I've Given You My Heart To Break..

I followed Sean to the fancy dinning room.. I feel out of place with my apron and black pant.. We walk to a small table for two. There's a man in a black suit along with a gorgeous woman in a wonderful dress.. The kind of thing I prefer to avoid.. But for now my hands are sweating. I shall never have complaint! If the client isn't happy, then my boss isn't happy.. And when Sean isn't happy he doesn't hesitate on firing people.. If I loose my job.. Oh my God! Just oh my God!


“Here is Angelique. She's the one who baked your desert.. What did you want to tell her?” says Sean, slightly pushing me forward. I wave at them shyly.. Why the fuck is happening to me?!
“So.. You are the person who baked this?” he doesn't seem upset.. Yet not happy neither.. I nod, unable to talk. I feel a lump in my throat. It's getting bigger and bigger.. I'm going to cry!
“Well young lady.. I have to be honest.. And this..” just say it already! Nor I loose my job, nor I break down in front of a client..
“This was fantastic! The best tart I ever tasted. Not to sweet, not too sour.. Crispy.. Perfect! Just Perfect. Congratulation Miss.” the man says with a smile.

I blush deep red as the clients in the close tables cheer at me.. I'm not used to this. I'm supposed to cook and they get happy without knowing about me.. Not to be noticed or cheered at. I'm not used to attention.. But I'm really fucking happy he liked it!
I thank him then walk back to my place.. Where I belong!
But I notice something.. Or should I say someone grab my attention..
“Angie?” I turn around to see him.. Is he following me or something? He's always there?!
“Hi Andy.. I have to go, I..” I stop. Andy is with a girl. A beautiful girl. Way better than me, older.. Are they..?

“Oh! So you are Angie?” she says. Who is she? Who is she for him? I nod at her, still confused.
“I'm Juliet. Alex talks a lot about you! You work here?” I nod again. WHO IS SHE?! I won't know..
“I can't wait to taste something you made! Andy said you were a real cordon bleu!” I smile at her, she seems nice.. So why is Andy glaring at her? What is happening between them? God! So many questions.. Could she be his girlfriend? I feel my heart breaking at the idea.. Andy? In a relationship? No..
“Uh.. Thanks. I have to go now. Hope I'll see you again Juliet.” with that I give her a quick smile before walking off. I still have one more hour of working..

I just can't stop thinking about them. He's in a damn relationship? So he was just playing with me? I feel like crying again. But I can't. I shouldn't. I am a professional. I have to make my job perfect no matter what. My clients can't suffer from my ups and downs! Private life has a place and limits!
But once I'm done with my last dessert I quickly clean around and walk out of there..

What a dam day!

I almost run to my car. I just need some air! And as I'm upset I arrive two time earlier. I run inside and quickly open the door.
“ALEX???!!!” I yell. I walk inside. Where the fuck is she? Alex walks to me with a confused look.. Now I have to say it in a way she will reply to my question..
“Why didn't you tell me Andy has a girlfriend?” Alex turns bright red and she looks down.. Something that happen so rarely I can't even remember the last time she did! Wait! It means..?
“I.. Uh.. I planed on telling you.. But.. You know?.. As you kept on saying there was nothing..” I sigh.. Please don't let me cry now!


I run to my bed and lay on my bed, a single tear roll down my temple.. To be followed by so many more. I cry and cry again. I don't even know why! Why does it hurt? I don't love him! I can't love him! But he's a damn liar.. I cry even more. I just can't stop it. Why? Why God? Why?! What have I done?
I roll on my bed, trying to catch my breath and stop crying. I am an adult now. I can't cry for a man! NEVER! It was just a sexual attraction.. Nothing more!

Suddenly I hear people talking.. Alex invited someone again? I sigh. She's so popular.. Always with friends.. And I? No fucking one!
I wipe my eyes and calm myself. I'm not a baby anymore. I can't react so badly! I stand up and take a deep breath. But then I hear a knock on my door.
“Angie?” no..

Notes

So many worse coming..
I'm glad I wrote this already, I'm sick like a lama.. Uh.. Anyway!
See you soon :)