Destiny's Kiss

We drove through the darkness with music playing low. I directed him to an old highway; we passed over a lovely old bridge, and drove to the end of the road. The road was almost completely secluded: thick trees were growing on both sides of the road. They were so thick you could hardly see the road through them. There was a barrier at the end of the road, behind it was dirt—it dropped off and down the hill a little ways, a creek. All around the little creek were tall trees. To say the least, it was amazing.

“This is where you wanted to take me?” He said, shutting the car door.
“Yeah…”
“It’s so beautiful, Crystal.” He looked over and smiled at me.

We walked to the barrier and stared down at the breath taking sight that surrounded us. There were so many fireflies lighting up all around us; the sight was mesmerizingly beautiful. We stood, leaning up against the barrier, completely silent. It wasn’t a deafening silence, but a comfortable silence. I peered over at him and noticed his eyes were sparkling in the moonlight. He was staring off at something in the distance. It made my heart beat a little faster, and honestly I didn’t like what I was feeling. I swore I would never give in to feelings again; I swore to be emotionless forever.

Then I felt all the memories; all the terrible, painful, heart breaking memories come flooding back. They replayed in my head over and over again, like a bad movie you paid too much to see. And I did—I did pay too much to see them. I paid too much to live them in the first place. It left me with too many scars, and it always cost me my happiness when they came back to haunt me.

Trying to push the horrible memories of my past away, I decided to break the silence.

“There used to be a big, old bridge here. It was similar to the one back there. That’s part of the bridge,” I pointed to a big piece of concrete that had only an inch of water flowing over it. It stretched from shore to shore across the creek, creating a slight dam. “I used to come here to sit on the bridge and clear my head. It was so nice to just get away from reality for awhile.” I looked at the ground, frowning at the memories. “I always said that if I was going to commit suicide, I would come to the bridge and jump off. It wasn’t long after that, they blew it up. Now, I just come here to swim in the creek.”

My attempt to push the memories away failed so miserably, and I was left with even more painful memories. Depression came flooding over me; crashing into me like a tidal wave. My head started spinning, and I could barely breathe. I tried to hide the oncoming tears from the man that stood next to me, only inches away. I wasn’t his burden to bear.

I tried to calm myself down and thankfully it worked. I blinked the tears out of my eyes and silenced my loud mind. Being surrounded by darkness was getting the best of me, and it was time to leave.

“Hey, you want to go get something to eat? I’m pretty hungry.” Although I hate admitting I am…
“Yeah, I’m pretty hungry myself.” I was so glad to hear someone’s voice that wasn’t mine. I was so glad that the silence had been broken.
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We drove a few miles, back into town. We decided on eating at Applebees. Even though it was late and they were close to closing, the hostess still welcomed us in and seated us at a quaint little booth. He sat across the table from me, staring down at his menu. He looked marvelous in the low light that surrounded the booth.

The waitress made her way up to the table, flipping her notepad open.

“What can I get you to drink?” She was a young girl, probably in her early twenties. She had long, blonde, wavy hair, tanned skin and hazel eyes. She was smiling and almost gawking at Andy. Fucking slut. Stop looking at him like that. He is here with me, thank-you-very-much. Damn, I’m cruel. I’m sure she’s a very nice girl; I shouldn’t jump to conclusions like that. Annnd she’s still looking at him. FUCKING STOP BEFORE I PUNCH YOUR STUPID LOOKING, TANNED FACE IN. GRRRRR…

“I’ll just have a water, please.” His voice came out deeper than I remember it being.
“And for you?” The waitress finally removed her gaze from Andy and glanced over to me.
“I’ll have a lemonade. Thanks.” I said, straight faced.
“I’ll bring those right out.” She looked back over to Andy and smiled. Uhhhh. Can you stop fucking staring at him.

She walked off and Andy looked up from his menu and to me.

“I think I’m going to get the soup and salad duo. What are you getting?” He spoke.
“Uh…That actually sounds pretty good. I think I’ll get the same.” I smiled at him.
“Great.” He returned the smile.

The annoying waitress came back, took our orders, stared at Andy, then walked off.

“So how was tour?” I had to strike up a conversation.
“It was really great. I love meeting fans and playing the shows.”
“That’s awesome. It sounds like it would be a lot of fun.”
“It really is fun.” He took a sip of his water. “So do you work at the mall, or did you just happen to be shopping there as insanely late as me?” He laughed a bit, then continued smiling.
“I did work there; that was my last day there.”
“How long had you worked there?”
“Three years. I saved up every penny I made since I started working there, and I plan on taking a road trip around America now.”
“That’s really cool. I’ve traveled around America touring; it’s really awesome.”
“I can only imagine. It would be like living a dream, for me.”
“All the tours we’ve done have been such a great experience. We have such amazing fans.” He smiled widely at the thought of his fans.
Our conversation was interrupted by the waitress setting our food down on the table. A bit startled I looked up at her, frowning.
“Here ya go. Anything else I can get for you?”
“We’re fine, thanks.” I said, bleakly. She smiled once again and walked off.
We both dug into our food, finished pretty quickly. The waitress brought the bill and went to take away our plates before I stopped her.
“We uh, need two separate che…”
“Before I could finish, Andy cut me off.
“No, I’ve got it.” He handed the woman his debit card, and she dashed off again.
“Andy, you didn’t have to pay for mine.”
“But I wanted to, so I did.” He smiled at me, and for a moment our eyes met. I was caught hopelessly in his gaze.
“Well thank you. I really appreciate it. I…I’ve had a really great time today.” I peered down at the table, shyly. I glanced up through my eyelashes to see he was still smiling at me.
“I enjoyed spending time with you, Crystal.” I couldn’t help but smile at what he had said. Awww, he says my name so cute! Damnit. He’s turning me into a mushy girl. I…I wonder if he really means it…or if he’s just saying it to be nice…

Soon enough, the blonde waitress returned with Andy’s debit card and a receipt.

“Have a great night! Hope to see you again!” She loudly spoke, beaming at Andy as she did. I cringed at the sound of her annoying voice.

We got up and made our way towards the exit. Andy held the door open for me as I walked out. I climbed into the front seat of the Challenger, and he in the driver’s seat.

“So are you staying at the house?”
“I…uh…I don’t…I don’t know…” I finally managed to stutter out.
“Would you like to?”
“Where would I sleep, though?” Fuck, it sounded like I don’t want to. Oh no. Oh no. I want to. I want to! UHHHH fucking fuck.
“Uh…maybe it would be better if you just went home.” He looked down at his hand, a hint of sadness in his voice. FUUUCCCKK. I bet he thinks I don’t want to! Or maybe he thinks we’re moving too fast, or maybe the thought of me staying with him repulsed him. Most likely the second one…But it was probably the first one too.
“Oh…okay.” I tried hard not to, but sounded very sad; I was sad. I didn’t want the night to end, and now it was.

He started the car and we began making our way back to Ashley’s house. This time, the silence was deafening.

Notes

And there she goes, fucking things up with her shyness/awkwardness. Hooray for being shy and awkward! Hope you enjoyed. There shall be a few more chapters tomorrow :)