Jinxx wakes me up in the morning.

“I wanna sleep more” I groan

“It’s 4 p.m., you’re getting up and going to the doctor”

“I’m fine. I don’t need a doctor”

“You’ve still got a fever and you’ve slept for more than 20 hours. Valerey, you’re sick”

“Fine, I’ll go to the doctor, but they’re just gonna say nothing’s wrong”

Jinxx drives me to a doctor’s office tells the secretary what’s wrong. He pays the fee and then we sit down and wait.

“I’ve never seen a doctor before…” I say quietly

“Really?”

“I guess I probably went when I was with my parents, but I don’t remember anything from before they left.”

“I’ll be right next to you the entire time, so no need to worry”

“Valerey Novelli” A nurse calls out.

Me and Jinxx get up and walk to her. She leads us into a room and me and Jinxx sit down. She takes my blood pressure and stuff and when she gets to the thermometer she quickly gets a doctor.

“Hi, I’m Dr. Johnson. I was told that you have a severely high fever?”

“It was 102.8 to be exact, Doctor” The nurse says and Jinxx’s eyes go wide.

“I should’ve take--- I hear Jinxx say and I black out.

I wake up 5 hours later in a hospital bed. Oh god, not again…

“Valerey! You’re awake!” Jinxx jumps up from his chair and comes to the bed and kisses me.

“So what did I do to myself this time?” I ask not remembering anything from the doctor’s office.

“You didn’t do anything to yourself. You had a fever of 102 and you passed out.”

“Oh, so is there anything wrong with me?”

“As far as the doctors and nurses can tell, you’re temperature just randomly decided to rise.”

So I was stuck in the hospital for three days as they tried to figure out what was wrong with me. They even made me see a therapist in thoughts that it was a mental issue. It was. I had managed to avoid a panic attack and, in turn, got sick. So now I’m stuck with seeing a therapist every 2 months… Great… We walk out of her office and to Jinxx’s car and I instantly started crying.

“What’s wrong, Val” Jinxx asked kinda shocked.

“I wanted to cry the entire time I was in there. How am I supposed to tell some complete stranger what’s wrong with me? I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I can’t even talk to my heroes and idols without wanting to run away.” I say

“It’s only every two months and you don’t have to talk to her, just show up. Maybe she’ll even put you on some medicine for your anxiety to make it better.” He says, trying to calm me down.

I just stand there crying and he hugs me. “Why don’t we talk about this at home instead of in a parking lot?”

I nod. I manage to calm myself down once we get into his car. I don’t know why I trust him so much, I’ve never really trusted anyone, but I feel like I can tell him anything. When the car stops, we’re at Andy’s house.

“Why are we here?” I ask

“Because, I’m gonna get you comfortable with them one person at a time” he answers

“Jinxx, I can’t…”

“Sure you can. You were fine when you met me”

“That was different”

“How?’

“I don’t know, it just was”

“Well we’re gonna go in there and you’re gonna talk to him. There’s no running away this time”
“Fine”

We walk in and Crow comes over to us. Jinxx yells for Andy and he comes down the stairs.

“Hey” he says all perky

Jinxx kinda elbows me.

‘Hey” I answer and fake a smile

“That was fake. I know it. Your eyes didn’t light up” Andy says kinda fast and I look down.


ANDY’S POV

Valerey greets me and smiles, but it wasn’t real. Jinxx must’ve forced her to come.

“That was fake. I know it. Your eyes didn’t light up” I say

I didn’t mean for it to sound like that… She looks down and I look at Jinxx with a ‘did I do something wrong’ kinda look. He just shrugs his shoulders and rubs her back. I’ve never met anyone this shy. It’s kinda cute. Wait, what am I thinking, she belongs to Jinxx.

“So whatchya guys doing here?” I ask, trying to brighten the mood. It didn’t work.

Just as I say that, Valerey’s phone sends her an alert. She looks at it and smiles. A real smile. Is there something wrong with me?

“Who is it?” Jinxx asks

“Dylen” she replies

“The one from the funeral?”

“Yea” she sighs.

I am so lost…

“So, who’s Dylen?” I ask

“A friend” is all I get as a reply from Valerey

“So is he a good one?” I ask

“Yea, we’ve been texting each other since we met at Belle’s funeral” At least she’s talking to me. I don’t feel all that bad now.

Jinxx looks as if he’s succeeded at something.

“Oh, and Valerey, we’re going on tour in a few days and you’re coming with us” Jinxx says

Valerey looks at him kinda angry and kinda shocked. Was he trying to use me to tell her she’s going on Warped with us? That little asshole…

“I can’t, Jinxx, I don’t know them” She says.

“You know them enough to call them your heroes” Jinxx replies

“Really? We’re your heroes?” I ask

She kinda nods “Your music has kept me alive more than once”

“How so?” I ask and she freezes. I think I went a little too far…

“Well, I’ve had an entire bottle of sleeping pills in my hand more than once and each time I played Saviour on my phone and fell to the floor crying” She answers.

“Why would you ever have wanted to end your life, though?”

“Because of my granddad, my parents, and Heather.”

I look at her confused. She sighs and goes further into detail.

“My granddad used to beat me, my parents left when I was young, and Heather and her little clique used to beat me everyday at school, not to mention the kids who told me I should die and my parents left because I was such a disgrace.”

“Do you believe them?”

“Yea…”

“Don’t. No one should end their own life, there’s no reason to. And your parents probably left for a good reason, not because they didn’t want you.”

“There’s plenty of reason to kill myself, but there’s one reason why I don’t, and what reason would my parents have to leave me?”

“Maybe they couldn’t afford to have a child”

“My family has plenty of money. The only logical reason for them to have left is that they didn’t want me. Also, their last words to me were hateful.”

“What did they say?”

“My mom said ‘Everybody lies, everybody leaves, life is just a game and in the end we’re all losers’ and my dad said something along the lines of ‘You’ll always be in the shadows because of our decision to leave’. They also left on my birthday so I have plenty of reason to think that they hate me” She says kinda angry.

“Alright, I’m sorry, I won’t ask anymore questions about that” I say, hoping she won’t hate me.

“That’s what she told me when I asked why she didn’t trust me” Jinxx says quietly

“What?” I ask

“Everybody lies, everybody leaves, life is just a game and in the end we’re all losers” He answers

“That line is true, though, that’s why I don’t trust anyone. I don’t want to end up hurt.” Valerey says

“Well we gotta go pack for Warped” Jinxx says, changing the subject.

“Alright, see ya” I reply


VALEREY’S POV

I walk to Jinxx’s car with him behind me.

“Why did you make me do that?” I ask when we get in the car.

“You’re talking to him now”

“Yea, but I didn’t want to tell him about my parents”

“You didn’t have to”

“Yes I did. He kept up with the subject so I had to tell him”

“Let’s just go home and go to bed”

“Alright…”

We don’t talk the entire ride home, which I’m happy about. When we get to his house we lay down in bed and I face away from him. He pulls me to him and whisper “I’m sorry, but I had to” into my ear. I turn around and start crying because of my stupid anger. He holds me and I cry myself to sleep.

Notes

Yay! A longer chapter! Anyways, I love you guys so much and thanks for reading! Remember to stay strong through anything and everything.