Suffer In Silence

*Dakota's POV*

*Time Lapse*

Every now and then I hear a little 'mew' from my jacket. I had taken out one earphone so I'd be able to hear him. I feel like I have a new sense of purpose now, I already have Bella and Batbitch -or Batty for short-. Batty is my dog, she's a rotty, one of those ones with the thin mussle, crossed with a staffy, so she's thin and medium sized, around my knees in height, the beautiful girl is mostly black so at night I see her darting around blanketed by the darkness, like a bat, hence the name. I smile at the picture, fuck I love that dog, I've had her since I was a kid, my grandma gave her to me for my birthday when I was ten.

But now that I have Scout, I have this strong sense of purpose, I need him, I need to save him, and he needs me to save him. He's so calm, I think he knows that I'm saving him, he's even purring now. I smile, a cats purr is so relaxing, I almost forget what awaits me at home. Speaking of home, there it is, at the top of this slight hill, it's an ordinary suburban house, nothing special. Pretty street though, it's on a coldesack and my house has a nice garden.

I sneak through the front gate into the garden, which is mostly on the left side of the house, thinning out and wrapping around the rest of the house. I keep both Scout and Batty hushed, not wanting to get caught, I need to catch mum on a good day to tell her about the kitten. I sneak through the garden and reach my window, I leave it unlocked while I'm awake in case I need to sneak out, or in. In one quick motion I place my right arm on the window sill and fling myself smoothly over. I set up a secret place for Scout next to my bed, between it and the wall, using the old stuff I've still got from when Bella was a kitten.

I pack the kitten food Judi gave me and sneak back out. This time I come in through the front door, so mum knows I'm home. "I'm home" I call out, "dinners ready in half an hour, take a shower you smell like sweat" grumbles my mother. Believe it or not but that's actually a good sign, mean's she's not gonna be as angry today. "Oh and Koda?, your portion will be small tonight, you can stand to lose some weight". What the fuck?, I look down, do I really need to lose weight? I thought 35 was a good number... I think, 'are you kidding? look at you you fat fuck, 35 kilos is 10 kilos too many you piece of shit'. "No..." I whisper, tears spring to my eyes as I walk to my room, I won't run, then she'd see she got to me.

Once in the shower I quickly do what I need to do, wash my hair and my body, once I'm done I can finally sit down. I'm still crying, silently, so she won't hear. I break my razor and take out the blade, it'll be pissweak after my mens blade, but it'll have to do. I stretch out my leg before me and cut the very upper part of my right thigh, where no one will ever see it, slice after slice after slice....

*Time Lapse*

Its dinner... so far it's been quiet, everyone's been ignoring me, though my sister, Carrie, keeps looking at me, almost like she's concerned... she keeps watching me as I pick at my food, that must be why. I just don't feel like I can eat, even though I'm starving. I give her a small smile, to try reassure her, but then her face goes dark and she sneers at me. "Mum Koda's not eating the food you worked so hard to make for us" she says, continuing to sneer at me. "Dakota Pike eat your food you lazy goodfornothing!" mother snaps at me. "Sorry mum..." I say and start eating it slowly, each bite making me want to throw up...

Carrie continues making snide remarks and soon enough, we break out into a verbal fight. One second I'm calling Carrie a stupid bitch, next thing I know, my arm is burning from the aftershock of a punch. Shocked, I look at my arm, which I'm already holding instinctively, and look up, it was dad. "Go to your room now!" his strong voice booms, I leap out of my chair in fear and run to my room, dad's not someone you want to fuck with. So even though it's really unfair that I'm the only one in trouble, and I can hear them saying nasty things about me, I say nothing....

*Sandra's POV*

I'm laying on my bed, covered in sweat, I just got home from jamming at CC's. I play the drums, not an easy instrument to move around, so we each pitched in and got a cheap set to keep in CC's van so we don't always have to practice at my place. Music... I wonder what kind of music that girl likes, does she play an instrument? or sing? Wow it'd be cool if she did... I shake my head, why am I thinking about her so much... because she's a mystery, and you love mysteries you idiot... oh, right, that's it, Im gonna find her tomorrow and talk to her if it's the last thing I do. With a nod I get up, better have a shower....

Notes

Well that's chapter 4 up, hope you guys like it :)

Remember if you have any ideas for events to happen in this story, or of characters I could possible add, let me know, and I'll take it into consideration, all feedback is welcome :)

chapter title credit: P!nk - Blow Me (One Last Kiss)