Andley: I Love You More Than I Can Ever Scream
Chapter Eight: If You Can't Hang
I stumbled in late that night, drunker than I had intended. I was mucking about with Jinxx and Jake, making stupid jokes that weren't funny, and I could barely walk straight. After a few moments of tripping and falling, I made it into the bunk room and stripped down to my boxers. Quickly, I pulled the curtain to Ashley's bunk back a bit, gave him a sloppy kiss on his forehead and climbed into my own bunk. I was going to have the worst hangover tomorrow...
~Next morning~
I was right about the hangover; my head was absolutely killing me. I climbed out of bed and wearily headed into the kitchen, where I got a glass of water and some aspirin. As I sat there on the sofa, nursing a killer headache, Ashes walked in. For a second I started to wonder why he wasn't hurting, then I remember; him and CC went home early. Weird. Ashley was normally one of the partiers, drinking all night. Maybe something was bothering him? I don't know, my head was pounding too much for me to think.
"Hey." He smiled at me, and I winced. "Sorry." He mumbled. I just smiled at him weakly, showing he didn't need to apologize. It was my own fault for getting that hammered. "How are you?" He asked, genuine concern in his voice. He sat beside me on the sofa, and I rested my head on his chest. I though I felt him tense up, but I was just imagining things, surely?
"I'll be alright when the aspirin kicks in." I closed my eyes and we just sat there for about half an hour, not saying anything, just in each others company. It was quite nice, actually, despite the headache. I always loved spending time with Ashes, it just made me feel special.
"You feeling better?" I pulled away slightly and looked up at him.
"Yeah, worst hangover I've had in awhile." He just chuckled lightly, but something about the way he laughed just didn't seem genuine. He started fidgeting a bit, looking awkward and on edge.
"Are you alright?" I pulled away further to get a better look at him. His honey brown eyes looked scared, nervous.
"Andy, I...I need to tell you something."
"You can tell me anything." He gulped.
"I...well...last night," he began "something...happened?" Now I was scared. Was he alright? Had someone hurt him?!
"What...what do you mean?"
"Well, me and CC were just outside chatting...and...and..." He started tearing up. I was so scared now, what had happened? I pulled him into my arms and started shushing him, stroking his raven black hair in an attempt to comfort him.
"What is it, Ashes?" He hesitated for a few seconds then confessed:
"Me and CC...kissed..." He pulled away, looking into my eyes, he looked like he thought I was going to hit him or something.
"You...you what?!" I could feel the anger boiling inside of me. I couldn't believe it, how could he do this to me?! I would have done anything for him, I would have given my life, my soul, my all for him. And he did this? Was our love really that worthless to him.
"I'm so sorry Andy. I really am! I can't believe I did it. I was drunk, but I know that's no excuse. Please..." He was crying, tears pouring down his face. I could feel tears start to spill over and trickle down my face as well.
"Please what?! Please forgive you? Please ignore the fact that you're a stupid, worthless man-whore who can't even love?!" I was so angry, I was so hurt, I couldn't control it and the minute I said the words I regretted them. He just stared at me, the hurt in his eyes made me want to cry even more. "No, Ashes, sorry I didn't mean it. Can we talk about this?" But too late, he ran out of the bus and into the streets.
The tears started to flow faster now. The hurt of what he'd done to me, and the guilt of how I'd reacted. Everything had seemed so perfect last night, and everything went so horrifically wrong. I stood up, about to go after Ashley when the door into the main living area was swung open. CC. I saw red.
"Morning, Andy-" Whack! I slapped him straight across the face. I stood there, just staring at him for a second before rushing our into the streets to try and find Ashley. Oh God, I hope he doesn't do anything stupid...
Title: Lyrics from Sleeping With Sirens: If You Can't Hang (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S5xzsaJb8go)
~Next morning~
I was right about the hangover; my head was absolutely killing me. I climbed out of bed and wearily headed into the kitchen, where I got a glass of water and some aspirin. As I sat there on the sofa, nursing a killer headache, Ashes walked in. For a second I started to wonder why he wasn't hurting, then I remember; him and CC went home early. Weird. Ashley was normally one of the partiers, drinking all night. Maybe something was bothering him? I don't know, my head was pounding too much for me to think.
"Hey." He smiled at me, and I winced. "Sorry." He mumbled. I just smiled at him weakly, showing he didn't need to apologize. It was my own fault for getting that hammered. "How are you?" He asked, genuine concern in his voice. He sat beside me on the sofa, and I rested my head on his chest. I though I felt him tense up, but I was just imagining things, surely?
"I'll be alright when the aspirin kicks in." I closed my eyes and we just sat there for about half an hour, not saying anything, just in each others company. It was quite nice, actually, despite the headache. I always loved spending time with Ashes, it just made me feel special.
"You feeling better?" I pulled away slightly and looked up at him.
"Yeah, worst hangover I've had in awhile." He just chuckled lightly, but something about the way he laughed just didn't seem genuine. He started fidgeting a bit, looking awkward and on edge.
"Are you alright?" I pulled away further to get a better look at him. His honey brown eyes looked scared, nervous.
"Andy, I...I need to tell you something."
"You can tell me anything." He gulped.
"I...well...last night," he began "something...happened?" Now I was scared. Was he alright? Had someone hurt him?!
"What...what do you mean?"
"Well, me and CC were just outside chatting...and...and..." He started tearing up. I was so scared now, what had happened? I pulled him into my arms and started shushing him, stroking his raven black hair in an attempt to comfort him.
"What is it, Ashes?" He hesitated for a few seconds then confessed:
"Me and CC...kissed..." He pulled away, looking into my eyes, he looked like he thought I was going to hit him or something.
"You...you what?!" I could feel the anger boiling inside of me. I couldn't believe it, how could he do this to me?! I would have done anything for him, I would have given my life, my soul, my all for him. And he did this? Was our love really that worthless to him.
"I'm so sorry Andy. I really am! I can't believe I did it. I was drunk, but I know that's no excuse. Please..." He was crying, tears pouring down his face. I could feel tears start to spill over and trickle down my face as well.
"Please what?! Please forgive you? Please ignore the fact that you're a stupid, worthless man-whore who can't even love?!" I was so angry, I was so hurt, I couldn't control it and the minute I said the words I regretted them. He just stared at me, the hurt in his eyes made me want to cry even more. "No, Ashes, sorry I didn't mean it. Can we talk about this?" But too late, he ran out of the bus and into the streets.
The tears started to flow faster now. The hurt of what he'd done to me, and the guilt of how I'd reacted. Everything had seemed so perfect last night, and everything went so horrifically wrong. I stood up, about to go after Ashley when the door into the main living area was swung open. CC. I saw red.
"Morning, Andy-" Whack! I slapped him straight across the face. I stood there, just staring at him for a second before rushing our into the streets to try and find Ashley. Oh God, I hope he doesn't do anything stupid...
Title: Lyrics from Sleeping With Sirens: If You Can't Hang (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S5xzsaJb8go)
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