She hates love..... He loves hate
Savior
SCARLETS POV
I knew what he was doing... I knew he wasn't ok with this in the slightest bit. But why he was doing it is what I didn't understand.
I threw on some shorts and some shoes and ran out of the bus, the morning light blinding me, and almost making me fall to the ground, for it only intensified my excruciating headache from my hangover. It was only about 6:30am, and I knew for a fact that everyone at the party last night was still asleep, and still would be until the show tonight, after that show we drive to the next venue, and I plan to not party or drink at that one.. Or ever again.
The morning breeze felt good, but it still didn't calm me as much as a cigarette would right now. I reached into my pocket and pulled out my pack of calming nicotine sticks. I brought one to my lips and lit it. I inhaled deeply, letting the calming smoke fill my lungs. I was almost relaxed when my phone started to ring. I sighed before I looked at the caller ID... I froze and my heart stopped. It was Darren
"H-hey D-Darren" I said shakily trying to sound calm but obviously failing.
"Hey babe! I can't wait till you come home! I got you a surprise!" He said happily and I smiled at his voice as a tear fell down my cheek
Should I tell him?... He has a right to know. Even if it would mean my whole world (Darren) left and hated me.
"Darren...I-" I was going to finish, but I was cut off by the sound of a purring cat
"Baby what was that?" I asked as I heard the purring again, almost as if it was purring to the sound of my voice
"It's the surprise! Well not so much of a surprise anymore but it's a kitten, I just found her the other day, she's about 3 months old" he paused for a moment before continuing
"She's yours" he said and I felt my heart stop
Suddenly my phone buzzed signifying someone texted me. Or in this case sent me a picture. It was Darren holding the most adorable kitten I've ever seen in my life
"I didn't know what to name her, but I couldn't wait till you got home!" His voice was so calming so happy, while I was so confused, and so broken
"Scarlet?...baby what's wrong, are you crying?" He asked, and I realized I was
"I-I just miss you so much!" It wasn't a lie... But it wasn't why I was crying.
"Ok.. Well I got to go baby.. I love you so much! And don't worry, I'll be waiting here when you get back, I love you sweetie" he said and it only made me cry more, I put my hand over the speaker so he wouldn't hear how broken I was.
"I-I love you to bye" I said trying to sound as happy and unbroken as possible, when in reality I was the exact opposite.
I put my phone in my pocket, then fell to the floor crying. I guess someone heard me because before I knew it, I was in someone's arms. I didn't care who it was at this point, I just cried into their arms. Then I heard it, his angelic singing
"I never meant to be the one
Who kept you from the dark
But now I know my wounds are sewn
Because of who you are
I will take this burden on
And become the holy one
But remember I am human
And I'm bound to sing this song
So hear my voice remind you not to bleed I'm here,
Saviour will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A saviour for all that you do
So you live freely without their harm"
I looked up at him, the song was beautiful, one I had never heard before, but I was sure it was my new favorite
"A-Andy, that was beautiful.. What was it" I asked and he gave me a very caring smile
"I call it savior... It's going to be on our next album. Nobody else but you has heard it before...Scarlet I will always be here for you" he said then kissed my forehead
"I will always be your savior" he whispered to me and I felt my heart skip a beat
Why does life hate me so much? I would be better off without it. If I wasn't alive I wouldn't be able to hurt anyone or be hurt by anyone. I know I said in high school I would never think of it again... But now.. I'm not so sure if I can't keep that promise with myself... Wether it be the one where I never cut again, or the one where I try not to end it all. One has to be done.
I knew what he was doing... I knew he wasn't ok with this in the slightest bit. But why he was doing it is what I didn't understand.
I threw on some shorts and some shoes and ran out of the bus, the morning light blinding me, and almost making me fall to the ground, for it only intensified my excruciating headache from my hangover. It was only about 6:30am, and I knew for a fact that everyone at the party last night was still asleep, and still would be until the show tonight, after that show we drive to the next venue, and I plan to not party or drink at that one.. Or ever again.
The morning breeze felt good, but it still didn't calm me as much as a cigarette would right now. I reached into my pocket and pulled out my pack of calming nicotine sticks. I brought one to my lips and lit it. I inhaled deeply, letting the calming smoke fill my lungs. I was almost relaxed when my phone started to ring. I sighed before I looked at the caller ID... I froze and my heart stopped. It was Darren
"H-hey D-Darren" I said shakily trying to sound calm but obviously failing.
"Hey babe! I can't wait till you come home! I got you a surprise!" He said happily and I smiled at his voice as a tear fell down my cheek
Should I tell him?... He has a right to know. Even if it would mean my whole world (Darren) left and hated me.
"Darren...I-" I was going to finish, but I was cut off by the sound of a purring cat
"Baby what was that?" I asked as I heard the purring again, almost as if it was purring to the sound of my voice
"It's the surprise! Well not so much of a surprise anymore but it's a kitten, I just found her the other day, she's about 3 months old" he paused for a moment before continuing
"She's yours" he said and I felt my heart stop
Suddenly my phone buzzed signifying someone texted me. Or in this case sent me a picture. It was Darren holding the most adorable kitten I've ever seen in my life
"I didn't know what to name her, but I couldn't wait till you got home!" His voice was so calming so happy, while I was so confused, and so broken
"Scarlet?...baby what's wrong, are you crying?" He asked, and I realized I was
"I-I just miss you so much!" It wasn't a lie... But it wasn't why I was crying.
"Ok.. Well I got to go baby.. I love you so much! And don't worry, I'll be waiting here when you get back, I love you sweetie" he said and it only made me cry more, I put my hand over the speaker so he wouldn't hear how broken I was.
"I-I love you to bye" I said trying to sound as happy and unbroken as possible, when in reality I was the exact opposite.
I put my phone in my pocket, then fell to the floor crying. I guess someone heard me because before I knew it, I was in someone's arms. I didn't care who it was at this point, I just cried into their arms. Then I heard it, his angelic singing
"I never meant to be the one
Who kept you from the dark
But now I know my wounds are sewn
Because of who you are
I will take this burden on
And become the holy one
But remember I am human
And I'm bound to sing this song
So hear my voice remind you not to bleed I'm here,
Saviour will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A saviour for all that you do
So you live freely without their harm"
I looked up at him, the song was beautiful, one I had never heard before, but I was sure it was my new favorite
"A-Andy, that was beautiful.. What was it" I asked and he gave me a very caring smile
"I call it savior... It's going to be on our next album. Nobody else but you has heard it before...Scarlet I will always be here for you" he said then kissed my forehead
"I will always be your savior" he whispered to me and I felt my heart skip a beat
Why does life hate me so much? I would be better off without it. If I wasn't alive I wouldn't be able to hurt anyone or be hurt by anyone. I know I said in high school I would never think of it again... But now.. I'm not so sure if I can't keep that promise with myself... Wether it be the one where I never cut again, or the one where I try not to end it all. One has to be done.
Notes
Awh! Darren got her a kitty! And Andy was there for her... He really loves her. Oh whale....... Scandy fans don't worry, there's always hope ;D
I'm sorry that happened! :(
7/26/16