I've Given You My Heart To Break..
XL. It's all over
I look at the closed door. Dumbfounded.
Andy’s gone.
I don’t love you.
I knew it would hurt, but not that much. I feel empty. ‘If he rejects you he isn’t worth it and he’s not a loss’.. Yeah sure. I’m not a loss for him. Not the smallest. He didn’t care. He didn’t even look back.
No emotions. No feelings.
I feel cold tear running down my cheek. I shall not cry, but I can’t help it. I want to die. I know I shouldn’t have fell for him. I know it all along. Why? Oh why do my heart always want the impossible? I lay on the bed, still crying.
What will I tell Alex? What can I say? He refused me?
Why did I get into this hell?
I finally decide to get out of our.. Of this room. There’s no ‘us’ or ‘our’. There’s Andy. Then there’s me. I’m not part of his life. So I quickly take my stuff and get dressed. I make the bed and clean up. I don’t want to let anything from me here. I know he’s already moving on, and I don’t think he’ll want to have stuff to bring to me.
When I’m done I look one last time at ‘the red room’ and close the door behind me.
It’s over.
I walk in the dark to my car and get in. I still want to cry, he left. He really left.
I drive to my apartment, it’s empty. Where’s Alex? At least I will avoid questions.. For now. I decide to take a shower, a freezing cold shower. Then head to bed. But I know I won’t sleep. I can’t. Looking at my phone I realize it’s already 4AM. Wow.
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I wake up late -good, at least I slept- and instantly take my phone. Of course, no text. Nothing. Of course what did you think?
I get out of bed and go to the kitchen. I’m not hungry, but oh well..
“Angie? Are you okay?” I jump. Alex is back. Cool.
“Yes.” I breath out, looking down. She walks to me.
“Angie.. Did you?” I nod, feeling tears coming back. Yes, I did tell him about my feelings.
“I told him and he left. I don’t think we’ll see each other again.” I sigh.
“Oh Angie! I’m sorry!” she says, hugging me.
“I shouldn’t have forced you to tell him..” But you did. I shrug. It doesn't matter anymore.
“It’s okay.. Don’t worry.. I kind of.. You know, I knew he didn’t-..” I can’t finish my sentence as I feel tears coming back. His words have been spinning in my head over and over. I can’t get rid of it.
I don’t love you.
He said it. Even if he tried to add the ‘not the way you want’, he said it. I don’t even know -and I can’t understand- why I still wanted to stay. Why I wanted to pick the pieces of my shattered heart and give it back to this cold guy.
But oh well.. Now it’s over right? And I should move on!
Notes
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omg 'the first thought' this story is amazing i really need to know whats gonna happen next please update more im really enthralled in this story. What will Alex do? What will Andy do next? Is Matt coming back? What's Angie gonna do? Is she actually gonna jump off the bridge? Please, please, please update soon
1/27/17