Saviour

I’LL NEVER LET YOU DOWN

I wake up the next day around 11 AM to find Valerey sitting up in her bed. She’s looking down at her hands in her lap. I sit still in shock for a moment and then move to her bedside. She still hasn’t looked up.

“Valerey, I’m so glad you’re awake” I say, but she doesn’t respond or move.

“Valerey?” I asked, worried.

She still doesn’t respond, so I hug her. “Valerey, everything’s okay” I whisper to her and she moves to bury her face into my chest and starts crying. I stroke the top of her head gently and whisper the lyrics to Saviour to her.

After the third time singing the lyrics, she’s calmed down. She looks up at me, her eyes filled with worry and fear.

“I’m sorry” She says, almost too quietly for me to hear.

“Don’t be sorry, I knew when I met you that there’d be times like this. I hope this is the last time, but I know it may not be” I say in a soothing tone as I look at her.

“Does Dylen know?” She asks

“Not unless someone else told him.” I say. I’m starting to feel sick; probably from not eating these past few days. Valerey can’t know that though, it might make things worse.

She leans back on her pillow “Good, I want to tell him what happened in person.”

“Well, Warped is over so when they release you we could go to Cincinnati to see him.”

She closes her eyes and smiles. “I love you Jinxx, anyone else would have left me by now…”

“I love you too, Val”

She sits up slightly “Do you remember that dream I had right after Belle died?” She asks

“Yea, why?”

“It kept playing over and over again while I was out. I still can’t help but believe what Annabelle says.” She says the last part quietly like she only meant for herself to hear it.

“Valerey, if she had only been your friend because she felt sorry for you she wouldn’t have gone up to your grandfather, knowing how dangerous he is, to protect you. She wouldn’t have bothered to ask me if I could take you somewhere safe. She wouldn’t have been there for you whenever you needed someone to genuinely care about you.” I say. I can see the tears start in Val’s eyes so I lean over and hug her, petting her hair and rocking back and forth gently.

“I’m really happy that I met you after that concert.” I whisper to her.

“If you hadn’t, there’s no way I wouldn’t be dead by now” She says and I freeze for a moment because I know it’s true.

I move to sit next to her in bed, still holding her. She leans against my chest and slowly drifts to sleep.

“I’ll never let you down; ever” I whisper and she smiles slightly

I smile softly as I look at her. It pains me to think that she could’ve died and that she probably would have had me and the guys not been there for her. I sit there quietly, holding her and wishing I could fall asleep. I sit there for what seems like an hour, but was only a couple minutes, with my eyes closed. I can’t stop thinking about what could have happened had she died. What could have happened had I not met her? What would have happened the day Annabelle died? Would Valerey had run from her grandfather to Annabelle or just completely given up hope?

I can’t think like this. Valerey can’t think that something may be bothering me. I lean over slightly and grab my phone from the table and go to Twitter. There’s nothing much on there, so I text Ella.

--Hey, Val woke up about an hour ago—I send to her

--Really?! That’s great!—I get the response almost immediately

--Yea. She had that dream from when I was first with her.—

--The one with that obnoxious girl and Belle?—

--Yea she said she still can’t help but believe what Belle said—

--What did she say again? I can’t remember—

--That she was only hanging out with Val because she felt sorry for her and that nobody really cared for her—

--Oh yea. You told her that wasn’t true, right—

--Yea, but I don’t know if she even sorta believed me—

--What did she say?—

--She started crying so I said I was happy I met her—

--And—

--She said if I hadn’t she would be dead by now—

--Really?—

--Yea—

--Well since I know she’s awake I could come down there and see her—

--how long would it take you to get here?—

--We’re the next state over, so not very long—

--Okay—

--Did she tell you why she ran off?—

--No and I didn’t ask—

--You really should—

--I know. I will when you get here—

--Alright I’ll be there asap—

--Okay—

With the last message I put my phone back on the table and wrap my arm around Val’s waist. She mumbles in her sleep and snuggles closer to me. I smile and lean back against the pillow. After about four hours, a nurse and Ella come into the room.

“Thank you” Ella says to the nurse. The nurse smiles and walks back to the reception area.

Ella sits in the chair and looks at me. “Did she go back under or is she just asleep?” She asks

“She’s asleep. She has been for about an hour and a half now”

“Okay”

Just as Ella says that, Valerey stirs and wakes up.

“I thought I heard you, El” Valerey says happily

“Hey, babe, I’m glad to see you’re awake” Ella smiles at her

“Why are you here?” Val asks

“’Cause that guy right there texted me” Ella says playfully and points at me. Valerey laughs.

“So why’d you run off?” Ella asks and Valerey hesitates and looks at me.

“I’ll go outside if you need me to” I say and she nods. I smile at her and get up. I walk out the room and close the door, but I can’t help but listen to their conversation.

“I heard Jinxx the night before” I hear Valerey say

“About how he found your parents?”

“Yea, and how him and Andy were gonna see if who Andy found were my parents even though I told him not to.”

“You heard that?”

“Yea…”

“Oh, Hun, he was only going to do it to help you”

“I know, but I don’t want to know if they hate me or not”

“Okay, but if you don’t want him to, you have to tell him that.”

“I know…”

“Can he come back in now?”

“Yea”

“’Kay, I’ll go get him”

After that last sentence I move down to the wall in front of the door of the room next to us. Ella comes out and says I can come back in.

I sit on the side of the bed. And look at Ella questioningly, as if I don’t know what they said to each other.

Ella looked over at Valerey; her eyes urging her to say something.

“Uh, I overheard you, the guys and Ella talking about how you and Andy were still going to find my parents. Jinxx, I don’t want you to; I don’t want to know if they hate me or not, they’ve lived almost 11 years without me, without even talking to me or my grandparents. I don’t want to just pop back into their lives. They left for a reason and if they want to come back they’ll do it themselves.” Valerey says

“Valerey, I’m sorry that I was going to go behind your back to find them, I just thought it might make you happier if you knew, at least, why they left”

“It’s just I-I don’t want to know.”

“I talked to my rep, too. I can stay in the states a few more days” Ella says and Val smiles

“Does Jake know?” I ask

“Yea, he’s the one who told me to ask”

“Great, and while you were asleep, Val, the doctor came in and said so long as nothing happens you can leave tomorrow” I say

“Good, I really don’t want to be here.” Valerey says matter of fact-ly

The three of us sit there and talk for a couple hours and I notice Valerey looks a little tired.

“You tired, babe?” I ask and she nods her head slightly.

“Alright, I’ll tell Jake that I’ve got a hotel room for us. He was supposed to be coming here, but he’s taking for bloody ever! Anyway, see you guys later” Ella says getting up and hugging Valerey.

“Bye, El, will you be here tomorrow?” Valerey asks

“Yea” Ella answers and waves as she exists

I sit on the bed next to Valerey and lean back against the pillow as Val cuddles up to me. She falls asleep almost instantly and I lay there for a few minutes until I finally fall asleep with my arms wrapped around her and a smile on my face. Thank god she finally woke up.

Notes

Finally a new chapter! Sorry this took so long, I seriously got stuck about half way through it. I love you guys so much and remember to always stay strong.