Alex wraps me in a tight hug. Forgetting about all the lies I close my eyes and hug her back. I needed a hug. But not from Andy..
When she releases me I can read pure concern in her eyes.
“Angelique.. What’s going on? Is it about him? Can I kill him?” she adds with a small smile.
I shake my head, but my eyes decide to cry even more and she hugs me again.

My best friend leads me to the couch and sit me down. I try to breath and calm down but I can’t. I want HIM. I want him for myself. But it’s impossible. And I can’t tell Alex!
“I.. I think I’m in love.” I whisper. She gently lay my head on her shoulder.
“That’s what I thought.. What’s the problem about this?
-He doesn’t love back!” I sob.
She hushes me and rock me back and forth.

“How do you know? Did you ask him?” I shake my head. I can’t tell her ‘how I know’ and how of a slut her best friend is..
“Well, what you have to do is telling him about your feelings.” I look up at her feeling a little bit of hope and light in my mind. ‘Andy, I love you’
But it quickly vanishes as I cry again. No. I definitely can’t tell him.

If he rejects me, I will never see him again, I can’t take that. I don’t want to be far from him. I can’t stay away. I rather be his ‘side chick’.
If he wants me he’ll have to break up with Juliet. I would be a ‘home wrecker’ and I would never be able to look at my own reflection in a mirror, nor look at Juliet, Alex or anyone else in the eyes!

I’m trapped in my own game.

“Listen Angie. If you didn’t ask him for his feelings you can’t assume he doesn’t love you. If he wanted to see you that much, he must like you at least a little bit okay?” I smile and nod.
“Then. If you can’t tell me who it is then fine. BUT. Promise me you’ll tell him about your feelings. Okay?” My heart skip a bit. But I nod. Unable to say no.
“O.. Okay. I’ll tell him..” in two years.

“When are you supposed to see him again?” I sigh
“Tonight.
-Then tell him tonight. If he rejects you he isn’t worth it and he’s not a loss. If he loves you back you’ll be happy forever and have many children.” I nod and smile. But inside I’m dying. I know for a fact he’ll reject me. And I won’t be a loss for him.

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I arrive at work almost late. This is not ‘normal for me’. My mood is so low I just hope I won’t mess with everything..
“Angie?” I look up at my boss, he seems worried.
“Are you okay? You look kind of sick.” I just shake my head and smile a bit.
“If it’s about Tommy.. You don’t have to worry. We all know something happened and we’re all worried about you. He won’t be able to touch -or approach- you. We’re all watching on him!” I smile -a real smile- for the first time since.. Since I met Andy.

“Oh.. Thank you Sean! I’m.. I’m really glad you guys care about me that much!” he nods with a smile then walks away.

I manage -by miracle- to make all my dessert as flawless as usual. But my mood is still as low. I’m constantly fighting not to cry. I don’t know if I’ll have the strength.. To tell him straight in his face that I’m ruining our contract. That I’m involving feelings and emotions in our ‘sex, sex and only sex’ relationship.. But I promised.

When I walk out of the restaurant I feel even worse. In a matter of minutes I’m seeing him. Should I tell him as soon as I see him? Or should I enjoy one last moment with him?
As I’m still thinking about it I feel my phone buzzing..
‘Andy: Hi princess! I can’t wait for you ;)’

I sigh. Tonight can be the last night..

Notes

Hey guys how are you? I'm so happy I saw my story on the most popular page!
:do-a-happy-dance:
Soooooo, how will Andy react?
And yas! she loves him.. The monster with an angel face. Why? Later... Bye! Love you all <3