My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Nikki's POV:

My talk with Kaylie was surprisingly calm. She apologized for yelling at me and I apologized for acting reckless. I felt sick to my stomach. What Andy said turned my whole world upside down. I was worried enough that I might feel something for Ashley and now I have to worry about Andy too. My head was a complete mess. Half of it was thinking at Ashley and the other half was thinking about Andy.

I called my boss, Chase, and told him that I was sick and I couldn't come to work today. He said it was OK and gave me a day off tomorrow as well. Of course, I agreed. Kaylie called Paul and told him about the audition and he was excited for us. He gave Kaylie the day off and wished us luck.

After she ended the call, I sighed deeply. Kaylie placed a hand on my back and pulled me into a hug. I wanted to cry so badly but my tears wouldn't fall. I wasn't able to cry since Damon died. And it hurt because I couldn't let it out. I was under to much pressure right now and I desperately needed a release. kaylie whispered that everything will be fine and I clung on her for dear life.

Then the doorbell rang.

Andy's POV:

When the doorbell rang, Ashley and I stopped our glaring contest. We went upstairs just as Jake opened the door. Troy and Ryan stood up and I smiled at them. They smiled back and I was glad that they weren't nervous, or at least they didn't show it. CC and Jinxx came as well and we all greeted John. He shooked Ryan's and Troy's hands and he smiled at them widely.

I heard footsteps and I looked up and saw Nikki and Kaylie coming down the stairs, holding hands. They both had bright smiles on their faces and looked stunning. Kaylie seemed a little off while Nikki was trying to hold her emotions together.

"Hello." Nikki said as she shook John's hand. "I am Nikki and this is my best friend Kaylie."

John shook hands with Kaylie as well and gave her a warm smile and then he turned his attention to Nikki.

"So, you are the girl that Andy can't stop talking about." he said bluntly.

Nikki's eyes widened and her jaw dropped. I looked away embarassed and probably I even blushed. God, I hate it!

"A-Am I?" Nikki said surprised.

"Yeah, he won't stop talking about your screamo and how talented you all are. Actually, I've never heard any of this douchebags talking so much about a band. And that made me very curious." he said smiling.

"Oi! No need to ofend us, John" CC said playfully, in his hyper way.

"Shut it, Mora. How many Monsters did you drink?"

"Only 4." CC said proud.

"Jesus, it's 10 am and you already drank 4?" Jake asked shocked.

"Says the one who still ordered pizza after he ate 4 pancakes." Jinxx commented.

"Hey! Pizza should be something holy. Like the holy water." Jake defended.

"And you let them stay in your house for three weeks?" John asked Nikki.

"Yes, I did." Nikki said and sighed.

"No offense, but are you nuts?"

"I'm asking myself this question everyday. I still don't know the answer..." She answered grinning.

I couldn't help but smile at her. She had so many sides. She could be soft, caring, playfull, wild, crazy and evil. All of this in one person. She was special and I knew it when I heard her sing the first time. The pain that errupted sometimes from her voice, the scars that she had on her arm. She had her own war and I wasn't sure if she won it.

John laughed and I was surprised that she got along with him so fast. Nikki invited him in the basement and we all followed. I took a glance at Ashley who was watching Nikki closely. I sighed and I wondered what the hell was I doing. from the first time when she mentioned Juliet I knew I could trust her. And last night when she was asked to sing one of her songs, she looked at me like she was asking my permission. I felt weird around her and I didn't know why.

But it all became clear last night when she comforted me. She just ended a sex session with Ashley and still, she noticed I was upset. And when I tried to kiss her... I was so happy that she didn't pull back. I knew that she's been through a lot of shit and probably I messed with her head when I kissed her but... I couldn't help it. When I kissed her I knew why I felt weird around her. Why I always felt pissed when she left with Ashley. Because I liked her. A lot...

"So, mr John, you wanna drink something?" Nikki asked as we placed ourselves on the couches while her band went to their places, Ryan behind his drums and Kaylie and Troy grabbing thir guitars.

"Just John, Nikki, and yes I would love too."

"Alcoholic or non-alcoholic?"

"Alcoholic."

"Strong or soft?

"Ahhh... Do you have any whiskey?"

"Gentleman Jack, Single Barrel, normal Jack, Johnnie Walker, JB-"

"Holy shit! How many of them do you have?" John asked surprised and we all laughed.

"You haven't seen her bar. It's like heaven." Jinxx said and we all agreed.

"I'll have some Gentleman Jack." John answered and shot us a weird look.

Nikki poured our manager his poison and handed it to him. He thanked her and smiled.

"So, what do you want us to sing?" she asked grinning.

John thought for a moment.

""Beautiful Remains" for start."

Nikki nodded and grabbed her bass. They were all set and the song began.

We gather here to sing for you,
The words you've written,
Each bloodshot beauty still rings true,
From violent crashes,
Gently rest your weary head,
What we live for now is dead,
Goodnight,
Goodbye,
A soul surrender,
This love will set you free,
From thoughts of yesterday,
Now death has come to claim,
Your Beautiful Remains,
I'll strike the match to set you off,
And watch you glisten,
Our loves in time,
A single loss,
From words I've written,
This love will set you free,
From thoughts of yesterday,
Now death has come to claim,
Your Beautiful Remains,
Rest forever now, my friend,
We we lived for now, is dead,
Goodnight,
Goodbye,
A soul surrender,
This love will set you free,
From thoughts of yesterday,
Now death has come to claim,
Your Beautiful Remains,
Here in this room, is what we must do...

Her scream made me widen my eyes once again as John was speechless. Everybody cheered and I glanced at Ashley again. He was smiling happily and I noticed that Nikki was smiling at him too.

"Wel, Nikki.... I gotta say I'm impressed. Now I want you to sing a ballad. How about "Done For You"?" John said.

Nikki's eyes widened and a flash of horror crossed her face.

"John, this song is-"Kaylie started.

"Perfect!" Nikki cut her off.

She took a deep breath and placed herself in front of the piano. Kaylie looked at her questioningly and Nikki nodded. I was wondering what was this about and I looked at Ashley who met my gaze halfway. We both shrugged as Kaylie grabbed an acoustic guitar and placed herself on the piano earning a glare from Nikki.

She took a deep breath again and started playing at the piano.

The best things in life,
Come with a price,
The star that burns so bright,
Faded the fastest,
You'll always feel it's right,
Even when we end the fight,
Welcome home,
Home tonight,
Singing,
Oh, oh,
Welcome home tonight,
Oh tonight,
Words they don't know,
How to make amends,
And all they do,
Is push you to the edge,
But its not wasted,
It's all done for you,
It's all done for you,
It's all done for you,
It's all done for you,
Oh,
Oh.

The pain that flooded from her voice broke my heart. She was thinking about Damon for sure. When she ended the song she had her face down. I thought that maybe she was crying but when she stood up she was cold as a stone. We cheered once again and she gave us a weak smile.

"Nikki do you have any song that is yours?" John asked.

"Yeah.... But..."

"I would love to hear it."

Nikki nodded and grabbed her bass again.

"This song is called Wrong side of heaven (I know it's Five Finger Death Punch's song but I love it, so bear with me)...." She said and I could tell that now she was nervous.

I spoke to God today and she said that she's ashamed
What have I become.
What have I done
I spoke to the devil today and he swears he's not to blame
And I understood 'cause I feel the same
Arms wide open
I stand alone
I'm no hero and I'm not made of stone
Right or wrong
I can hardly tell
I'm on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell
The wrong side of heaven and the righteous side,
The righteous side of hell
I heard from God today and she sounded just like me
What have I done and who have I become
I saw the devil today and he looked a lot like me
I looked away, I turned away
Arms wide open
I stand alone
I'm no hero and I'm not made of stone
Right or wrong
I can hardly tell
I'm on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell
The wrong side of heaven and the righteous side,
The righteous side of hell
I'm not defending
Downward descending
Falling further and further away
Getting closer every day
I'm getting closer every day
To the end, to the end, the end of the end
I'm getting closer every day
Arms wide open
I stand alone
I'm no hero
And I'm not made of stone
Right or wrong
I can hardly tell
I'm on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell
I'm on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell
The wrong side of heaven and the righteous side,
Righteous side of hell

I was starstruck right now. This song was great. I couldn't believe that she wrote such a work of art. I looked around me and everybody was shocked, mostly Ashley. We cheered even louder than before and John was the first to spoke:

"Well, Risen Demons...Congratulations! You are the new opening band for Black Veil Brides!!"

There were 10 seconds of silence before everyone errupted in happy screams. Nikki hugged every single of her band mates and then her eyes found Ashley's and she literally jumped on him.

"I told you!" he said happy and hugged her tight.

"I know!" She yelled just as happy.

She hugged John and tried to contain her joy.

"Cut the crap, Nikki, yell as much as you want to" he said laughing.

"Okaaaaayy!!!!!!!" She squealed hugging him again.

Jake grabbed her into a bear hug while CC was spinning Kaylie all around the room. Ashley man hugged Ryan and Troy and congratuled them. Jinxx spun Nikki as well while he was yelling at her.

"I told you!!"

”And you were right, Daddy Jinxx! But we still have a bet on!" she yelled back.

Jinxx laughed and let go of her. CC imediately started suffocating her, blabbing about how proud he was about his Monster buddy. I hugged Kaylie tight and I kissed her forehead smiling at her and telling her how great she was. She blushed and I felt like a jackass because I knew she had a crush on me.

"Just promise me that we will drink at least 5 cans of Monster everyday of tour." CC whined.

"I promise you, CC-bear!" Nikki said and kissed his cheek.

"Oh my God! I have a nickname too!! I love you, Nikki-bear!!" he said as he hugged her again.

He finally let go of her and her eyes met mine. She didn't say anything, and wrapped her tiny arms around my neck. I felt relieved as I hugged her as tight as I could without crushing her body.

"Thank you, Andy! And I'm sorry." she whispered in my ear sending shivers down my spine.

"It's OK, princess! I told you everything will be fine." I said as I stroked her hair.

I let go of her but she pulled me back, forcefully kissing my cheek.

I probably grinned like an idiot.

'What was going on with me?' I thought to myself.

Notes

Crazy long chapter from Andy's pov...

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