon followed her, emptying myself inside her. I collapsed on her feeling our bodies shaking like crazy. We were both breathing hard and we were sweaty.

"I think we should fight more often. Angry sex is amazing!" I said and I kissed the mark I left on her neck.

"It is, but I'm not sure that I can walk now." she said stroking my hair.

"Well, you pissed me off. Consider that I just punished you." I answered and removed myself from her.

"You pissed me off too!" she spat.

"And you punished me too. That's why you have blood on your hands." I said noticing her bloody nails.

She looked at them and her eyes widened. I just stared at her naked form never wanting to picture her leaving my side. Her hips were bruised and so was her right breast and her neck. I marked her. I felt proud seeing her like this. A beautiful mess. And I'm taking the blame for it. I leaned in and I kissed her lips softly.

"I wanna kill you sometimes, you know that?" she said after we pulled apart.

"I know. The feeling is mutual, by the way." I said and she chuckled.

I wrapped my arms around her and she rested her head on my chest. I still didn't like the idea of those photos and I will do whatever it takes to stop her from doing them.

Notes

Don't ask what's gotten into me because I don't have a fucking clue!

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