Suffer In Silence

*Dakota’s POV*

I’m nervous. Fuck I’m nervous. How is he going to react?.. He loves his fucking car. Maybe I shouldn’t tell him who paid for it to be fixed… No, no then when he does find out he’d never forgive me…
“Koda!” I jolt back to reality. Andy is standing in front of me with that stupid smirk on his face. Oh who am I kidding?, I love that stupid smirk.

I breathe deeply in preparation. “So I guess you’re probably wondering why I had you meet me here,” I gesture to the forests entrance. “As a matter of fact I was wondering what you’re up to” he replies, barely containing the teasing tone in his voice. “Well, that surprise I promised you?, it’s in there, waiting for you.”
“What’s with the elaborate hiding place?” he cocks his head, confused although a twinkle remains in his eyes. I want to kiss him. So I do. I manage to pull away before he can turn it into a full-on make-out session. “You’ll see, I know you’ll love it, I’m just a little afraid of your reaction to how it came about.” He inhales a deep breath as if in preparation to interrogate me, judging by the look on his face, but I cut him off before he can say anything.

“Come on!” I shout over my shoulder as I run down the path and into the forrest, making my way to the clearing where the batmobile is parked. He has no other choice but to follow me. Another glance over my shoulder tells me he’s now mostly caught up in the glee of the chase. I smile and pick up speed. I love showing him how fast my little legs can carry me even though I know if he really tried his long legs could lope past me easily.

***** Time Lapse *****

“Oh my God…” he breathes, staring wide-eyed at his new and improved car in complete awe. I tense, waiting for him to snap out of it and ask how I did this. Everything depends on his reaction. He could be so repulsed and feel so betrayed that he leaves me forever. My whole world would be crushed if that happened. The only things that would keep me alive would be the love of my animals and friends. Even with all that my actual will to live would be gone.

Suddenly I realise he’s staring at me. How long has he been doing that?, how long was I spaced out this time?… “Sorry, spaced” I laugh nervously. He stares at me silently for a full minute before speaking slowly and deliberately. “Koda.. How did you do this?, it was totalled…” He has a calm tone in his voice that instead of reassuring me, makes me take in a sharp breath in fear. This is it. Time’s up. I have to face the music.

“Before I tell you promise you won’t get too mad, it means so much to me that you have this, it’s a gift from me not him.” Before I can say anything else his face clouds over. “Who is this supposedly not from?” he demands, despite wording it like a question. “Well… it’s.. it’s… Mr. Pierce…” I close my eyes, terrified of how I know he’s going to react. “It’s from Mr. Pierce?!, I can’t believe this!. How could you do this?, what the fuck is wrong with you?!” he screams as he advances on me in fury.

Panic takes over. As he reaches me I instinctively whimper loudly as I cower lower towards the ground. Expecting a hit at any second. Slowly it dawns on me that nothing happened, he’s not even yelling anymore or even making a sound. Tentatively I open my eyes and look up. The look of horror on his face is heartbreaking. “Oh… Koda… I wasn’t… I would never…” tears spring to his eyes but he holds them back. He carefully cradles my face with his hand as a rebellious stray tear makes its way down his cheek. I feel awful, I know he’d never hurt me, I know he wouldn’t, but I couldn’t stop myself.

“I know… I’m so sorry.. For everything.. Forget the car, please forgive me, I can’t lose you…” I plead in desperation. “You could never lose me. Not really. Don’t ever be sorry for being afraid. It’s me who should be sorry, and I am. I forgot that I can’t behave like that no matter how mad I might be, because it’s a trigger for you. I’m sorry that I reacted like that. I will accept the gift, it’s an amazing gift from an amazing girl. I just hate who helped this happen.”

I let out a sob that ends almost as fast as it starts. He pulls me into a strong hug and I feel a sudden wave of calm flow over me. I love so, so much that he knows the best type of hug to make me feel better is a strong one, not a gentle one. Then it hits me. I suddenly know this without a doubt. Andy is the one for me. The only one. Not just a teenage romance. He’s my forever. I knew I really liked him. I knew I needed him. But now I know something I never thought I could feel about anyone…

Notes

I AM SO SO SO SO SO SO x INFINITY SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG!.

I had the worst case of writers block ever. Personal problems didn't exactly help either.
I really hope you like the chapter, it was really hard to write, I had no idea how I was going to do it just that it had to happen.

An update on my bunny, for anyone who read previous updates. Unfortunately early yesterday morning he died, I'm burying him today, I dug the hole yesterday evening. He lived a long 8 years, making him really old for a bunny, I hope i made him happy in those years.

Ch. Title Credit: Against The Current - Closer Faster