Suffer In Silence

*Dakota's POV*

As my eyes flutter open and my dream fades, a smile graces my lips. Memories flash through my mind, of yesterday, and how amazing it was. I can still hear the clapping of the other students, and the proud grins spreading across both Sandra and Miss Lolli's faces. I've never been so proud of anything I've ever done, if it wasn't for Sandra I couldn't have done it at all. I turn my radio on to listen to music while I get ready, yes, I still use a radio, sometimes it's nice to let someone else pick the music, and Hamish and Andy are awesome.

I grin when Bohemian Rhapsody comes on and instantly begin to sing along. I hop into the shower turning the shower radio on so I can keep singing along. By the time the song's finished, I'm ready for school, I've even taken care of the animals. I turn the radio off and head out the door, skipping breakfast so I don't have to run into mum or my sister, though odds are she's at school already, the fucking show-off.

When I finally reach the school I pause my ipod, confused... Where is Sandra? she always waits for me... I check my phone, and sure enough, there's a text from her:

| Sandra: Hey bitch I won't be at school today k? Sick as fuck, you better keep in touch all day or I'll go out of my mind of boredom, that's an order ;) |

I immediately text back:

| Dakota: Haha fine asshole but you fucking owe me, if I get caught texting it's your head ;) |

I chuckle, typical Sandra, bossing me around and she's not even here. I turn my music back on and trudge into school. As I walk into the building, I could swear people keep looking at me, some seem to be gossiping, some sneering. I look down and walk faster, trying to be invisible, I don't like this....

*****Time Lapse*****

When the bell goes for lunch I'm relieved, I need a break from all the whispering, I can't stand it. Once my stuff is packed I head to my locker, I never used to have one, but carrying all my books was too hard. I put my earphones in and walk slowly, stalling like always. I'm not having lunch and I don't want anyone asking why, so I take ages to get to the group, this way I can say I already ate. Eventually I reach my locker and pack my books, getting out the other ones I need for my next two classes. After I've been to the tuck shop to get a yummy drink, I head off towards my groups spot at the table under the tree.

I'm almost home free when I'm surrounded by Stephanie and her friends. They push me back until I'm against the wall. I pull my earphones out and stuff them into my pocket, if I don't pay attention it'll only piss her off more. I see a smug grin spread over Stephanies face, she knows she already has me beat, and she loves it. As always, she and her bunch of tacky bitches start taunting me, only this time I hear insults about my singing being thrown in. It both surprises and humiliates me... How the fuck do they know about that? none of them are even in my music class damnit!... Then it strikes me... That's what everyone must have been talking about, which means it must have got back to Stephanie and that's why she's so pissed!....

Stephanies smug grin turns into a satisfied smirk when she sees the look of realization dawn on my face. "So you've figured it out have you, looney-tune?, took you long enough, the day's almost half over haha, now... I don't want you getting any ideas... You're not cool now, or accepted, or special... So you can sing a little, big fucking woop, there are so many talented singers who are actually gifted, beautiful, and wanted , you deary, are not one of them", with a nasty cackle she calls out to a tough looking chick, who looks like a cross between a popular, and an outcast. "Hey Laney! you know how your ex cheated on you?, this is the slut he did the nasty with". She looks at me and leans in close, "have fun angel" she purrs, then turns and walks away, her friends break out into giggles as they follow her, leaving me to my fate....

I flinch as the girl, Laney, bears down on me raising her fist, I know what's coming. Sure enough her fist collides with my jaw, sending me crashing to the ground. I clutch my face and curl into a ball as I feel a foot crash into my side. Soon I'm being kicked again and again by multiple feet, which means her friends have joined in. Through my whimpering I can hear them calling me names like slut, whore, home-wrecker, the usual things you'd yell at someone who fucked your boyfriend. Only problem is, I didn't fuck her boyfriend, I don't even knowwho he is!, and their not exactly giving me the chance to explain either. Suddenly the kicking stops, I crack an eye open to see two long skinny legs standing between me and my attackers....

*Andy's POV*

I'm keeping my eyes peeled, looking for Koda, she usually takes a while to get to the group at first lunch, but she's never taken this long before, and she isn't replying to any of my, or anyone else's texts, this worries me. As I approach the end of the main hall I hear a commotion, girls yelling and boys hollering excitedly. My blood runs cold... It can't be... I rush around the corner to see a sight that makes my blood boil... There's a bunch of tough yet 'proper' looking girls, kicking at a small figure who's curled into a tight ball. Their surrounded by more girls and guys, all laughing, I hear the guys saying how hot it is. I run and use myself as a human shield, preventing any more savage kicks. My rage explodes into a roar-like growl, making the girls stumble back in shock. "ENOUGH!" I scream, using my best scream to get the message across, being a singer who can scream really does come in handy, it seems.

"If I EVER catch any of you even thinking of hurting her again... Well lets just say I won't think twice about giving you what you deserve, clearly you can hold your own in a fight" I say menacingly, I don't believe in hitting anyone who can't defend themselves, but these girls clearly can, so I'd have no problem putting them in their places. I help Koda up, she looks fearfully at the lead girl, "I swear to God Stephanie was lying. I didn't sleep with your ex, I haven't had sex in months, fuck I wasn't even back in school until last week!". I hug her protectively. "I can vouch for that, Koda has barely left her house at all since she got back and when she did go out it was always with us or to school, she couldn't possibly have done it, I hate to say it, but you've been played".

I watch as the girls eyes go wide as she realizes. "Oh shit I'm sorry, I'm still fucked up about it and when she said... just shit I'm sorry, I never wail on anyone unless I think they deserve it, I can't take it back, but I promise, that unless you do deserve it, I won't go you again. So if you see us around the hall don't worry we don't hold a grudge. In fact, if we see you being attacked we will step in, but only once, any time after that and you're on your own", with that she nods and leads her group away.

As they leave, one of them, a pretty blond, brushes past me, slipping a hand into my pocket as she passes. One of the guys shoots me a death glare and grabs her wrist, storming off... Well that can't be good... Shaking my head, I turn to Koda and inspect her for damage. "That's it, I'm taking you to the sick bay no question about it" I declare, after I assess the damage. Just by looking at her I can tell she's in pain, there's cuts and bruises all over her that I can see. She goes to resist but closes her mouth when I raise my eyebrow at her, and follows me, clinging to my arm. I don't know why but she can never resist me when I do that.

I'm sent away after her mum is called, which annoys me, I wanted to be there for her until her mum gets here. I sigh, I guess I better go tell the others before the bell goes....

*****Time Lapse*****

"Oh my god is she okay?!" Jinxx shouts in shock, once I've told them what happened. "Other than some nasty cuts she seems fine, I saw some bruises forming, but it's hard to tell, she's wearing a long sleeved undershirt again". Everyone erupts into worried mumbling until CC speaks up. "Hey we should go see her after school, cheer her up", we all nod, some of us smiling a little bit at the thought. A thought strikes me, I can get her a present! she'll be so happy and it can't hurt my chances with her to show her how thoughtful I can be... "Dude what's with the goofy grin" Jake laughs, I playfully punch him in the shoulder. "None of your business Pitts" I laugh. Before long the bell rings and we have to head off to class....

*****Time Lapse*****

I'm nervous as we walk into Kodas house and head up to her room. I didn't know what to get her, so I got her some make-up, the brand I use, minus the stuff I use for my war paint. I duck out into the bathroom for a minute, working myself up. "OK Andy... you can do this..." I say to my reflection in the mirror. "It's just Koda, nothing to be afraid of..." I take a deep breath and head out to Kodas room, letting it back out as I finally enter the room. The others are sitting around her on her bed, her jaw is swollen and she has a bandage on her left wrist, she must have sprained it....

Jinxx moves to her side so I can sit at her feet, since she's sitting cross-legged. She smiles at me, "I never got to thank you for saving me, you were my knight in shining armour", she giggles. My heart soars with happiness and I can't contain my grin. "I got you this!, it's make-up, to make you look pretty!" I burst out, immediately regretting my poor choice of words when her face falls. "... You think I'm ugly?" she whispers, silence falls over the group... Shit... One by one everyone hugs her and leaves us, knowing I need to try fix what I've done without the added pressure of an audience.

"I swear to the music gods I didn't mean it like that!, I just worded it wrong, I was just trying to make you smile by getting you a present. So I got you the same brand I use because it's really good and I thought you'd like it!", I say desperately trying to redeem myself. Not knowing what else to do, I dive in and hug her tight. "Please forgive me" I whisper, "you're beautiful, even without make-up I fucking swear...". I pull away and look into her eyes. "Now forgive me before I'm forced to take drastic measures..." I grin playfully, holding my hands in tickle position... God I hope this works... She smiles and pushes me onto my back. "You're such an asshole Biersack... Thanks for the present, sorry I took it wrong, you know me, I always assume the worst haha".

Relief washes over me as I laugh at the sheepish look on her face. Suddenly her face lights up. "Oh! I forgot to tell you all when everyone was here!, so I'll just tell you now and you can tell them when you see them... My friend Max, he works at the music store, called me an hour ago, he was worried 'cos I never contacted him after the crash and he finally realized it was me who was in the accident. Anyway, I'm working there casually now and I told him about how my friends, you guys, music equipment was ruined in the accident and that you had missed your first gig because of it... I convinced him to see if his boss will let you guys use equipment from the shop and have a show in their parking lot!, it would be great publicity for the store and you guys!", she bites her lip nervously while she waits for my response.

I'm speechless, when I can finally speak I fling myself at her, wrapping her into a big hug. "That's amazing!, I'm so happy for you, and so fucking impressed with that brain of yours!, I never thought of doing that!, I really hope it goes through, and even if it doesn't I'm still so thankful that you thought of us like that, the others will be too!" I grin and kiss her tenderly on the cheek. "Till tomorrow, my fair lady..." I tip my imaginary hat, winking at her as I leave the room, unable to hide the massive grin plastered over my face....

Notes

So Chapter 18 is finally up (technically 21), I'm so sorry about the wait. I really hope you guys like this one, I had a lot of help from some of you, when I was in a writers block and needed Idea's, I'm so thankful to you all for that. Oh and Aircell8833? I may not have used your idea in this chapter, but I've written it down in my notes of ideas waiting to be used when the time is right, so it WILL be used, and you WILL be credited for the idea :3

As always, I hope you comment what you thought of this chapter, though if you prefer to be a ghost reader that's fine with me, I'm just happy that you actually like my story, you guys all mean so much to me, stay golden yeah? :)

Credit for the idea of:
- Koda getting beat up and Andy interfering; Goes to: VeiledInBlack
- Andy getting Koda a present and her taking it the wrong way; Goes to: ElodieGrimm

Thank you both for the ideas, once you gave them to me the rest of the chapter just flowed out of my brain on its own.

Ch. Title Credit goes to: Avion Roe - Who I Am

(I deleted the authors note with the new story's summary in it so I'm putting it in the notes for this chapter so those who didn't see it don't get confused by the comments haha)

I'm starting on a new story, I got the idea when I was at my dad's and I want you guy's opinions if you want to give them.

untitled (for now) summary (haven't written the fic yet but this is the gist of it so far):

Andy (the main character) does something terrible (kisses holly -who is going out with jinxx- in a moment of drunken weakness), his friends all but shun him, though they allow him to remain in the group, they are not completely unreasonable. Because of what he did and how much he hates himself for it, andy decides to make himself look 'as ugly on the outside' as he thinks he is on the inside. He does this by starving himself, if he does eat at all its just for show and he more than likely throws it up as soon as he can. He hides it from his friends and family. He meets the alluring Vixen online, falls head over heals for her, they meet and begin a strong unbreakable self-destructive relationship.

So that's all I got, it's confusing I know, what do you guys think of it? Does it sound ok or terrible? Also I want you to know I don't condone self harm or eating disorders, I don't think people who have eating disorders are disgusting, I just want to show another view on why someone can develop one, it's not always because they want to be thinner to look good, there could be some out there who hate how it looks but do it to punish themselves, I just have this thing where I feel the need to show other sides to things some people don't even think about, I don't know I'm weird, anyway, please let me know what you think :3

Oh! and I want you all to know, that I was actually inspired to write this new fic, from a scene in another persons fic that just stuck with me, the fic is called: Someone, Somewhere, it's by Allie12345, it really is an incredible fic, if you like my pathetic little story, then odds are you'd LOVE her's, it makes my story look like it was written by a 5 year old haha