Trust Issues (ON HOLD bc I have school)

I woke up and flung out a hand trying to sit up. I heard something fall over then fall to the floor, hitting the side of whatever it was sitting on as it fell. I glanced at the floor and saw I'd knocked over my speaker that had been blaring Savior last night. What time was it? I picked up my phone and saw it was 6:20 exactly. Shit. I was going to Warped Tour with Kashmir today and she was going to be here in 10 minutes so we could start the hour and a half drive there and still get there early. It opened at 11:00. I jumped up and quickly thanked myself for picking out clothes last night. I always wake up late. I threw on my ripped black skinny jeans, Black Veil Brides shirt, and all black high top converse. I made sure my dad's necklace was tucked into my shirt and that my choker was on right. I quickly did a little makeup and no sooner than I was finished Kashmir walked in. "Wow your actually ready for once." She whispered so she didn't wake up Glenda or Evan. They knew I was leaving and wouldn't be back for a few days since I was gonna stay with Kaz at her apartment. "I got up ten minutes ago." I replied as I slung my backpack over my shoulder. It had my clothes, hairbrush, makeup, and charger plus earbuds in it. She had VIP for Bring Me The Horizon while I had VIP for Black Veil Brides. She was of course not happy about me going alone but I promised her I'd be fine. She began playing some heavy ass slipknot and we both sang along.

We finally arrived and she parked. Traffic wasn't bad so it only actually took us forty five minutes to get to Nashville from Dickson. (Yes I am from Tennessee. You bitches better watch out) We realized it was only 7:25 and hardly anyone was here. Kashmir and I shrugged and got out. We weren't the first ones here but we were close. Only fifteen or so people were in line so that was good. We had to wait for fucking ever before they opened the doors but oh well. Kashmir and I went to see Sleeping With Sirens first and it was awesome. I loved their song 'If you can't hang'. After that we saw Bring me The Horizon and Kashmir lost it when Oli winked at her. He smiled at me and I smiled back and he definitely saw me roll my eyes when she started fangirling. Then we saw Motionless in White and Falling in Reverse. Both Chris Motionless and Ronnie Radke looked at me a lot during their shows and I had no idea why. Were my cuts showing? Was my hair fucked up? Was my makeup smeared? Finally we went and saw Black Veil Brides. Kashmir and I knew every song they played and I could see she was slightly unhappy at sending me backstage by myself because she is protective of me so she walked back as far as she could with me but then security led me back the rest of the way. "That your mother?" Asked the guard who I was pretty sure was named Matt. "Hell no! That's my best friend who is pretty much more of a sister than anything but no." I laughed. "Oh. Don't you seem a bit young to be friends with her?" He asked me. "Well actually people treat me as more of an adult than they do her. She's only 17 and im only 12. Plus I've taken care of myself for as long as I can remember. Even when I lived with my mom, if she tried to help me do something I wouldn't let her. I wanted to do it myself." I explained quietly. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to bring up bad memories of anything." He apologized seeing I had gotten quieter. "No its fine really." I told him. "Okay well they are in there. I'll stay out here." He said as he opened the door and talked with them out of my earshot for a bit before leaving the room. CC waltzed right up to me and smiled. "What's your name?" He asked instantly. "I'm Ivey." I replied and he gave me a bear hug. "Shit CC! I can't breath!" I gasped as he let go. "Sorry.." He mumbled. I grinned. "Don't be. By the way, I want to learn to play drums. I think your a badass drummer." I told him making him grin. The rest of the guys approached me and hugged me as we greeted each other. "Nice boobs." Ashley joked and I smacked his chest. "Ashley!" Andy screeched in horror. "She's underage!" I just laughed as Andy scolded Ashley. " I don't care what you say to me! Nice eyes, Ashley." I continued to laugh as I spoke. Ashley smirked but Jake began to talk. "Wow you are one chill person." Jake said in surprise. I snorted. "Well with what I go through, you learn to deal with shit. Also I am probably just as perverted as Ashley. I've probably had just as many one night stands as he has if not more. Don't look at me like that, I've been on my own more than people think." I told him in exasperation. Jake looked shocked. "And your how old...?" He asked. I rolled my eyes. "12" I replied and Jake looked like he was going to faint. "And you have one night stands??" He sounded horrified. "Yea. It's not so bad. At least I don't do drugs. Don't mean I don't drink though." I said with a small laugh. "This kid is badass!" CC exclaimed. "Don't call me kid because I'm not." I told him with a glare. He looked terrified. "Shit! She is scary!" He said. My sleeve went up slightly and revealed some of my fresh wounds. Ashley grabbed my arm. "You cut?" Ashley exclaimed. "Yes I do.. I'm just so alone! I don't really have anyone." I told them as I tried not to cry for the first time in 7 years. Ashley looked genuinely upset and Andy put his hand on my shoulder. "You are such an amazing person. Don't do this to yourself. I can also see you don't eat right either." Andy said with a sigh. Ashley scribbled something on a piece of paper and handed it to me. "I'll always talk if you call." He told me. "Thanks, Ashley." I told him as I gave him a hug. "Are you gonna be at the show tomorrow?" He asked. "Yes I am." I replied. "Good. Here take this pass for you and whoever your with and Matt will let you backstage to watch us then you can hang with us for a while." Ashley said. I took the pass and smiled before I left. Jinxx gave me a hug and Ashley kissed my cheek. I left and sent Ashley a text saying thank you. He replied almost instantly and said 'Your welcome, beautiful' and I blushed. I was actually starting to trust them.

Notes

So I hope you like it and I just hit you guys with a long chapter for once. I'll try to update my other fanfic soon. I haven't had much time for anything recently so yeah. Lemme know what you think. Love you and this bitch is out -Vale