My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Still in Andy's POV:

John left and everybody was still happy. We were in the living room drinking and just talking shit. My phone rang and I checked the caller ID: Juliet. I didn't think and I walked in the kitchen answering the call.

"Andy?" she said and her voice was muffled. Was she crying?

"Yeah?"

"Andy.... I'm so sorry... I-I got drunk... Last night.... And I-I was with a guy.... And I think I slept with him..." She managed to say between sobs.

My heart broke. She called me to say this. Maybe she wasn't lying. BUt what about the fights that we had for over four months now? Why would she be so devasted all of a sudden?

"Why didn't you answer my calls yesterday, Juliet?" I asked coldly.

"I was shitface.... And I know you don't like it when I'm drunk..." She said quietly.

"Bullshit, Juliet. I called you at 8 am for fuck's sake!! You were drunk at 8 am?!"

She sobbed harder and apologized over and over again. I couldn't deny that I still felt something for her. But she hurt me badly, drunk or not she betrayed me. And there, there was Nikki.... I opened the door and I looked at her. Ashley was tickilng her and she was crying from all the laughter. What was I supposed to do? Fight with my best friend to win Nikki's heart? Or take back the woman who stabbed me in the back....

"Andy? Are you there?"

"Yeah, I'm here. Listen, Juliet. I don't trust you anymore-"

"Just give me another chance, Andy. I swear to God that I'll make it up to you" she said cryong harder.

"I'll think about it" I said and ended the call.

I walked back in the living room and Nikki's eyes met mine.

Nikki's POV:

After John left I was still hyper. I couldn't believe what was happening. We will go on tour in less than three weeks! We will perform in front of hundreds od people! And we will be with our favourite band! Just don't wake me up!!

We were sprawled all around the living room, drinking whisky and talking about random shit. Andy's phone rang and he went to the kitchen. I looked at his back and suddenly I felt someone's grip on me and the person started tickling me.

"What the fuck are you doing, Ashley?" I said laughing.

"What it looks like I'm doing?" he said tickling me harder.

Everybody laughed their asses off at my failed attempt to get out of his grip

"Ashley.... Please... St-.... Stop!" I said crying from all the laughter.

"Why?" he said laughing.

"I'm gonna....smack...you!!"

That stopped him. He looked at me in mocked horror and I laughed even harder.

Just then Andy came out of the kitchen and I met his gaze.

"You OK, man?" CC asked.

"Yeah, I'm fine." he answered pouring himself another whiskey.

CC was telling his hillarious memories from tour and everybody's attention was on him.

I looked at Andy and he avoided my gaze. I really needed to talk to him. But I didn't know what to say... I didn't know what I was feeling right now... Ashley elbowed me and I looked at him questioningly.

"I need to talk to you." he whispered.

I looked at him and he was serious. Damn...

I stood up and walked to my room and he followed me.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Well, I don't know... You were kinda off last night... I should ask you what is wrong."

I sighed and crossed my arms.

"I'm... I... Kinda kissed Andy last night." I said looking at the floor.

"Why?" Ashley asked calmly.

"He told me about Juliet. And I hugged him and then he kissed me and then I kissed him back." I said fast.

He didn't said a thing and came closer. he lifted my chin up and I melted under his soft gaze.

"And why were you mad?"

"Because I think I feel something for you and Andy messed up with my head." I said and I wanted to kill myself for addmiting that I actually felt something for Ashley Manwhore Purdy!!

He didn't flashed me his famous smirk and I was surprised.

"I think I might feel something for you too... And I know for sure that Andy does too." He whispered sadly.

I looked away again but he pulled my chin back.

"I don't wanna force you. I'm scared as fuck right now, It's been a long time since I felt something like this. I don't even know how to react. But I know that I will give it a shot if you do." he said and I knew he meant every word.

Wait, what? A relationship??!! With him?!! What the fuck??!!

"Ashley I'm not really good at this... thing." I said truthfully.

"Me neither. But I don't wanna ask myself 'what if...?'. I wanna know." he said placing his hands on my hips.

I looked at him. Was I ready to do this? Especially, with him? I didn't know, but he was right about one thing... I don't wanna ask myself either 'what if...'... I wanted to know too... I leaned in and I kissed him. It was a slow, soft kiss. Like a promise....

"Promise me that whatever happens.... You will talk to me. If we have issues you will talk to me. Promise me that you won't lie to me." I said breaking the kiss.

"I promise you, Nikki!" he said pecking my lips.

"We should go back. I need to talk to Andy.Can you send him over?"

He nodded and he exited my room giving me one last kiss.

My head was spinning. What were we now? Still sex buddies? Lovers? Boyfriend and girlfriend? What? I somehow felt that I said yes too quickly... I still didn't trust him fully... My thoughts were interrupted by Andy who entered my room.

"Hey...." he said.

"Hey... I just... wanted to talk to you." I said awkwardly.

"I know you chose Ashley." he said bluntly.

"What?"

"I could tell from the huge genuine smile that he had on his face." he said coming closer.

I wanted to step back so badly but apparently, my legs weren't listening. He wrapped an arm around my waist and the other one around my neck. He looked in my eyes and I was weak under his gaze.

"I'm not mad, Nikki. I respect your decision. But you have to know one thing." he said breathing against my lips.

"What?" I whispered.

"When he will break your heart, I will be there to pick up the pieces." he said giving me a forceful kiss.

I couldn't help it and I kissed him back. It was a short kiss because he pulled back quickly.

He walked out of my room leaving me there, breathless and confused as fuck. I had a feeling that maybe....just maybe.... he was right.....

'What if Ashley will break my heart?'.... I thought to myself touching my lips, feeling the two kisses that changed my life still lingering there....

Notes

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