Jenn’s POV

The ground was wet and cold, my body shivering trying to keep warm. This is it, this is where I die, finally. I let darkness engulf my body, I was falling into the black hole that was my nonexistent soul. I had finally gone to the place that I belonged to, the place that I deserved.

Only to be brought back to the world that hated me by warm, caring, gentle arms. Someone picked me up, why?

I tried and tried to open my eyes but they were so heavy I only caught a glimpse of the spiky haired guardian.

“Wake up” What? “Wake up. Wake up. ! Wake up!” I opened my eyes, and Ronnie and Alex were peering in my face. I quickly brought my hands to me ears. Why is the music so loud? The music quickly got shut off. I could feel my face was hot and wet.

“What happened” I asked to soon, all of my nightmare came back to me. I relived it all again. Why? What did I do to deserve this? I looked to Ronnie, then Alex and broke down in tears again, grabbing my side. Ronnie pulled me into his arms.

“Shhh, it’s okay. It was only a dream”

“Your wrong it wasn’t a dream. It was real, it actually happened” I pulled away from Ronnie and made my way towards the bathroom, Alex grabbed my arm to stop me but I yanked it away

“I just need to be alone for awhile. I’ll be fine, promise” will I be okay? I quickly shut the bathroom door, and stood in front of the mirror. I slowly turned away and took of my shirt, then my shorts. I closed my eyes and faced the mirror head on. After a few deep breaths I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the horrific image that was my body. The body I always cover up with high waist shorts, long shirts. I never show my hips or stomach, all to hide the one thing that will always connect me to my past.

I traced my finger over the scars from the stab wounds that my father left me with, then I slowly traced over the words he had carved into my hip, so that I could never forget him. I traced the D-A-D-D-Y-S P-R-I-N-C-E-S-S
I squeezed my eyes shut, only allowing a single tear escape down my cheek. I quickly redressed and made my way to bed, falling into a dreamless sleep

Ronnie’s POV

Shit this is not good! I’m supposed to leave tomorrow for the banquet. I suppose I could bring Jenn with me but I don’t really want her around Tom he’s kinda creepy when it comes to girls her age. Shit I don’t know what I’m gonna do.

“Hey Alex, tomorrow I have to leave for a few days” I say quietly while closing the door that leads to the bunks where Jennifer is now sleeping.

“The charity thing right? You know she won’t be to happy about it”

“Yeah, but I can’t take her with me, It want her to be far away from creepy Tom” Man this is such shit timing “Do you think you could help her just until I get back?”

“Of course, I was going to anyways. I’m getting a bad feeling. Her flashbacks have gotten more intense, before our last job they came almost every week but they were short, I know she had one on the day we met you at the airport but I don’t know how long that one was. For a while I thought maybe this tour was good for her because she hadn’t had one all the way up to now, but this one. This one was bad, I’ve never seen her have one this long. I think something is coming up. We need to be ready for when it does happen”

“Do you think it could have something to do with Cincinnati?”

“God I hope not” Alex said leaving the bus with a beer in hand. I run my hand through my hair. Fuck! I grab a beer for myself before heading over to the BVB bus, I should probably explain a little bit about what happen.

“I wonder if their off stage yet” I say to myself looking down at my phone. Holy shit! Their set ended an hour ago. I ran the rest of the way to the bus. I caught my breath before walking onto the bus. The second Andy saw me he shot straight up with the most saddening worried face I’ve ever seen.

“Hey, Andy, buddy I need your help real quick” I say before walking back off the bus waiting outside for Andy

“Ronnie. What the fuck happened” Andy didn’t wait one second. The second he was out of earshot of the others

“Well you know about her ex boyfriend right” He nodded his head “Well you see, besides that. Her past is really fucked up, a lot of things happened to her. But I’m not going to tell you what happened, that’s her decision if she wants you to know or not. I just want to know if I can trust you to keep an eye out on her for me. I have to leave tour for a few day, me and the rest of the band promised Tom that we would play a show in his charity banquet and well the timing couldn’t be worst. I have to leave tomorrow and I can’t take the girls with me”

“Wait you're leaving? Right after what happened?”

“I kinda need to. Andy would it be okay if the girls moved on the bus with you guys?”

“I don’t see why not. But what if what happened today happens when your gone?”

“Don’t worry about it, she doesn’t normally have flashbacks so close together. If she does end up having another just move her somewhere you two can be alone, and get Alex she’ll know what to do. I’ll bring the girls over tomorrow morning before I leave, thank you Andy” I said before turning to walk away only to see Jenn standing behind me

“Y-you're leaving me?” She sounded so hurt, it broke my heart. She had tears in her eyes. I could tell she was trying so hard to hold them back. I reach out my hand to her

“Babygir-”

“DON’T” she shoved my hand way and ran off. Fuck what is she doing up. Great now I have to go find her, I turn to Andy

“Come help me find her”

Jenn’s POV

I woke up in my bunk with my whole body feeling sore. My head felt like my brain was pounding against my skull. I stood up and made my way to the fridge getting a water. After getting my water I ravaged through the cabinets looking for the aspirin. Fuck, why can’t I find it. I sighed in frustration

“Whatcha lookin for sweet thing” I turned around to see Ryan sitting on the couch watching me, creep

“I can’t find the aspirin, my head is killing me” I winned going back into the cabinet. Not much longer I see an arm reach over me into the cabinet and come back out with the bottle of aspirin. Of course it was in a high place I can’t see. God damn these short legs.

“Sounds like you’ve got a massive hangover” Ryan chuckled “You know what’s good for hangovers?”

“What” I said snatching the bottle out of his hands

“Me” I choked on the pills I was trying to swallow, water getting all over me

“Yeah, keep dreaming big boy” I said patting him not the chest looking for a towel to dry my
self off “Hey, do you know where Ronnie is?”

“Oh you mean after he locked us off the bus for almost two hours. He’s over at the BVB bus” Two hours? Was it really that long my flashbacks never last that long, normally about twenty minutes, but two hours?

“Thank you” I ran off the bus. I need to talk to Ronnie, I have a really bad feeling. Something is going to happen, and It scares me. It scares me so much. I’m only one bus away from the BVB bus and I can see Ronnie and Andy talking outside it. I can barely make out what their saying. I turn one ear to them

“I’ll bring the girls over tomorrow morning before I leave” H-he’s leaving. He’s leaving me, after promising he’ll always be here for me when I need him. I slowly walked up to him just when he turned around I was right behind him

“Y-you’re leaving me” I can feel the tears begin to build up. He reach his hand out to me

“Babygir-”

“DON”T” I shoved him away from me and ran as fast as I could. How could he lie to me. How could he. I was running not paying any attention to where I was going when I ran into someone causing me to crash down to the ground, scraping my knees. Fuck

“Hey are you okay?” I looked up and saw Kellin, Vic, and Chris standing over me, all three extending their hands out to me

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