You Find Your Hell Is Home

*Ashley's POV*

CC and I were going to head out to work on finding more of the diarys, we decided to hide in Jackie's office for a few days. Jinxx was always looking through her books and files that she had out in the open. He never looked at the one that 203 gave to him. We just know he looked at it before putting it away. Something told me there was more behind that file. We thought it was on Logan but I think it was on someone else or something else. Andy's been doing okay, though he's been sleeping a lot. He freaks out if we go and wake him up so Jinxx told us to let him be for a while.

"Okay, these are the rooms I want you two to go to. I would come with but I need to stay here for a while. He's going to be after me more then anything. 203 will help you guys, just make sure you watch out for each other. He's not happy about Keegan and Ayliana being free. He don't know how we found the files but if we keep going out looking for diarys he's going to catch on. So try and keep moving, get the diarys and move to that next room. Do you both understand? He's not playing anymore. He knows we are go to freeing them..." Jinxx looked at us and I nodded.

"Don't worry, we will make sure to do just that. If we see him we run and don't worry about reading anything, you'll take care of that. I got it." CC smiled and we took the map. He made copies of them so we could burn them or get rid of them so that Logan don't find out the plan, it was weird that all this stuff worked yet, but I think it was because Jackie protected it.

"Good, I marked the rooms that you need to get today. There is 13 left. I need you guys to get at lease 6 of them. In the west hall, where CC and I found Keegan's room. There is 3 more there. Be careful because that is where Logan's area is. He's going to be lurking there. Go to the east hall and there is 3 more rooms. I have them mark and how to get there. Just be really careful. Don't let him get you, and don't fucking let him mess with CC. You know he's really superstitious at times." I just nodded and I looked at CC to see if he was ready. He nodded and we took the bags and map before going out into the unknown that we called it now.

I was looking at the map, we decided to go to the east hall first. I was looking arpund until we got to the room that was marked. When we walked into it, we could tell it was a guys room. I looked around for a name and CC jumped back and behind me. "Damn it, you both scared the hell out of me." He just sighed and 203 giggled.

"This is 100's room, he said his diary is in the night stand." She smiled at us and just looked at CC. "You're really jumpy today, why?"

"Because we have a crazy ass spirit that is going to try and fuck up our lives because he knows we know how to fuck up his." CC just laughed a bit but went for the night stand and pulling it out, and putting it right in the beg. "Jinxx don't want us to reading them. He will take it in his own hands when we get them. He wants us to get about 6 of them but it's going to take him a while depending how much each kid wrote from 1988 to when they died." CC was the one holding the bag for the books. I was reading the map. "Next room should be 12 and after that 8." I headed up the hall.

"I find it really sad that they all died at 13 or younger. I know some maybe older." CC just followed me and the building started shaking some. "Damn it....he must be trying to get into the office."

"Which mean he didn't see us leave this morning. Come on, we need to keep moving." I rushed to the next room and was looking around. I looked up to see 12 looking at me. She point to a hidden spot under her bed where her diary was. I grabbed it and put in the bag before going to the next room. We kept moving the last four diarys that we got were 8, 300, 50 and 10. We were heading back to the office when CC stopped at these double doors. "Are you okay?"

"These are the ones he pushed me through. When I woke up in the wheelchair, he was walking me down this hallway and we ended up here." He was to go touch the door but 203 pulled him away.

"Don't, you know what's back there. Don't let him catch you in his area of this asylum, you won't be coming out of there unless he wants you to. Now go before he comes." The building was shaking again and I could hear someone coming.

"CC we need to go now. He's coming. Run...." I runned back toward the office. I was following the map and I could feel CC right behind me.

"I know there is two of you out here. Come back and we can talk." He sound darker then before. I think Jinxx really pissed him off with freeing them two kids. "Come on, I don't like runners...."

"Fuck, he sounds really close man, listen. Take the bag to Jinxx, he needs thoes. One of us have to be taken, you know that. He's going to be waiting, just keep going....you have to. I'll be fine." We were almost at the office.

"CC, I can't let you, I can take more, he has nothing on me. You, Andy and Jinxx are the wrong people to let him get a hold of you guys. He has nothing on me and Jake. Now take the map and bags and get to Jinxx. NOW! RUN!" I turned my back to CC and looked at Logan. I didn't move and I wasn't going to let him go near CC. "RUN NOW! GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!"

"But...no....Ashley you can't do this." He was freaking out.

"Go. Now. I'll be fine. Jinxx would rather have you then me there. Now go...." I was keeping my eyes on Logan. He was trying to make it around me. "Go...I mean it CC just fucking go!" I looked Logan dead in the eyes. "Logan! Don't you even think about it. I'm not letting you get to him. I know why you want him."

"Damn it..." I heard CC running off and heard a door open and shut. I knew he was safe and I relaxed some. Now my full attention was on Logan. He looked mad and I rather him take it out on me then CC.

"I see, so you're so willing to give yourself up to save him. You know I could do damage to him. I'm sure Andy didn't recover yet." He laughs darkly.

"Just shut the fuck up! I'm not letting you hurt any of them! You fucking have nothing on me you dick!" Before I could hit him, he send me flying against the wall and vines came out of it, wrapping around my arms. They were tighter then the last time. "Fuck...." I just closed my eyes feeling them wrap around me neck.

"You forgot one thing. This is my home, I might not be able to touch them in there but the rest of this place I can control. You might have free two of the kids, but You're not going to win." He pushed a needle into my neck. How can a fucking ghost just do this. We are alive he's not! "Go to sleep.....we have some things to do when you wake up." With that I was out cold.

When I did wake up again, I was sitting in this weird chair and had wires hooked up to me. I seen this control thing and when I heard the zap, I knew it was some kind of shock thing. Fuck, I knew what he was going to fucking do to me. I tried to break free but I couldn't. Soon he appear with this weird thing and put it over my head. Shit, I only seen this stuff in horror movies. I tried to get my hands free but I couldn't. They were held down tightly. Fuck..
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"It's good to see you up, I didn't want to start until you were awake, it wouldn't be fun..." He laughs.

"What are you going to do to me? You have nothing on me." I just looked at him and he just laughed more.

"I'm sure we can talk. I have ways to find out your weakness." He walked over to the control thing. Damn it, I looked around to try and find something.

"Shocking me? Really, you can't come up with anything better?" I just laughed though I really didn't want to get shock. I know what they did, they would shock mental people until there limbs were numb. That's when I felt the first one, I scream in pain and was shaking by the time he turned it off. I couldn't feel anything and it fucking sucked.

"Hm, I think it worked. You shut up didn't you? Maybe I should turn it a little higher..." I heard him turning something and I didn't like what I was hearing. "So you going to talk, or do I just keep going until you give up?"

"Talk to you about what. I really don't know what to say we all have different views." I just screamed again, it was higher then before and I could feel everything just shaking badly in my body. "Fuck!" I closed my eyes tightly.

"Hm, maybe I could try something else with you. Be a good boy, I need to go get something. But before I do that..." He turned it on again and this time I scream and my whole body fell limp, I could see him removing the restrains and I couldn't even move anything. He even got the thing off my head and I was just laying there. He came back with a wheelchair and put me in it. He make sure to strapped me into the thing and pushed me to a different part. Soon I was laying on the bed, in a ER room type thing. I was strapped down again and looked around the room. I was so out of it because of the shock he send through my body. Soon he was in front of me with this two really long pick things.

"W-w-what are you going to d-d-do?" Yeah I was scared shitless right now, I was strapped down to a bed, in a bright room and a mad doctor hanging over me with these pick things. I was freaking the fuck out.

"Oh, you don't want to talk, so we are going to play a game. You talk or end up brain dead." He smirked. "It's your chioce." I was trying to move my head away from him but I couldn't, my body was still numb from the shock. I couldn't feel anything and them things were getting close to my eyes. Fuck, I don't know what he wants to talk about.

"What do you want to talk about???? Past, plans what????" I was trying to move and I couldn't fucking move. Fuck me...this sucks! "Just tell me!"

"Why don't you tell me things about you? Maybe if I get something out of you that I like, I won't do anything really bad but start talking. Because you're going back to them one way or the other." He smirked and I seen the tip right at my eyes. I closed them, but that didn't stop him, I feel the picks pushing there way through my eyelids at the side.

"Damn it! Okay, okay! I live with my grandmother. She's the one that raised me, I was always picked on in school. I didn't have my parents after I was 11. So I learn everything about them from my aunts or uncle or grandparents!" I whimper some as I could feel the tips pushing into the concer of my eyes, it hurt so bad and I was trying to think of things to stop him. "I worked jobs until I had enough money to save up to go to Cali. I did get there but then I did more jobs to put myself through school and even things I'm not too happy about, just to get money. I then started working on my music career and that's why I'm with the guys." He pushed them in more and I screamed as I feel them hit something behind my eyes, I could feel blood starting to run. "I....I lost me parents when I was 11 in a car crash! I use to get into fights with people at school because of living in a small town they use to call me names. Damn it!" I could feel the points somewhat in beside my eyes. It fuck hurt like crazy but he pulled them out. I couldn't see right now, it felt like my eyes were black and blue and force shut from being puffy like.

"Was that so hard? It's funny how you can get things out of someone torturing them. They use to use that on Schizophrenia people. Though I find it to use on anyone." He open my eyes to look, I guess to make sure that he didn't have my eyes messed up but I could feel the blood running down my face. "Don't worry, It will stop, your eyes are fine, I hit the spot behind your eyes but just before I got to your brain. So it's going to be bleeding for a while." I felt him put something over my eyes, before wrapping something around them. I couldn't see anymore, I was useless now. "So you were 11 and lost your parents. You poor child."

"What are you going to do with me?" I felt him moving me and all I could do was see darkness from him having my eyes cover.

"Going for a walk, though was it your fault your parents died? I mean some kids do things and it makes the parents stress out and bad things happen." He laughed a bit, I wanted to hit him but I didn't, he had me where he wanted me. I couldn't see right now.

"I didn't do anything, it just happen! I wasn't even with them!" I know I shouldn't have yell at him but he just laughed more. I don't know what he was up to. I couldn't think, from being shock and things pushed into my eyes. I didn't know where the hell I was.

"But I'm sure it was something for you. Maybe you can think back, I'm sure they went to get you something. Was coming home and something hit their car, killing them both, leaving you a kid with no parents. School must have been so hard. Everyone being able to celebrate mother's day or father's day but you couldn't because your parents were gone." He was loving this, he knew he was getting in side my head.

"Just shut up, I swear if you were real I would knock your teeth down you throat!" He was just laughing more. I was trying to stay calm but I couldn't.

"Poor Ashley, never having parents, watching everyone be happy with their parents. When you just spend time alone. Is that why you drink so much? Why you work on your clothing line? Because you can't get the last thing out of your mind you told your parents before they died?" He was hitting all the right points, he was really getting to me and the tears burn from the side of my eyes getting picks through them.

"I said just shut up........" I was getting really depressed now, I never want to think of my parents.

"Come on Ashley you can talk to me, you'll never get to see them again, they are gone. Out of your reach, you'll never see them again." He just laughed more and I was choking on sobs. I did miss my parents, I wish I had them and I didn't. I was trying to hold everything back but he kept telling me that they were gone. Soon I was wheel out of double doors. I don't know where he was taking me, I couldn't see anything.

"Hey boys, maybe you want your friend back now?" I could hear him laughing. "Aw, don't give me that look. I didn't do anything bad to him. I could have pushed the picks all the way in and cause brain damage but I know how you would react to that Jinxx." Fuck, Jinxx was out of the office. I tried to move and I could. The shock still cut off my movements.

"What the fuck did you do to him???" Jinxx was mad and I know I could here someone next to him.

"Dude, we should just take Ashley and go...it's been two days..." I heard Jake said. Two days? He's been fucking torturing me for that long. What really freaked me out was I felt something on my stomach, like it was cut open and closed again. What the fuck did he do to me while I was asleep?

"You guys can have him back. I'm done with him. Oh, that file 203 gave you, I know it's lock shut. I have the key, but I put it for you to find. Hints are, there is a new opening, and it's always near you." He laughed evilly. "Another hint is, it's going to be messy to get. Oh and the tools to get it can only be found in my area of the asylum unless Jackie has them in the office." He just laughs more. Something told me I wouldn't like this at all.

"Jinxx, go back, I'll get Ashley...." I heard Jake walking over to me and help me out of the wheelchair. He notice I had no feeling and couldn't walk and my stomach was killing me now.
"Jake, stop moving me, it fucking hurts." Logan laughed and I heard him walking away.
"Have fun boys, now you can figure out my little game. Since you seem to like to figure things out." He was gone before Jake could even say anything.

"What hurts?" I felt someone else coming over and helping me, two of them had me.
"What do you mean what hurts? What's wrong with him? And his eyes..." I could hear CC now. Fuck he's going to think all of this is his fault.

"Guys, just get me to the room and let me lay down....I'm begging you, I just want to sleep right now. And my stomach hurts. It's like I was stabbed in it or something." I heard the door open to only shut behind me and I was lay down on my air bed. I could feel them covering me up, I was cold.

"So there is a key to this, where would he have put it?" Jinxx was thinking out loud.

"We have all the diarys, we can start helping the kids move on. And then get the hell out of here." I goan in pain, my stomach really fucking hurt.

"Hang in there Ashley, we will find something for the pain. And I will do it slowly, we still need to find 202's diary and 203's. We can't let her here with him." I feel Jinxx moved over to my side and he slowly started to take off the bandages. "Damn, what did he do to you Ash..."

"He had these pick things, told me that they use to use it on schizophrenia people. It was the only way to deal with them. Don't worry, he didn't go too deep, he just wanted me to tell him about me past." I open my eyes and I could see him looking over me.

"It's good that you're okay, it don't look back, though did he do anything else to you? You been gone for two days." Jinxx was worry I could tell he was and I closed my eyes again. I feel him put something over my eyes, it was like a towel and then ice pack and bandage so it hold and stay on my eyes. It felt good having a ice over my eyes, they really did hurt.

"I don't know, he just did this all to me today. So what he did to me the day before I don't know. I really hope it has nothing to do with what he was talking about. I mean I can't even check because my limbs are numb from the shock treatment. That shit really fucking hurts. You guys have no idea...." I turned my head to the side and was falling asleep. "My stomach hurts so bad right now." I was falling asleep more though I wasn't fully asleep when I felt someone pull back the covers. I could tell it was Andy.

"You said that he gave you hints, that it's a new opening, messy to get to and his tools or Jackie's are the only things to use to get to the key, right?" Andy was pushing down on spots around my stomach. God please don't tell me I'm right.

"Yeah, where are you getting to Andy?" Jinxx don't ask him that please....

Soon I felt someone push on the spot that hurt, I whimper in pain as he push more. "I know Ashley, it hurts. But I think I know where the key is." I felt more push and something move understand the skin, it hurt so back that I whimper and yelp in pain. "Fuck, he's smart Jinxx."
"What are you talking about? Don't tell me...." No shit Jinxx, you know what he's talking about.
"There is a reason why he in pain....the thing is that we don't have the tools or drugs here to get the key." I passed out after he cover me back up. This fucking sucked, why me.

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A/N: I know! I'm so so Sorry what I did to Ashley but it was something that I thought would be good to happen to him. I mean all the others but Jake has a weakness....So I had to. Anyways next chapter coming up soon.

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