You Find Your Hell Is Home

*Jake's POV*

I slowly was waking up, my head hurt like hell and I could hear something like a drill. I went to move my head but Logan stopped me. "If I was you, don't move. I'm shock to see you're awake, though I'm done with you for now, unless you give me a reason to hurt you more." He smirked and I heard the drilling again, I was so out of it, my head hurt too and he moved away from someone. Who ever was next to me, either Andy or Ashley. "Just go back to sleep, if you can't, I'm happy to put you back to sleep. You shouldn't be moving with an open head wound..." He moved to the other side of the room and I heard screaming, it sounded like Andy but I couldn't move to look, when I did it just hurt my head more.

"What are you doing to him?" I know he was doing something to Andy. Them were cries of pain, and torture. "What the fuck are you doing to him?"

Logan laughed and came back into my view. "Nothing much, you know people with schizophrenia, they have a hard time, very hard time trying to figure out what things are real or not real. Right now he's in his own personal hell, and he's not getting out of it until he can realize that it's me causing it or until he begs for it to stop." He just walked away and came back with bandages. "I'll let you and Ashley go, but I'm keeping Andy for a while. He needs to learn his place. This is my home, and I won't let any of you try and run it. You can tell Jinxx that. And if he has a problem with it, tell him to come see me and I'll put him in his place too." He just wrapped up my head. I tried to move but I was strapped down to a bed.

"You have to learn not to mind Andy, his anger gets ahead of him. He regrets flipping out, but still can't stop it when he does. Anything you do to him, will make him hate you more. He will flip out on you more too." I moved my head to the side and seen Ashley out cold yet. What freak me out was the hole at the side of his head and blood on the pillow. "Ashley...."

"Don't worry, after I'm done fucking with Andy's mind, we will see if he regrets pissing me off. I'll let you all go for now. I'm sure you can see them now, the children. Though, you really should go back to sleep, with a head wound you need as much sleep as you can get." He took out the needle and I tried to moved away but my body refused to listen to me. "Sleep Jake. You both will wake up with Jinxx and Christian." He smirked. "And I mean it, Andy's not coming back right a way. He stays until I think he had enough. Watching his friends die, or making it look like he's having his mouth sew shut or even having his tongue cut/ripped out." He had a evil laugh this time. "It just fucking great to push Schizophrenia people to the limits. I promise he'll watch his mouth around me more." He took the needle and pushed it into my neck and injected whatever the stuff was in it. "I know you four are going to be in pain, but at lease you get to see what your friend sees now. You don't have to be left out." After that everything went dark.
I started waking up again and I heard talking, a few voices. I open my eyes and sit up slowly before looking over at the voices, I seen the guys, all of them but Andy and a girl. She looked at me and smile softly. "Jinxx, he's up...." This must have been 203.

"I'm so glad to see you up, do you know anything about Andy???" I thought to myself, yeah I did know what was going on with Andy.

"He's not giving him back just yet. He said he's keeping Andy with him until he thinks that he learn his place. He didn't say how long, just until he thinks it's okay to return him." I looked down. "He's fucking with his schizophrenia, I'll be shock if we even get the same Andy we know back."

"Damn it!" Jinxx just got up and was peacing the tent, it's a good thing it's so big.

"Jinxx, you know your friend Andy, he's strong. He'll be okay, we need to work on your plan. I know your friend is in trouble but you're not going to be able to help him. Logan loves schizophrenia, there was 8 out of the 15 that had the same thing." 203 got up and put her hand on Jinxx's shoulder, he looked at her. It seem to calm him down, to think this was the ghost that scared the hell out of him for days. "He will be okay, Logan wants you to react bad, it gives him a right to use force against you...you know what he did in your dreams, I know what he did."

"Thank you...." He smiles softly before picking up the map. "Jake, Ashley...are you two okay with going with or want to stay here?"

"I'm coming with, it don't hurt that much and it's best that we all go, just in case he lets Andy go. One of us could always come back with him." Ashley got up and was walking out of the tent.

"If that happens, I'm going with you Ashley, it's going to take two of us to calm him down. You know how he gets when he's not on his medicine...." CC was right about that, the one concert proved that and he went into the crowd to beat the shit out of this guy that pissed him off. Good thing that CC was there, he calm him down. Ashely and I just froze.

"What about you Jake?" Jinxx was looking at me and I nodded and getting up.

"You know I'll come with you, can't have you going off alone. And if they have to bring Andy back here, someone needs to stay with you. Though, how long was I out for?" When I seen him frown, something told me I wouldn't like the answer.

"You been out for a week, Andy's been missing for a week. Ashley woke up 2 days later after we found you both in the same hall as CC. I guess we all have different side a effects to what he drugs us with when he put us asleep. I'm so worry about Andy. A week of torture or more. He's not going to be himself...." Jinxx just kept walking as I follow him. 203 was right behind us following.
We walked around, looking for different things. We wanted to go get Andy but only knew that would be taking Jinxx right to Logan. We walked around until we found another room to a different kid. I looked on the map, it belong to 39. We walked into the room and found out that it was a girl that was here. She had black clothes all over the place and even dresses. Though her diary was easy to find, it seem that she was writing in it, and then dragged away. The last time she wrote in it was 2000, two years before the asylum was closed down. Jinxx picked it up and started reading some of it. Soon there was a girl in the doorway. 203 smiled and walked over to her and looked at us.

"This is 39, don't worry, she's really shy, even in death she is. But she's a nice person!" 203 smiled more.

"Why have you been so happy lately?" Jinxx looked at her and 203 eyes widen before looking down.

"I'm just really happy, I'm sorry your friends are getting hurt, I'm sorry that one of them are being torture right now. I never wanted them, any of you to come here. But I'm happy that you all are getting farther then anyone else. No one ever thought about checking the nurse station. It use to be Jamie's, she was the only one allow to know or work with Logan. She is the one that took care of the kids when he push them to their limits. But once she was able to get out, she kept everyone away from this place. You are the only group that didn't stop." She just looks at us.
"We had no chioce to come though. Logan told us all that he would kill me if we didn't come." Jinxx just frowns. "Now we are trapped and can't even get out of here. Like I told you, if we find out who all of you were before he messed up your minds. You all need to promise to help me, help us...." She just frown and nods.

"I understand, the others will help too. I know they will." She looked over at 39 and she nodded going to open her mouth to talk though sighed because she forget that she had no tongue. "She said she will help, she wants to be with her family again. They all do. Logan had their families come in to meet them and when he was having 'dinner' with them he poison them, they went home and died that night they had 'dinner'. That's why you were chase off. Their families had kids and their lives ripped from them. They didn't know you guys were there to help, they thought you all were just snooping." It explained a lot.

"But they told us that the families just disappear. Like what happen to the younger kids and the bodies of the adults. If they were killed then how did they go missing and people not known they were killed." CC just looked at her, he would be one to ask that. "I don't mind helping you, none of us do, but if you know things, we need to share information with each other. We found out about 121, now we have the diary of 39. Do you know where he would keep the files?"
"Dr. Logan had a lot of friends on the outside. He thought this would be the best place for him, the middle of the woods, where no one couldn't get to it other then the way you guys came in. No one would hear the screams or even come looking for a mass grave. He through their bodies in there and took the little children and left them to die with their already dead family members. The cries and screaming were painful to hear of small children." We all looked at her in fear.

"Mass grave? What the hell are you talking about??? Who is all bury there?" Ashley was freaking out a bit.

"Families, doctors, nurses, anyone that tried to find out what he was doing or tried to stop him. Which leaves the kid who got away safe with their family. All the kids are bury there too. It's why the cops came, because the families dissappear, there were staff that didn't come home and when I was kidnapped. It lead to this place. Dr Jackie was the main doctor, they tried to blame her but she didn't get in trouble because there was no proof she was the one doing it. She was also the only one that was against Dr. Logan coming here. She looked into his file and it was nothing good about it." She headed something to Jinxx. "It's the only file I could find. It was in Dr. Jackie's office. She hid things there. Maybe it will help you all understand things. Everything is in there, it's the only other safe place in the hospital." She pointed down the hall. "It's down there to the left." She point on the map and Dr. Jackie office popped up on it.
Jinxx was back to reading and he frown. "Well this goes back the same date, 1988, just a different month. It ends on 2000..." He put the file away from now that 203 handed him, guess he was going to read it later. Something told me it was Logan's file.

"Everyone was brought in here at 1988, but me. It wasn't until 2002 he got me and it was only a week...the cops came soon after." She just looked at Jinxx and listen to him read the main parts like he did.

"Let see, in 1988, 39 thought it was time for her to start living a normal life. When she use to get mad, she use to be able to break lights in the house and it scared her parents a lot. In 1992, Dr Jackie came to her, was trying to help her understand why no one liked her in her family. Jackie told her that she had a gift, strong enegry that would react to her mood. When she was angry, people got hurt and it scared her parents. Jackie was helping her and because she was bipolar, it wasn't easy for her. In 1996, she was in the office talking to Jackie about how she was able to move things with her mind. Jackie is the one that told her she should start writing in this. That is also the time that Logan walked into her office. She could tell that Jackie didn't like him one bit but was being nice." Jinxx just looked up at 39. "You were friends with 202?" We all looked at her, it was the kid that got out.

"She was, and no, she not telling you who that kid was. No one knew the kids name. They kept it hidden. Only Dr. Jackie knew, and that is probably locked up in her office some where." 203 was just looking down. No one wanted to tell us who 202 was.

"Anyways, she ended up becoming friends with 202, the only person that could help her keep calm. In 1997, she went to go talk to Jackie about hearing the screams of other people. When she was walking, Logan stopped her and smiled down at her. He wanted her to come with him and she refused and ran to Jackie." Jinxx closed his eyes before opening them and going on. "In 1999, there were 14 kids that Logan took away from Jackie's care. Her and 202 were the only ones that Jackie treated and when she did, the two of them stay together. 202 was protected of her. While they were talking. Logan stormed into the office saying he wanted both of them. Jackie told him that every kid that went under his care turn for the worse or disappeared. She was the only one that was on to him. That he was doing bad things to them. He told her that he will get both of them. After he left the room, she called 202's parents saying that she was signing release paper for their kid that if the kid stay, their life would be in danger. The parents were there in no time to take their kid out of the asylum, she never seen 202 again. 2000, Logan became her doctor, he cut out her tongue the first night, known that she was trouble. And because he didn't get 202 like he wanted, he took everything out on her. She will never blame 202, but she died soon after because the last date was Dec. 9th 2000. And she writes, this is the end for me, at least 202 is safe." Jinxx frown and I could tell it hurt him somewhat.

"So that means all the kids must have this energy that he wanted. They could do things other people couldn't, see things others couldn't. Something a evil spirit could stuck up and become stronger." CC eyes widen. "What if Logan's been a ghost the whole time??? I mean he needed that enegry to make him stronger, killing the kids will explain why he picked them!"

"Fuck, so he wants Jinxx more then just to take over...he knows he's a medium, power is everything to this guy." Ashley just looked over at Jinxx who was sitting on the bed shaking.
"Man, we aren't going to let anything happen to you. We are all here, Andy will be here too once we get him back. You can't give up, we need to help the spirits here. He's using them to stay strong." I walked over to him and put my hand on his shoulder, he looked up at me. "You have to stay strong, if it comes to a point that it gets bad, we can see and hear them now too. We can look for the clues alone. You need to rest up man." I smiles at him.

"It's why we are so week, he feeds off the souls of the dead, it makes him stronger because when he killed them, he connected their souls to his. And you are right CC, Logan has always been a spirit. It's why Jackie didn't like him. She seen right through him." 39 nodded and goes to open her mouth again but stops and looks at 203. "She said they all knew he wasn't real, but because he picks mediums and kids with gifts of strong enegry, he can live like a human can. He told the kids all his stories as he slowly killed them." She looked around and soon both of them disappeared. They only did this when Logan came around, they didn't want to be seen helping us.

"Oh here is where you all are. Snooping around 39's room. Tell me, you find something interesting out yet." He smirked and walked toward Jinxx, though I didn't back away, I stay close to him and Logan just looked at me and laughed. "I see, so you all know something more don't you. Tell me Jinxx, what did you find out this time."

"I know why you wanted them now. It's because they were mediums or had energy to make you stronger. You were never alive, even in 1996 when you came here, you were never alive. Jackie seen through you too." Jinxx looked him in the eyes and Logan laughed more.

"That is right, I died in the 1800s, when the asylum was builded. I was one of the first doctors to ever work in this place. But that's also when I got away with torturing the mental health people. We didn't know how to deal with them so we just tortured them into getting better, it made most of them brain dead." He just shrugs and looking around at us. We wonder where Andy was, I did anyways. "Though, one of the people that I had, he had really bad bipolar and he got up and stabbed me over 10 times. They found me dead on the floor. Though I wasn't about ready to give up my career, I took the life of that person and used others that started to dead from being brain dead. There were others that did what I did. Seen the asylum was closed down in 1900. Back then it use to be called Fort Dodge Asylum. Then Jackie came, I was hiding for years because it was a new age. She wanted to fix it up, never found my area, but she fix up the rooms, everything. She wanted a place for the mental health kids to be safe. She put a play ground in that back, and even cut down trees to give this place light, that it wasn't so dark. It was a really nice place, different then when I started working here. This place reopen 1970, was renamed Saint Helens Asylum to hide the past of Fort Dodge Asylum. No one never put two and two together. This place was a nice place. But I didn't want it to be like this. All them gifted children, with so much enegry. It wasn't until 1996 that I was able to show myself again. Feeding off of the enegry of mediums and gifted mental health kids with out them known. When I did come, Jackie was the only one to see right through me. But that didn't stop me from getting my hands on the kids. I used them to make me stronger." He smirks. "Don't think you can protect Jinxx forever, if I really wanted him. I could take him." With that he was gone.

"Jinxx, let us deal with this, you go back, in case he lets Andy go. Wait for him there, we will go to Jackie's office." Ashley was trying to get Jinxx to go to the tent.

"No! You can't let him go back alone. That's what Dr. Logan is waiting for." 203 showed up again. "Jackie's office is safe, remember, she was on to him, meaning she had charms like the ones your tent has up."

"Wait, the person that helped us in town...." Jinxx was on his feet and looking at her.

"Yeah, they are what is left of Jackie's family. She was a medium too. When the place closed down because of me. Jackie came back to talk to us, but I was trapped and couldn't talk to her, couldn't warn her what he was going to do. Logan greeted her instead, and that fast, he killed her. Told her that she might be a medium but she was weak." 203 looked down. "He took her soul and pulled it into himself, it's why he's so human right now. He only needs one more medium and he will be back, fully. That's what he's planning to do with Jinxx. But he can't weaken him enough to do so, because he has me and all of you..."

"So I shouldn't even be out right now, should I?" We were all just letting Jinxx and her talk.
"You shouldn't have came here. Jamie told Andy that you guys should just turn around, that you should just stay out of that house and go home! You have no idea how much trouble your life is in Jinxx!" She was getting really mad, we didn't understand why. "You are a fucking stupid boy! I tried scaring you, I tried making you run in fear and you're still fucking here! And it's not thanks to these guys! Logan got you where he wants to Jinxx, them charms are to protect you, the only thing that CAN PROTECT YOU NOW! God, I wish you would remember things! We all do! Just get to Jackie's office or the tent and fucking stay there!" She was gone, something really upset her.

"Jinxx?" Ashley was worry about him.

"Let get to the office. I'll stay there, that way I can go through everything. If Jackie was a medium. She has a lot of things in there that can help me find who I really am and what I can do. Will you all be okay by yourself? I can help with anything I can, from there." He smiled. "I'm not letting him take me, and if I'm ever at my breaking point let me know...snap me out of it."
"You know that we will always be there." As we were walking out of the room, Logan showed up and pushed Andy right into my arms before just smirking.

"I'm done with him, it was fun playing. Though I think he will think twice before pissing me off again." I could feel Andy shaking. I don't know if it was fear or that he was pissed off that a ghost got the best of him. He was just shaking though.

"Fuck you...." Andy said in the shakey voice and I help him stand.

"Come on guys, let get Andy back." We all follow Jinxx and I could tell that Logan was watching us. Something told me he didn't want us in that office. When we were almost there, when Jinxx open the door. I moved fast and pulled him and Andy and the other two into the office and pulled it shut and turning to face Logan alone.

"I see, you're a smart one too. Jackie always made sure to protect herself from me. When I came in there demending to have 39 and 202. She put of them charms so I couldn't come into the office anymore. All the files are in there, the only ones that can get in there is the kids but they are all useless. Can't find the files at all..." He just looked me dead in the eyes. "You might not have health issues, but don't take me likely because I'm not afraid to hurt you. Humans are weak creatures...all I need to do is break you...." He disappeared and I went into the room with the others.

When I got in, I could see that it was the only part of the asylum that looked nice and peaceful. There was lights on and it was really bright in the room. The I looked and could see the sun. So this was the only part that he couldn't get too. When I looked out the window, I could see the playground too. None of this was touch, Jackie wanted people to have a good life and help, not be torture. I looked around the room, Jinxx was looking on the desk, Andy was laying on one of them weird sofa bed things, he didn't looke so good, as for the others all of them were sitting down waiting for Jinxx to tell us what the next move was. This was better then the tent. I thought about moving the beds and food into here. We could tell when it was day time or night time again.

"I need you guys to get our stuff from the tent. We are making this our place to stay." Jinxx was just looking at a picture, confused but like he seen the person before. "I think this is the best place for us. The files are in here too, hidden...but I know how to get to them. We need the diarys...." He pulled out 39's diary and lay it on the desk, he looked in the back of the new diary, I seen there was a long number in the back with the letter 'AI' and he typed it in the computer that worked and it came up with the name 'Ayliana Ivy'. "I found out who 39 is. Ayliana Ivy, the girl's family that chased us from their house. She was put in here to get help to control her bipolar, Jackie was known as a great medium that could reach out to the soul and help kids that needed the help that no one else could help with. Ayliana was able to control it and the enegry she had. Guys, if we find all of them, we can help these kids." He looked up. "203, I found the files! 39 is name Ayliana Ivy, she was 13 when she died, but she was getting better in Jackie's care. Her family came to get her out, but Logan made it sound like she got worse. She was never worse! She was getting better! Ayliana was in good health and was very loved by her family...."

"Good, that means she can be free now. You hear that Ayliana? You can go home....he don't have a hold on you." When she said that, the whole building started to shake as we heard a anger scream and we knew who it was. He was not going to be happy. "He's not happy, Ayliana is free now...she can help and is not afraid. I knew you could do it Jinxx!" She smiled happily.

"You're not mad at me anymore?" He looked at her.

"I'm sorry, I want to know who I am, but I don't have a diary...." She frown.

"Don't worry, I'll look on this computer, and see if Jackie had something. I'm sure she did. I think it was her who called the cops." He looked at all of us "Get 121's diary from the tent, long with the food and our things. This is our new place to stay. And please be careful guys. I'm messing with fire right now, and he's not going to be happy. Ayliana is free but there is still 14 others...." We all nodded and moved to get everything at the tent and bring it back to the office. Logan almost grabbed me, but I shut the door before he could. This guy was not playing anymore. If we wanted to find the other diarys, it was going to be dangerous because after this, two of 15 kids were safe from him, he could never hurt their souls again.

We found out 121's name was Keegan Jolon, he was part of a rich family and his mom hated him. She would put him to his breaking points and he had depression really bad because of it. His mom pushed him into almost killing himself when his sister was born. She send him to this place to get him away from her new daughter. Jackie help him realize that it's the different ones that make the world a better place. He had visions too, he seen his sister growing up to be someone big, that only caused his mom to be afraid of him more. She force them to keep him here, but his father always loved him, wanted his son back. It wasn't until they found out about his death that they lost the most important person in their life. Even his mom was heart broken because he was gone now. They tried to sue the asylum, but it failed because Logan had them killed. It was enough to free him from Logan's grip though. Keegan went with his family as Ayliana did. It's funny how people start listening when your gone. Sadly, there were 13 more diarys to find and one pissed off ghost inbetween us and finding them.

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A/N: I know a lot of details, but there is a rest behind it. Though with two spirits free, Logan isn't playing nice anymore.

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