I've Given You My Heart To Break..

I drive to the hotel and climb out and walk to 'our' room. I knock and Andy instantly open the door. I slowly look up at him and blush.. This guy f.. Fucked me.. Take a deep breath Angie..
“Hey princess, I'm glad you came.” I nod and walk in, he closes the door and lead me to the bed.. This bed! Calm down..
“What did you want to talk about?” I ask, looking at my hands on my lap..
Will he fucks me again? Now? Here? That would be.. Shut the fuck up! I need to think!

Andy sits just next to me and wraps an arm around my waist, pulling me even closer. I discretely take a deep breath.. But it doesn't help as my nostrils are filled with his scent.. God! I'm going to die..
“It's not about rules and days.. You're not at school or work. It's about sex. Just sex.” he says, stroking my hair. What does that mean?
He would be a good teacher.. He already taught you orgasm. Then it would be an amazing job!

“What do you mean exactly?” he smiles
“As you know little angel, I'm in a relationship. I don't want her to find out.” I sigh, I know that asshole! But you were the one asking for more!
“So I don't want you to message me when you want it. You can call, but no text. Then sometimes I won't be able to see you..” you mean you'll be with her right? I got it, no need of being so nice when talking about it! I sigh again.
“Those days I'll warn you.” I nod. That's good at least..

“Most of the time we won't see each others on Saturday night..” I look up at him, confused.
“I know, we did it the first time, but it was different princess. That's why I said most of the time” I nod. Good. His real girl has the Saturday night, I have the rest.. But after all I'm just his 'side girl'..
“I know you work one week on two at night, these weeks we can see each others differently. It'll depend on how busy we both are. Of course you can stop it all whenever you want..” I doubt it. I know he'll be the first to be tired of me..

“Out of here and your room, we will just be friends. I don't want you to talk about it to anyone..” I nod again. As if I would scream out loud 'I'm a side girl!'?!!
“It also mean, nothing between us, no hanging out, no date or any shit.” I nod. Of course I knew! I can't attract a man like this one for more than sex! It's okay.
“No feelings..” he whispers to himself and I shrug. Love is just in books in movies.. I'm not in a fanfiction about this handsome man.. It won't happen! It's just a sexual attraction..
“Angie..? I want to fuck you whenever I feel like it. Are you okay with that?” Oh. Said like this.. It's.. Kinky! I nod again and he smiles down at me.

“Good. Anything to add?” I think about it.. Wait!
“Isn't it exactly like rules and days?” he chuckles and nods.
“I didn't want to scare you. Are you okay with all of that?” I smile.
“It's just fine. Sex. Sex and that's all.” he nods but his smile is gone. I pull his face to mine and kiss him. I want him to be happy. Even if I wish things could be different.. Oh! So different..

Notes

*Filler alert*
I think I'll take off the **on hold** and put it back in December (with tons of exams coming..)
Don't know yet.. Thanks for still being there! <3<3<3