Lily felt herself slowly drifting off to sleep, her eyes kept trying to close but she wanted to keep them open. Andy rubbing his fingers up and down her legs, which he had put in to his lap half way through the first movie-well that wasn’t helping either. They had gotten through the first Batman movie-the original Tim Burton one and now they were almost done with number three. Lily looked at the clock on the wall, sighing as she ran a hand through her hair-nearly 1 am.

People had come and gone, Jinxx and Sammi had even curled up on the other couch and watched some of number two with them, but even they had called it quits. Andy was enthralled by these movies, something that Lily found funny as he had thought they sounded stupid at first. As they sat there, Lily felt her concentration slipping as she looked from the television and trained her eyes on Andy’s face. He had a softness to his face, his cheeks and nose were slightly rounded and his lips were usually curled up into a cute smirk. Those eyes though…God she could get lost in those eyes for days and be perfectly content.


“Is there something on my face?” His voice was low, but it startled her out of her thoughts as Lily jumped and came back to reality. Andy was staring at her, his eyes playful as she felt her cheeks flame red and Lily only cleared her throat and looked back towards the movie.

“I-uh-nope. No, nothing on your face.” No, nothing except perfection.

“You okay Lily? You’ve been kind of jumpy ever since we got home.” Andy said and Lily only smiled over at him, her eyes falling down to his lap. Her legs were stretched out across his and he still insisted on running his fingers up and down her legs, making her shiver slightly. No wonder she was jumpy.

“I’m fine. After this do you want to go to bed?” She asked, yawning to prove her point of the fact that it was late and they both had work in the late morning the next day.

“Yeah, it’s almost over. Can we watch the last one tomorrow night? Please?” He sounded five in that moment and Lily couldn’t help but smile. Her heart fluttered as he trained those baby blues on her and Lily felt something fall in to her stomach.


Shit. Love. She loved Andy. She had known this was coming-she had probably loved him since their first day on Earth. Or maybe it was when he saved her in the alley? Fuck-it didn’t matter. She loved him. Heart stopping, gut wrenching, giggle inducing love. She loved the way he talked. She loved his smile. His hair. His lips. His eyes. She loved how he knew nothing of the world and yet seemed to get so excited when he learned about new things. This wasn’t just puppy love-no. This was full blown, I want to spend the rest of my life with you and grow old together love.

Would Andy ever grow old? He was half Demon, so would he ever get past the age of eighteen? As Lily sat there, biting down on her lower lip, her attention was on anything but the movie. How could she love someone who would never love her back? How could she love someone who had no clue what it was to love anything-let alone a fucked up person like her? She felt like crying in that moment. She wanted to fall apart.
She needed to get to the bathroom.


“Andy? Um-I’m gonna head upstairs and get ready for bed. I’ll see you when you come up.” Lily’s voice was soft as she spoke and Andy paused the movie as he looked over at her. Her eyes were watery looking, like she wanted to cry and he suddenly wondered if he had done something. They seemed to be having a good time, but Andy was never sure if he was doing the right thing with Lily.

“Oh, okay. Well goodnight, I’ll be up as soon as this is over. Have good dreams babe…” It popped out of his mouth before he could do anything about it and Andy only smiled as Lily blushed and moved to get up. Before she could move away from the couch, he grabbed for her wrist, one hand on hers while the other snaked around her waist.


His lips brushed against hers and Lily felt everything in her melt in that moment. His tongue flicked across her lips and Lily smirked as she opened her mouth slightly and soon she found herself sitting on his lap, her arms wrapped around his neck. His hands were all over her, his thumbs running across the skin underneath her shirt and Lily froze. He couldn’t see her scars. He couldn’t see what she was doing to herself. She couldn’t disappoint him like that.

Lily pulled away, kissing him one last time on the mouth before smiling down at him and then walking off towards the stairs. She looked over her shoulder at him and noticed that he had trained his eyes back towards the television, but he held a look of confusion on his face. As Lily climbed the stairs, she felt her heart racing in her chest and her palms were slippery with sweat.

As Lily made her way down the hall of their floor, she couldn’t help but smile to herself. He had called her ‘babe’ and that little fact made what she was about to do seem even worse. She couldn’t stop and as Lily entered the bathroom and locked the door behind her, she felt disgusting and ashamed. How could she love someone like Andy? She couldn’t even love herself and the proof was in the pudding as she reached for her little savior and began her process of getting her nasty feelings out.

She winced in pain as she did what she had to and soon the deed was done and Lily was looking at herself in the mirror. Disgusting. Gross. Stupid. Worthless. Words assaulted her from every direction and Lily felt the tears come to her eyes. Andy would never love her, not because he didn’t know how-he would never want to love someone as broken as she was.


“Lily? Lily are you still in the bathroom?” Andy's voice was muffled by the door, but Lily knew it was him. Just the mere sound of that deep gravelly tone and Lily could feel her knees grow weak.

“Yeah! I’m done though!” Lily said as she rushed around and then popped the door open, a small smile on her lips as she looked up at Andy. He seemed to take her in with some suspicion and she gulped as he reached out and took one of her wrists in his hand. He flipped it over, the hurt in his eyes fading as he saw her perfectly clean wrist-all of her old scars remained that way and he heaved a sigh of relief.

“Can I come in? I need to brush my teeth…” He said, dropping her wrist, but not before he bent down and placed a tiny kiss to her skin. Lily felt light headed as she only nodded and moved to the side so that he could enter the bathroom.


She moved to walk out, her eyes wide and her heart pounding, but suddenly his arm was around her waist and she winced and hissed lowly as the pressure from his arm rubbed against her new wound. Andy spun her around so that she was facing him, only he had moved so that he was sitting down on the toilet lid, his blue eyes hurt as he looked up at her. She only looked down at him innocently, as if to say, ‘can I help you with something sir?’ but she knew that he knew her dirty little secret.

Without asking, Andy placed his fingers on her waist, the tips of them searching for the hem of her shirt and Lily gulped as he finally found it. He lifted her shirt up and then his thumbs began to nudge the top of her shorts out of the way and the look on his face broke her heart.


“Lily…why? I-I thought we talked about this?” He asked and Lily said nothing as she just covered her face with her hands and let the tears fall into her palms. What could she say? She was a fuck up. She was disgusting. She was worthless and stupid.

“I-I…” Lily couldn’t speak, she only cried and she cried even harder when she felt Andy bring her into his lap, her face pressed up against his shoulder. His large hands rubbed her back, his lips pressed against her hair and Lily felt a sense of comfort in that moment.

“Why do you do this to yourself? I-I don’t understand and I probably never will.” He stuttered, unable to form words and Andy found it incredibly frustrating.

“I needed a savior. Something to take me away from my pain…it sounds stupid, I know.” Lily's voice was muffled, but he heard her all the same. Andy thought for a moment and then he reached out, his fingers resting underneath her chin as he moved Lily’s face up until he could look into her lovely lavender eyes.

“I will be your savior then. Any time you hurt or need someone-I’m there. I will always be there.” His voice was serious and Lily only looked at him, her eyes searching his silently.

“I just wish I could love myself and stop hating everything I do…” Lily muttered and Andy said nothing as he ran his fingers through her long hair and then rested them on her shoulders.

“I don’t know how you can’t love yourself Lily. You’re perfect. Funny. Smart. Pretty soon you’ll be able to kick my ass in training. What’s not to love?” He laughed and Lily looked at him hopefully. Was this it? Was this the moment when he confessed his love for her?

“Anyways, I’m gonna brush my teeth. Do you want to stay here while I do that and then we can get into bed together?” Andy asked as Lily sighed and only nodded. Andy moved her off of his lap and soon Lily was watching him shuffle his hips back and forth as he brushed his teeth. She giggled and he looked at her from the mirror, his lips covered in foam as he smirked at her and raised an eyebrow.


Finally Andy had finished brushing his teeth and Lily only stayed where she was as he came to stand in front of her. He held out his hands and Lily placed her small ones in his as she felt herself being lifted up until she was on her feet. He brought her in for another hug, his arms tight around her and Lily felt protected in that moment. Maybe he could be her savior? Silently they both walked out of the bathroom, hand in hand as the moon light danced shadows across the walls and Lily couldn’t help but smile. Having Andy in her life was just like having Brianne back-except he was much better to look at- and Lily knew in that moment that even if Andy never did grow to love her, he would always be her best friend.

The couple climbed into bed, Andy holding out his arms for Lily to cuddle against him and soon they were both laying there silently staring at the ceiling. Andy had his hands on her shoulders, his fingers playing with the strings on the sleeves of her tattered shirt and he couldn’t keep his mind from racing. How could she do that to herself? After everything, how could Lily look at him in the face and lie? He had asked her multiple times if she was still cutting and each time she only laughed it off and said no. By the looks of her hips, it seemed like Lily probably cut at least two or three times a week and Andy felt sick to his stomach. The razor was her savior? Well he would show her what a real savior was-starting tomorrow. Suddenly he smiled as he thought over the movies that they had watched-he really liked Batman and everything that he stood for.


“Hey Lily?” Andy asked in to the darkness, not knowing whether she was even still awake or not.

“Yeah?” Her voice was small sounding in the din of the room and she sounded sad. Andy kissed the top of her head and pulled her closer before he asked her the question that had been burning inside of him ever since he had seen her wounds.

“Can I ask you something?” He asked and felt Lily smile against the bare skin of his chest.

“Sure.” She yawned and Andy knew he would have to make this quick as they were both exhausted and needed to get some sleep.

“Can I be your Batman?” His voice was tiny and Lily only smiled against his skin before she moved so that she could see his face. She didn’t answer him with words. Instead she only smiled in the darkness and pressed her lips against his before falling back down to rest her head on his chest, her ear laying right over his heart.


Andy took that as a yes and he wondered if she could hear his heart beat as she slept. Did she know that his heart was beating for only one person?

Her.

Notes

Foiled again! Things are getting pretty hot and heavy between these two...hopefully Andy doesn't screw it up. But! Lily loves Andy...desperately, but will he ever love her back?

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