I've Given You My Heart To Break..

I freeze.
“Wh.. What did you just say?” I don’t move, acting like I’m asleep. I wish I could disappear. What was his tone? Surprised? Chocked? Happy? Sad? Angry?
A mix of them all..?
“Angie.. I know you’re not sleeping. Please look at me.” I hold in my tears and look at Andy. His face is emotionless. I feel like it’s the end.

“Andy.. Forget about..
-No. You just said you loved me right?” I shyly nod. He sighs.
“Oh Angie.. Angie.. ANGIE!” he sighs again. I instantly close my eyes. I don’t want an argument. Not now. Not here. Please?
But no. He quickly get up and turn on the light.

“I guess it’s over?” the tall man asks as he put on his boxers. I look at him confused.
“We won’t see each other again right?
-But.. Why?” I ask, feeling the tears coming back, feeling the lump in my throat getting bigger and bigger. I don’t want to lose him. Never.
“Angie.. We’re not dating, it’s just about sex. Physical pleasure and needs. No cute text, romance and all that shit. I don’t love you, well not the way you want. Nothing more can happen. It was supposed to be sex. Just sex.”

I look down. I just messed everything up once again.
“No.. Feelings” he adds, looking down. My heart just broke in a million pieces. I get it.

I don’t love you.

Andy just silently get dressed. I don’t know what to say. What to do. I don’t want it to be over. I want to see him again.

I want to pick up the million pieces and give it back to him.

“An.. Andy?” he looks up to me, his eyes empty.
“What?” I swallow, trying to find some courage. I look down and bite my lip. I don’t even know what to say.
“What do you want more?” he ask. Harshly.
“I.. Can we see each other again?” the man shake his head, getting back to tying his shoes. I sigh and swallow again.

“I.. I don’t want romance with you.” Andy looks up to me again, kind of interested. But then he sigh loudly.
“But you’ll do sooner or later.. I know..” I shake my head. I don’t care what I get. I want him.
“Please Andy I just.. I just want you.” I say, almost crying. I never thought I would let myself go so far for a man. But it wasn’t just a man.
“Angie.. I know for a fact you’ll want more. And I can’t give you more. You deserve better. Find someone else, fall in love and get happy. You don’t want me.” as if it would be that easy..
“I. Want. You. I don’t care about ‘someone else’, I want you. It’s okay if it’s once a week, just sex and no text. I want to spend time with you.”

Andy sighs again. He’s ready to go. To leave. And never get back.
“Well, we’ll see. Don’t text me. I’ll decide next week or.. I’ll tell you.” I nod. He takes his last things and walk out of the room without looking back. Leaving me alone. Broken.

Notes

I'm sowwwyyyyyyyy! But remember the title.. I've given you my heart to break..
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