3 weeks later

Me and Andy went back to being best friends again, forgetting what happened that night, which I still haven't told Darren about, and I only hate myself everyday even more for it.... Me and Darren still remained close even though we were a million miles away from each other, and I was a repulsive cheating slut...

I would talk to him every day, well him and lyrix, that's what I decided to name my- or excuse me, our cat. Every time i would video chat with Darren, lyrix would always come up to the camera and put her adorable little cat face to the screen, I loved her so much even though I've never even held her!

And sadly my dirty little secret returned, the guys haven't found out yet, considering I'm always wearing long sleeves. But I seem to cut everyday now. Oh whale.…...

When I wasn't playing pranks on the guys (Andy's specifically), or talking to Darren and lyrix, or cutting myself. I was writing, and going though the shots I got of BVB on stage, I constantly had to keep reminding myself that I was here for work and not fun, when I was in work mode I was a completely different person, one the guys didn't like all that much, sometimes I would even out-mama, mama Jinxx.

And Ever since that night with Andy, that voice in my head has only been becoming bitchier and bitchier, reminding me to do things I never did in the past! Like take my vitamins, and not smoke so much, not to drink, do my work blah blah blah! It was like the mother I never had!. I don't know what's going on with me, but it's like a built in alert mode, telling me when I'm doing something wrong, and I'm compelled to listen to it. God I hope it ends soon because it's becoming a real pain in the ass.

Notes

Just a filler ;D