Saviour

I wake up to Jinxx’s kiss.

“Feeling any better?” Jinxx asks.

“Yea, I guess.”

“Good, because the doctor said you can go home today.”

“You’re not gonna send me to a mental hospital, are you” I said with tears starting in my eyes.

“No” he replies.

Thank god, I wouldn’t have been able to handle myself there. Jinxx stands in the hallway as I get changed into the clothes he brought for me. Of course he’d bring a BVB shirt… I wonder if he’s told the guys yet or if he wants me to tell them.

“Come on, the guys are waiting for ya. I already told them you overdosed.” He says answering my question as if he heard my thoughts.

That means I have to face 4 people I barely know about my depression. I get in Jinxx’s car and we drive off to Andy’s place.

CC, who was the only person I texted after me and Annabelle met them, ran up to me and hugged me tightly.

“Thank god you’re okay” He says as he sets me down

“Yea…” I say

“Please don’t ever do that again, you had us worried” Andy says.

“Why would a bunch of guys be worried about someone they hardly know who overdosed?! That makes no fucking sense!” I yell and run outside crying.

Why did I just do that? They probably hate me for sure now, just like everyone else does… I’m such a fucking idiot!

Just then someone hugs me from behind.

“What just happened in there?” I hear Jinxx ask.

“I – I don’t know… I just, I don’t know how to feel about people caring about me. I’ve never had anyone who’s cared about me, so I guess I just think that they’re joking. I’m sorry; it’s okay if you hate me.” I say quietly through my tears.

“How could I ever hate you? You’re amazing, beautiful, and perfect in every way”

“I’m far from perfect…”

“You’re perfect to me.” He says and I start crying all over again. He pulls me to him and I cry into his chest.

“Let’s go back inside” he said, moving to stand up.

“No, I wanna go home” I said. I sounded so much like a child.

Jinxx sighs. “I guess I’ll go tell the guys I’m taking you home” he said.

I look down at the back of my phone, wondering if I have enough time to make a quick slash. I probably do. I take out the battery of my phone and get my razor out. I go to make a cut when someone grabs my arm.

“Please, Valerey, don’t” I hear Jinxx plead.

Shit… That was a horrible idea.

Jinxx wraps his arms around me and takes the blade from my hand.

“Is it all really bad enough that you have to hurt yourself?” Jinxx asks.

“Even my mind thinks that I need to be dead. Who am I to not listen to what my mind is telling me?”

“Listen to what I’m telling you. I love you so much and I don’t ever want to lose you. I care about you, so why won’t you believe me? You don’t deserve to die.” He says half in tears.

“I’m sorry, Jinxx, I really am, but I don’t trust anyone, not even myself.”

“I know… I just really wish that you’d believe me.”

“Can we please go home? I wanna go to bed…”

“Sure” he says, giving a weak smile.

Notes

Sorry for it being short. I'm kinda having writer's block, but I want to try to update everyday so from now on the chapters will probably be short. Thank you all for reading, it means a lot to me.