WARNING:
This story contains foul language and sexual actions. (all the best stuff ;D)
It also contains stuff about depression and suicide

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.Most people crave normality; they crave conformity. They think it gives them a purpose; a reason to exist.They go about living such ordinary lives, not wanting anyone to be any different, or anyone to upset the ways they live their common lives. They'll never admit it though.

Crystal wasn't normal, and she'd plainly admit it. She was just different. A major fact about her that she had realized from a young age. She never saw things the way everyone else did, and she never liked the same things every one else did. It was like she was awake, when everyone else was sleep walking; not living but merely existing. She saw a world more beautiful and full of magic than anyone could ever open their eyes enough to see.

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She was an outsider, though she never really minded it. She walked about life watching people; studying them. When she was just 16 years old, she got emancipated, moved out of her parents house, and began working. She was an extraordinary success by the time she was 17, though she never saw it. The depression that had come early on in her life never really let her see the good things, or let her enjoy life. Depression and anxiety were all she knew.

She saw life so differently that it made her enjoy the comfort and safety of her room. The blue haired girl lived so distant from anyone, and was always alone. She had only truly trusted one person her whole life, and he left her an emotionless mess of what she once was. He made it impossible for her to trust anyone but herself.

He left her...broken.

She never thought she would find someone who saw life just like her, but in the most uncommon place,
she did.

1. Changes

   “Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.” ― Dr. Seuss

2. Struggles

   “In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.” ― Robert Frost

3. Anxiety

   “There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.” ― Albert Einstein

4. Adventuring

   “Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” ― Martin Luther King Jr., A Testament of Hope: The Essential Writings and Speeches

5. Depression

   “That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end.” ― Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation

6. Ecstasy

   WARNING: Contains drug references and sexual content.

7. New Beginnings

   “No, this is not the beginning of a new chapter in my life; this is the beginning of a new book! That first book is already closed, ended, and tossed into the seas; this new book is newly opened, has just begun! Look, it is the first page! And it is a beautiful one!” ― C. JoyBell C.

8. Little Wonders

   Love is a really scary thing, and you never know what's going to happen. It's one of the most beautiful things in life, but it's one of the most terrifying. -Ariana Grande

9. Running Away

   I'm constantly running away from everything. I'm running away from things on a daily basis. I run away from relationships. I run away from responsibilities. -Norman Reedus

10. No Longer

    “But in the end one needs more courage to live than to kill himself.” ― Albert Camus

11. Numb

    “She didn't care about anything, or maybe she cared too much.” ― Donna Lynn Hope, Willow

12. Mourir

    “Killing oneself is, anyway, a misnomer. We don't kill ourselves. We are simply defeated by the long, hard struggle to stay alive. When somebody dies after a long illness, people are apt to say, with a note of approval, "He fought so hard." And they are inclined to think, about a suicide, that no fi

13. Vivre

    “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” ― Oscar Wilde

14. Darkness

    “It cannot be seen, cannot be felt, Cannot be heard, cannot be smelt, It lies behind stars and under hills, And empty holes it fills, It comes first and follows after, Ends life, kills laughter.” ― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Hobbit

15. Light

    “I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars.” ― Og Mandino

16. ~{Announcement}~

    Story Name Change

17. Hopes

    Tomorrow is the most important thing in life. Comes into us at midnight very clean. It's perfect when it arrives and it puts itself in our hands. It hopes we've learned something from yesterday. -John Wayne

18. Magic

    “And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it.” ― Roald Dahl

19. Aléatoire

    I regret those times when I've chosen the dark side. I've wasted enough time not being happy. -Jessica Lange

20. I Will

    “It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.” ― Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

21. Happiness

    “You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.” ― Albert Camus

22. Beauty

    You can never control who you fall in love with, even when you're in the most sad, confused time of your life. You don't fall in love with people because they're fun. It just happens. -Kirsten Dunst

23. Hung In Black

    “Tears shed for another person are not a sign of weakness. They are a sign of a pure heart.” ― José N. Harris, MI VIDA: A Story of Faith, Hope and Love

24. Questions

    “Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.” ― Dr. Seuss

25. Answers

    “You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness.” ― Jonathan Safran Foer

26. A Look

    “Falling in love is very real, but I used to shake my head when people talked about soul mates, poor deluded individuals grasping at some supernatural ideal not intended for mortals but sounded pretty in a poetry book. Then, we met, and everything changed: the cynic has become the converted.” ― E.A

27. Normal Again

    "Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common sense." -Helen Rowland

28. Lust

    “One day you fall for this boy. And he touches you with his fingers. And he burns holes in your skin with his mouth. And it hurts when you look at him. And it hurts when you don’t. And it feels like someone’s cut you open with a jagged piece of glass.” ― Maureen Medved, The Tracey Fragments

29. Confidence

    “Once we believe in ourselves, we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit” ― E.E. Cummings

30. Need

    “She was darkness and he was darkness and there had never been anything before this time, only darkness and his lips upon her. She tried to speak and his mouth was over hers again. Suddenly she had a wild thrill such as she had never known; joy, fear, madness, excitement, surrender to arms that were

31. ...Or Love?

    “There was no world, no land, no god or heaven or earth outside of their two bodies naked and trembling in the act of love.” ― Roman Payne

32. Falling

    “She wasnt exactly sure when it happened. Or even when it started. All she knew for sure was that right here and now, she was falling hard and she could only pray that he was feeling the same way.” ― Nicholas Sparks, Safe Haven

33. Fun

    “The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt