Now Remembered. But For How Long?
I Will Be There
*Jake’s POV*
“GUYS!! WE NEED TO PACK NOW!!” Juni screamed.
“Why do we have to we’re not leaving for another few days.” I got up and sat on the couch.
“Jon texted Andy saying we’re leaving tonight.” Juni jumped onto my lap.
“All of our shit is in the bus. And the bus is already there. We need to fly out.”
“okay then. NEVERMIND. WE JUST NEED TO GO TO THE AIRPORT.”
“WHEN?” Andy yelled from the kitchen
“AT 8:30 TONIGHT.”
“Looks like Trixy will be with us for the tour.” Juni laughed.
“Maybe. Jon might end up flying back to L.A. and dropping Trixy off my house since the bus gets really hot and breaks down.”
“Alrighty then.”
“How’s your arm?” I looked and saw pain clear in Juni’s eyes. I just hugged her and rubbed her shoulder.
“It doesn’t hurt anymore. I just have to be really careful with it and for the next few weeks clean it daily so it doesn’t get infected. Not to mention covering it up.” Juni hung her head and buried it in my chest.
“Junipie, look at me. I know its uncomfortable having people stare at you because you’re different and you have scars. But, it makes up who you are. It proves that you’ve survived your battle and you can tell your story. Be Proud in who you are, Showing every scar as your badge of honor. If it makes you feel any better I’ll wear a shit load of bracelets with you. I love you and I hate seeing you like this. You were even happier with Andy. What happened to that Juni? She’s got to be hiding somewhere inside of you trying to escape.”
“I don’t know Jake. I know we said we didn’t have the same feelings for each other but I think we were just scared of getting too serious and then breaking up and everything just getting way too awkward for everyone and us. Jake, please I don’t want my depression kick backs anymore. I want this to be my last one.” I smiled and squeezed her.
“It’s okay right now. I will be on my toes with you until I can see your back to your normal self. I want the Juni I found, back. Yeah, she was a pain in the ass at first but I knew she loved me. She loved the guys, too. We had to chip away at her wall and help her get better. It was a struggle worth fighting for. Look at everyone here, Juniper. They were all with you when you were in the hospital. We were here when you fell out of Andy’s bunk. We saw you run out when we stopped at a park. We’ve been with you forever. Let’s not change that now.”
“I fucking love you. I love you sooo much that my life depends on it. It’s my lifeline. I don’t know how the fuck I survived 16 years of my life without you.” Juni cried into my chest quietly.
“You had Sammi. She was there in my place. Look, if you ever get nightmares or think that you should’ve died in the crash or in your attempts, I will be there to make sure you’re okay and to remind you that you need to stay here. I can’t see you hurt anymore. It’s getting to me. If I know anything it’s that I love you and everyone in this room wants what’s best for you.” She weakly smiled.
“I promise I’ll do better and try not to be so stubborn when it gets serious. But you want to know something I think?”
“What?”
“I think Mom made Ashley, my guardian angel or something.”
“What makes you say that?”
“He’s saved me twice. He covered for my ass when he called me in the lot. He knew what to do when I first cut and then did it again when I passed out in the lot. Mom made dad call you so Ashley could find me.”
“Mom always made smart choices.”
“I guess she knew that Ashley cares about family more than girls.”
“Of course. He slept with you the whole week waiting for you to wake up. He didn’t say one thing about other girls.”
“You should’ve heard him when I was given a room after surgery. I didn’t know Ashley cared a ton.”
“Ashley’s pretty good at hiding that stuff. But he shows it when the time is right.” I smiled and checked the time. It was 1. Wow, time’s going by slow. I was about to get up and grab Trixy but Juni stopped me.
“don’t move. Just stay.” I sat back down and rubbed Juni’s back. She smiled and shut her eyes. I glanced at her arms every now and then.
Hate and Guilt were faded. Burden was a bit noticeable. Death was wrapped and Love was right above hate. It was more noticeable than the rest. Hate, Love, Death, Guilt, and Burden. Those were all the words that Juni always said. She always felt like a burden, which was not true. She was guilty for mom dying and lying to us about her relapse. She never liked how she was. She hated her looks and hated herself for cutting. She told me that her relapse was because of the flashback of her dying. She said she should be dead and she wishes she was dead sometimes. I just wish Juni was happy again. Then this could all go away.
“Jake, its 3 and we’re hungry. You want anything?” Andy asked.
“Nah I’m good. What I want is for Juni to be better.”
“I know we all do. Rest up for a bit. I’ll wake you up before we leave for the airport.”
“Alright.” I laid my head on Juni’s and continued to rub her back. I napped for an hour and saw everyone was gone. Then I got a text.
Went to the mall. We’ll be back by 6:30. 7 the latest. ~ Jinxx
Alright. Can you just get me some more paint and hairspray. And get lots of advil and bandage stuff and hydrogen peroxide. And some belts and socks. CC keeps taking mine -.-And can you go to the jewelry store and pick something up for me? Ask for JJ and tell her you’re picking
something up for me. ~ Jake Pitts
No problem. What’d you get? ~ Jinxx
Well, Juni ordered the ring you saw online and I got Juni a gift. ~ Jake Pitts
Thank god. I’ll make sure I get it when the girls go into a dress shop. ~ Jinxx
Thanks buddy. I owe you. ~ Jake Pitts
It’s nothing. I’m sure you’d do the same for me. Look I gotta go. Ashley went missing -.- ~ Jinxx
Haha good luck. ~ Jake Pitts
I put my phone away and Juni started shaking and mumbling to stop and get away.
I shook her gently and called her name. She shot up after 10 minutes.
“Are you okay?”
“Nightmare. Dad was…” She trailed off.
“It’s that dream again?”
“Yeah. I fucking hate this. I don’t want to relive the night dad took away the only thing I had left. My virginity was lost.”
“It’s all over. Do you want to go to the park and clear your head?”
“Please. And can we get ice cream after?”
“Whatever you need.” We walked to the park by CC’s and Juni sat on the swing for a bit before she joined me on the top of the monkey bars.
“You ready to go?”
“Yeah. I want ice cream.”
“Sure thing. Rocky Road with rainbow jimmies and whipped cream topped with sugar cone bits on a waffle cone?”
“You remembered.”
“I never forgot.”
“Hot fudge sundae with caramel with Oreo crumbs, waffle cone bits on a sugar cone?”
“Always.” We got to the ice cream shop and ordered. I paid and we walked home, eating our ice cream.
“Jacklepuff, I want some.” Juni opened her mouth. I was almost done so I shoved it in her face. She licked what she could and I licked her face eating the rest. She stuck hers in my face and licked my face once I licked off what I could.
“We are an odd set of siblings.” Juni laughed.
“Junipie, we will never be normal. You’re a twenty two year old who acts seven.”
“I know. And you’re Jake. You do stupid shit all the time. But it makes you special.” She smiled and we walked into CC’s house. It was 6 now.
“Jake can you help me clean my arms?” Juni asked while walking to the bathroom.
“Sure thing.” Juni hopped onto the sink and I grabbed cotton balls, the hydrogen peroxide, gauze, medical tape, and a red athlete’s self adhesive wrap to cover the gauze.
“This might sting.” I took off the bandage on her arm and cleaned all of the words and scars. She slightly flinched when I cleaned up Death. I wrapped it up and put everything away.
“Thanks.” She hugged me and went up into the tree house. The last time I was in here was when I ran away with Sammi.
“It’s still the same as it was when I was last up here.” I said in awe.
“Yeah, CC thought maybe Jinxx could propose here or something. He hasn’t touched anything. I like to come up here and clear my head and watch the clouds.” A comfortable silence filled the air.
“Hey let’s head inside I think their home.”
“Okay.” I jumped down and caught Juni when she jumped. We walked inside and Jinxx and everyone else was back. He handed me my bag and I pulled out the charm anklet I got Juni. She saw it while buying the ring.
“Junipie this is for you.” I handed her the anklet and she opened the box.
“Jake, its perfect.” It had a guitar with my name on it and then an angel wing charm with mom’s name on it.
“Just like you.” I said while hugging her. She hugged back and everyone awed. Juni blushed and I laughed.
“GUYS!! WE NEED TO PACK NOW!!” Juni screamed.
“Why do we have to we’re not leaving for another few days.” I got up and sat on the couch.
“Jon texted Andy saying we’re leaving tonight.” Juni jumped onto my lap.
“All of our shit is in the bus. And the bus is already there. We need to fly out.”
“okay then. NEVERMIND. WE JUST NEED TO GO TO THE AIRPORT.”
“WHEN?” Andy yelled from the kitchen
“AT 8:30 TONIGHT.”
“Looks like Trixy will be with us for the tour.” Juni laughed.
“Maybe. Jon might end up flying back to L.A. and dropping Trixy off my house since the bus gets really hot and breaks down.”
“Alrighty then.”
“How’s your arm?” I looked and saw pain clear in Juni’s eyes. I just hugged her and rubbed her shoulder.
“It doesn’t hurt anymore. I just have to be really careful with it and for the next few weeks clean it daily so it doesn’t get infected. Not to mention covering it up.” Juni hung her head and buried it in my chest.
“Junipie, look at me. I know its uncomfortable having people stare at you because you’re different and you have scars. But, it makes up who you are. It proves that you’ve survived your battle and you can tell your story. Be Proud in who you are, Showing every scar as your badge of honor. If it makes you feel any better I’ll wear a shit load of bracelets with you. I love you and I hate seeing you like this. You were even happier with Andy. What happened to that Juni? She’s got to be hiding somewhere inside of you trying to escape.”
“I don’t know Jake. I know we said we didn’t have the same feelings for each other but I think we were just scared of getting too serious and then breaking up and everything just getting way too awkward for everyone and us. Jake, please I don’t want my depression kick backs anymore. I want this to be my last one.” I smiled and squeezed her.
“It’s okay right now. I will be on my toes with you until I can see your back to your normal self. I want the Juni I found, back. Yeah, she was a pain in the ass at first but I knew she loved me. She loved the guys, too. We had to chip away at her wall and help her get better. It was a struggle worth fighting for. Look at everyone here, Juniper. They were all with you when you were in the hospital. We were here when you fell out of Andy’s bunk. We saw you run out when we stopped at a park. We’ve been with you forever. Let’s not change that now.”
“I fucking love you. I love you sooo much that my life depends on it. It’s my lifeline. I don’t know how the fuck I survived 16 years of my life without you.” Juni cried into my chest quietly.
“You had Sammi. She was there in my place. Look, if you ever get nightmares or think that you should’ve died in the crash or in your attempts, I will be there to make sure you’re okay and to remind you that you need to stay here. I can’t see you hurt anymore. It’s getting to me. If I know anything it’s that I love you and everyone in this room wants what’s best for you.” She weakly smiled.
“I promise I’ll do better and try not to be so stubborn when it gets serious. But you want to know something I think?”
“What?”
“I think Mom made Ashley, my guardian angel or something.”
“What makes you say that?”
“He’s saved me twice. He covered for my ass when he called me in the lot. He knew what to do when I first cut and then did it again when I passed out in the lot. Mom made dad call you so Ashley could find me.”
“Mom always made smart choices.”
“I guess she knew that Ashley cares about family more than girls.”
“Of course. He slept with you the whole week waiting for you to wake up. He didn’t say one thing about other girls.”
“You should’ve heard him when I was given a room after surgery. I didn’t know Ashley cared a ton.”
“Ashley’s pretty good at hiding that stuff. But he shows it when the time is right.” I smiled and checked the time. It was 1. Wow, time’s going by slow. I was about to get up and grab Trixy but Juni stopped me.
“don’t move. Just stay.” I sat back down and rubbed Juni’s back. She smiled and shut her eyes. I glanced at her arms every now and then.
Hate and Guilt were faded. Burden was a bit noticeable. Death was wrapped and Love was right above hate. It was more noticeable than the rest. Hate, Love, Death, Guilt, and Burden. Those were all the words that Juni always said. She always felt like a burden, which was not true. She was guilty for mom dying and lying to us about her relapse. She never liked how she was. She hated her looks and hated herself for cutting. She told me that her relapse was because of the flashback of her dying. She said she should be dead and she wishes she was dead sometimes. I just wish Juni was happy again. Then this could all go away.
“Jake, its 3 and we’re hungry. You want anything?” Andy asked.
“Nah I’m good. What I want is for Juni to be better.”
“I know we all do. Rest up for a bit. I’ll wake you up before we leave for the airport.”
“Alright.” I laid my head on Juni’s and continued to rub her back. I napped for an hour and saw everyone was gone. Then I got a text.
Went to the mall. We’ll be back by 6:30. 7 the latest. ~ Jinxx
Alright. Can you just get me some more paint and hairspray. And get lots of advil and bandage stuff and hydrogen peroxide. And some belts and socks. CC keeps taking mine -.-And can you go to the jewelry store and pick something up for me? Ask for JJ and tell her you’re picking
something up for me. ~ Jake Pitts
No problem. What’d you get? ~ Jinxx
Well, Juni ordered the ring you saw online and I got Juni a gift. ~ Jake Pitts
Thank god. I’ll make sure I get it when the girls go into a dress shop. ~ Jinxx
Thanks buddy. I owe you. ~ Jake Pitts
It’s nothing. I’m sure you’d do the same for me. Look I gotta go. Ashley went missing -.- ~ Jinxx
Haha good luck. ~ Jake Pitts
I put my phone away and Juni started shaking and mumbling to stop and get away.
I shook her gently and called her name. She shot up after 10 minutes.
“Are you okay?”
“Nightmare. Dad was…” She trailed off.
“It’s that dream again?”
“Yeah. I fucking hate this. I don’t want to relive the night dad took away the only thing I had left. My virginity was lost.”
“It’s all over. Do you want to go to the park and clear your head?”
“Please. And can we get ice cream after?”
“Whatever you need.” We walked to the park by CC’s and Juni sat on the swing for a bit before she joined me on the top of the monkey bars.
“You ready to go?”
“Yeah. I want ice cream.”
“Sure thing. Rocky Road with rainbow jimmies and whipped cream topped with sugar cone bits on a waffle cone?”
“You remembered.”
“I never forgot.”
“Hot fudge sundae with caramel with Oreo crumbs, waffle cone bits on a sugar cone?”
“Always.” We got to the ice cream shop and ordered. I paid and we walked home, eating our ice cream.
“Jacklepuff, I want some.” Juni opened her mouth. I was almost done so I shoved it in her face. She licked what she could and I licked her face eating the rest. She stuck hers in my face and licked my face once I licked off what I could.
“We are an odd set of siblings.” Juni laughed.
“Junipie, we will never be normal. You’re a twenty two year old who acts seven.”
“I know. And you’re Jake. You do stupid shit all the time. But it makes you special.” She smiled and we walked into CC’s house. It was 6 now.
“Jake can you help me clean my arms?” Juni asked while walking to the bathroom.
“Sure thing.” Juni hopped onto the sink and I grabbed cotton balls, the hydrogen peroxide, gauze, medical tape, and a red athlete’s self adhesive wrap to cover the gauze.
“This might sting.” I took off the bandage on her arm and cleaned all of the words and scars. She slightly flinched when I cleaned up Death. I wrapped it up and put everything away.
“Thanks.” She hugged me and went up into the tree house. The last time I was in here was when I ran away with Sammi.
“It’s still the same as it was when I was last up here.” I said in awe.
“Yeah, CC thought maybe Jinxx could propose here or something. He hasn’t touched anything. I like to come up here and clear my head and watch the clouds.” A comfortable silence filled the air.
“Hey let’s head inside I think their home.”
“Okay.” I jumped down and caught Juni when she jumped. We walked inside and Jinxx and everyone else was back. He handed me my bag and I pulled out the charm anklet I got Juni. She saw it while buying the ring.
“Junipie this is for you.” I handed her the anklet and she opened the box.
“Jake, its perfect.” It had a guitar with my name on it and then an angel wing charm with mom’s name on it.
“Just like you.” I said while hugging her. She hugged back and everyone awed. Juni blushed and I laughed.
Notes
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9/7/13