Ashley's P.O.V

My brain was going crazy with so many thoughts and questions after the whole trying to get that nurses number ordeal. It's not like that wasn't the first time I've gotten a palm to the face trying to be smooth with the ladies before and don't get me wrong, I love to flirt and fool around but I'm honestly getting pretty tired of it. 'Wait what? That doesn't sound like the Ashley Purdy everyone knows and loves' What the hell is wrong with me? Maybe I should stop being that person and actually settle down, I actually do want to know what love feels like. Everyone else in the group seems to know how that feels, everyone except for Me.

I groaned and sighed in annoyment with my own thoughts. Andy looked at me somewhat concerned and confused.

"Hey man, you okay or is there something wrong?"
"Nah dude, I just have a major headache is all. My brain doesn't know how to shut up."
"Um, okay?." he just answered confused this time.

I sighed and started to head out the door, "I think I'm gonna just go out and walk for a bit, get some fresh air."
"Alright Ash, maybe that'll do you some good, looks like you could use it to clear your head."
"Yeah.." was all I could say as I walked out into the cool breeze.
'I just want to find that special someone to love..' I thought to myself walking down the sidewalk frowning and looking down at the pavement.

Melissa's P.O.V

"O-okay.." I replied nervously to Alex over the phone.
"I just want to let you know, I forgive you."
"Wait, what?" I asked him confused. 'Forgive ME? I didn't do anything wrong..'
"Yeah, I forgive you. I mean, I'm honestly really upset with you that you actually ignored me all day but I love you. I can't stay mad at you, just please learn to listen better."

What the HELL is going on? This boy confuses the absolute shit out of me, he could have anyone, so WHY ME? He referred to me as 'that thing' to his friends and admitted to how ashamed he was of being with me. This is getting out of control, if this doesn't end soon I'm going to go completely mad.

"I need to learn to listen better? Alex, in all honesty, how can you say 'I love you' to someone that you treat with such disrespect and feel embarrassed being with?" I was honestly scared of his answer but at this moment I didn't care anymore.
"Mel look I was just having a bad morning and when I saw you dressed that way it made me jealous thinking about how every guy would practically have their eyes glued to your ass. I didn't mean it, I just let my anger get the best of me."
"Oh really? You seem to let your anger get the best of you every time you're around me. And what Exactly didn't you mean? The part where you mention I'm a whore and a retard, or the part where you mentioned to your friends about how you practically regret ever being with me?"
"Mel-"
"No, Alex! Look, I know you have anger issues and all but you take it above and beyond with me every single time. It hurts, you know. Did you even hear yourself when you were trying to explain why you said those things? You were giving excuses and didn't even mention a single 'I'm sorry' because we both know you're not, you meant it all. And why am I the one who needs to be forgiven? You say the absolute rudest things to the person you claim to love.."

There was a long irritating pause for a while till I heard him sigh.

"Look Mel, I am sorry, please, can I just come over? I miss you.."

I looked at the time, 'Hmm, 10:33'
I sighed, "Alex, I don't think that's a good idea, it's really late and I'm about to go to bed. Plus, I don't think my mom would approve." He sighed back sounding irritated, "Fine, I'll see you tomorrow at school. Bye." And with that, he hung up on me. That honestly pissed me off, I don't understand why he has to give me attitude and act like such a child when I don't give him what he wants. He did that exact same thing when he asked if we could have sex but I told him no that I wasn't ready and wanted to wait.
'Ugh, why can't I just find someone who will actually love me and treat me right? Is that too much to ask for?..'
I groaned and flopped face first into my pillow on my bed, "WHYYYYY?!" I yelled into my pillow knowing it would be muffled so my mom wouldn't have to hear. I'm so damn tired, physically and mentally. I put my iPhone on my speakers and put on Hanging On(the edited one without Tinie Tempah's crap rapping) by Ellie Goulding. Yeah, I have a thing for her too, that and this song is basically defining my life at the moment.

"You know we can get away
Because I'm calling your name
Every day I feel this pain
But you just turn and walk away

I just can't keep hanging on
to you and me
I just don't know what is wrong
with you and me

Touch me and then turn away
And put your hands into the flame
Tell me if you feel this pain
'Cause I don't want to be a ball and chain, nooo

I just can't keep hanging on, to you and me
I just don't know what is wrong, with you and me
I just can't keep hanging on, to you and me
With you and me
With you and me"

'ugh, god damn you and your bullshit Alex..' I was having some serious urges of wanting to feel that blade glide against my skin again but fought it off. I hate knowing that he's the reason I do it in the first place. I sighed, closed my eyes and let Ellie's soothing voice drift me off into a better place, sleep.

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I was laughing like a mad woman, "Hahahaha ashley s-stop it! I-I ca-can't breathe!" I begged while squirming against his tickling grip, I was laying on our bed and he was sitting on top of me so I couldn't escape. I tried to slap his hands away but it was absolutely pointless trying to fight him off. Before he started this, he had told me he wanted to see if he could actually tickle the piss out of me. 'God damn him' I thought to myself. I was still laughing, tears forming beyond this point of his tickle attack, "A-ashley! Please st-stop!"
He looked down at me still continuing with his shenanigans, grinning from ear to ear.
"Ah ah ah! Not until you say 'Ashley Purdy is the sexiest and greatest boyfriend in the whole world"
"Okay okay f-fine! Ash-ashley purdy i-is the sexiest-est and greatest bo-boyfriend in the who-whole world!"
"I know" he proudly said as he finally stopped and gently moved a few strands of hair out of my face smiling down at me.
"What?" I asked returning the smile.
"You, you're just so beautiful and perfect. I am truly the luckiest guy alive." he continued to smile at me as he leaned in and placed a gentle yet passionate kiss on my lips.
"I love you Melissa" he whispered against my lips.
I thought I felt my heart about to jump out through my ribcage, for once I was so completely happy. I smiled at his words and whispered back, "I love you too Ashley, more than you know."
I saw his eyes fly open gleaming with joy as he smiled widely at me.
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I ended up waking myself up the next morning, looking at the time and groaning '6:07, wow, that's the earliest I've ever waken up. And that dream.. It felt so, real, I wish it could have been.. Hah, yeah right. THE Ashley Purdy, Love, ME?! Those 3 will never mix, not with the way he is, it would completely change who he is.'
I rolled out of bed and walked towards my moms room, she was already in the shower getting ready for work. She always leaves her bathroom door open since it's just the two of us.

"Morning momma.." I tiredly said to her shower curtain.
"Goodmorning honey, you're awake early" she sounded surprised.
She peeked out of the shower curtain looking at me worried while I stood there frowning, "You okay sweetie?"
"Yeah, just not feeling too good, could I possibly stay home today, please?"
She hesitated for a minute but nodded, "okay, but only because it's friday." she smiled and disappeared behind the curtain once again.
"Thank you momma."
"You're welcome sweetie, love you."
"Love you too."

I made my way back to my room and laid back down on my bed trying to get back to sleep. My head was spinning, why can't I get that dream out of my head? I laid there for a good few hours trying to figure out what was wrong and how amazing that dream was. There was no point in trying to get back to bed after laying here already for so long, so I sat up and turned my tv on. I got up to put on Mean Girls, one of my favorite movies.
I had decided to check my twitter in the middle of the movie to see if anyone was up to anything this early in the morning. I saw a tweet by Jessica Pitts from Burn Bright that literally made me laugh out loud.

Jess Pitts @itsjesspitts
4 FOR YOU GLENN COCO YOU GO GLENN COCO!

'hahaha oh my god, this is even better since I'm actually watching that movie'
I decided to favorite it and reply.

Melissa @MellyJelly
And none for Gretchen Weiners, bye

I kind of thought that was pointless because she's probably to busy to even notice anyways but oh well, what the hell, right?

I heard my phone go off while I was still watching the movie, I picked it up to see a twitter notification. My eyes grew wide as it said Jessica Pitts had favorited and retweeted my reply saying "OMG YES!"

I had a smile so big plastered on my face that I probably looked like the fucking cheshire cat. 'OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD' I was bouncing on my bed with joy.
'I should've asked to stay home a long time ago.'

Notes

Long chapter yet again lol
Except this time there's some Ashley in it along with jess<3
Hopefully will have the next chapter up tomorrow