Next thing I know I am laying on the floor, trying to breathe again and hearing Anthony screaming: “I am the one to love you! I’ve always loved you! Why are you with all these fuckers!”. I’m just praying for someone to hear him, I clearly need help. His next move is to kick my in the stomach (again) with his feet, and I start to spit blood. I am trying to ask him to stop but only a faint whisper comes out of my throat, and he can’t hear it.
I try to look at his face and see fear in his eyes, he starts to panic and finally runs away. I pass out on the concrete, struggling to breathe.

I wake up to a blinding light, I try to stand up but don’t have the force to. I soon notice the oxygen mask on my face and the tubes in my arm, and then I finally realize I am in an ambulance. I am starting to feel very anxious, I hate hospitals and they are probably taking me there. I try to remove everything from my body but a woman stops me: “You need to keep that, we’re going to take care of you” She tries to reassure me but I am not feeling very well. I can't see anyone I know around this truck. I can’t deal with this, I’m a stranger to these surroundings and I can’t handle not controlling anything.
I need to get out of this goddamn truck.
I know that if I am feeling really bad they’ll have to stop the truck, and maybe I’ll have a chance to escape, but then what? I don’t know Miami and I may be far from the concert hall, so what am I supposed to do?
“Hum excuse me, I think I am feeling a lot better, could you take me back? I try to ask.
- We really have to take you to the hospital, your inner organs may have been damaged and we have to check on that.
- No no I’m fine, please I need to go back there.
- I’m sorry miss, you’ll have to wait for exams first.” I decide to keep my calm and hold as still as I possibly can. I need to overcome this stupid fear.

Soon, we arrive to the hospital and they take me through long white corridors and finally into a big white and cold room. They do a bunch of tests that I can’t understand and I notice the time on the wall : 8:30 pm, the show is starting in 30 minutes and I am probably more than 30 minutes away from them. I am praying to be done as soon as possible.
The doctors leaves me in this big room alone for about 10 minutes, when they come back, they tell me that I was lucky nothing big or bad happened and that I could leave now, they gave me some medicines for the pain and that’s it. Of course, I asked them to take me back but they refused, apparently it’s not their job.
I almost run out of the hospital, or I walk as fast as I can, to hop in the first taxi I see, we’ll see later to pay for it, I am even thinking about not paying at all. I don’t even have the money. I finally find one and tell him to drive me to the Churchill’s pub, he know exactly where it is but tells me it is 30 minutes far. It’s already 8:50 pm, I am going to miss the beginning of the concert. “Just drive as fast as you can, I am already late” I tell him.

When I finally arrive at 9:15 pm, I go directly backstage, running away from the car without paying obviously, I hear loud music playing, I know they already started performing, I am actually a little bit mad that they let me go inside of this ambulance and started the show not knowing where I was. I arrive backstage and see them right in front of me performing, Jake notices me from the corner of his eye and greets me. Andy looks at me and come to hug me in the middle of a song. “Go perform, we’ll talk later” I whisper in his ears, he smiles at me and go back on stage. The energy on stage is a little better since they noticed me, they seem very relieved.
One hour of rock’n’roll passes by and the show is already done. They did amazing tonight, It’s a great start for a tour. I go back to the dressing room while they greet the crowd and thank everyone they have to thank. I sit on one of the couch and notice how painful my stomach actually is. He did really hurt me. I didn’t even think about what happened, I don’t understand how and why. He said he loved me? But, I thought we were just friends this whole time?
The five boys enters the room to interrupt my thinking.
“I was so worried Lena you can’t even understand. Andy starts.
- Why did you let me go alone? I ask.
- Our manager wouldn’t let us go with you, he said that we had to play or the people would leave.
- I woke up in an ambulance not knowing where I was or what happened, that wasn’t a fun experience.
- I know, I know, I am sorry.” Andy kisses my forehead before hugging me tight.
“What happened? Andy found you on the floor outside; Ashley questions.
- Hum.. I don’t really know, I was smoking and a guy arrived and just punched me I guess. I answered.
- Just punched you? I mean why? Who was that, do you have a physical description? He continues.
- He was wearing all black and… I don’t know I did not recognize him, he was pretty tall. That’s all; I didn’t want to say his name, I just didn’t feel like creating any problem. I need to get him out of my mind too. I said I was getting a fresh start. And for some reasons his name just couldn’t get out of my throat; Can we just go back to the bus already? I am tired.” I end up saying. They pack all of their stuff, I grab my bag and off we go. As soon as we put a feet out, so many people are waiting for autographs and pictures. I can’t handle all of this now and decide to walk alone to the bus, which is ten minutes away. After walking a little bit, I see the bus and realize I don’t have the keys to go inside. I sit down beside one of the wheel and wait. I soon realize that standing alone in the dark and outside is probably the worst idea, but I am in too much pain and won’t be able to stand up for so long, so that means no walking back to the boys anyways.
I am starting to stress out, I am actually terrified. What if he comes back to get me and hurt me really bad this time? I am praying hard and trying to stay calm when I hear a sudden noise behind the bus, it sounds like someone is walking towards me. I turn my head right and see him. Again. I’ve never realized how strong he was, and how tall, especially from my angle.
I try to get up but he grabs my shoulder and pushes me against the bus, pressing his body onto mine and forcing me to face him.
“Why are you doing this Anthony? I’m trying to hide my shaky voice and intimidate him, I don’t want him to know I am super scared right now.
- Because I love you Lena, and I want you to love me back and not leave me alone like you just did; I can see tears rolling down his cheeks. I never knew he was feeling that way, he just never told me.
- Let me go or they’ll call the police on you as soon as they arrive.
- Will you ever be mine Lena?
- Let me go, please; I am almost crying too.
- I will never stop loving you.” He grabs my throat and throws me on the ground before running away, just like a few hours earlier. I am not hurt this time, just terrified.
I see the boys arriving and Andy runs at me: “What happened? Why did you leave alone?
- I was not feeling great I could not stay with all these people around me.
- You should have told me!

- I don't know Andy, I don't. You have been asking me to figure my life out when I just lost my mom and founf out that someone has been trying to kill me. Would you just leave me some time for fuck's sake?!" I am almost screaming at the tope of my lungs. "Open this bus" I say. They open the bus and I directly go into my room. I lock the door and cry, cry all of the pain and sadness away. There is not a sound in the bus, they are all quiet, leaving me with the silence I deserved and asked for.

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