Becoming unbroken
Chapter 20
(Lola's POV)
After we get to Andy's apartment, both go to the bathroom, and he cleans up a bit because his apartment has gotten messier, Andy and I start to watch Batman. He had pulled me onto his lap like the last two times but without the deathgrip. The movie ended at about 10:45. I got off his lap turned off the tv only to be picked up by Andy, carrying me bridal style, and ran into his bedroom.
"Don't worry Lola, batman is here to keep you safe." He declares before setting me on his bed.
"Oh batman," I giggle, "how could I ever repay you?"
"batman is a superhero and doesn't need to be payed." He says, and sits down next to me on the bed.
"Then Andy... how should I repay you?" I whisper before climbing onto his lap. I slowly start to kiss his neck, along his collar bone, then to his jawline. He stops me and places his lips on mine, kissing until I gently nibble on his bottom lip, he opens his mouth just enough for me to slip my tongue in. He begins to take off my shirts, I do the same with him, we have to break the kiss for a moment to get the shirts over our heads. We start making out again and Andy's hands reach to unhook my bra. I pull away for a second, "Andy do you want to take pictures again?"
"Whatever you want baby." He smiles and pokes my nose.
"I need to practice modeling for tomorrow. And maybe it will help get Ashley's phone out of your mind." I get up and grab both our phones. Then slide back under the covers with him.
He kisses me quickly and says,"tomorrow you are just the model, so if its ok I'll take the pictures." Andy takes his phone and kisses me while taking pictures. We press out noses together and look deep into each others eyes, he takes a picture. I stick my tongue out at him and he takes a picture before putting his tongue against mine. He takes a picture before I can pull away.
"What were you doing?"
"I've seen people do it before, I thought I would try it. I agree it's weird." He says blushing.
I lick his face and poke his nose. We start taking silly selfies again. Until he buries his face into my neck and kisses it while taking a picture. I hide my face in his chest next and he takes another picture. He starts to take off my bra, sliding off the straps and unhooking the back. He takes a picture quickly but before he can again I smash my lips into his, urgently. He dropped his phone in surprise on the bed and wrapped his arms around my back. My hands running through his hair. Gently I slid them down to his back and was rubbing them allover there. He had his hands all over my body, exploring every inch of exposed skin. He was fingering the buttons on my jeans and undid the zipper, I felt the cold air hit my legs for a second but only to be banished by our body heat. I quickly took off his sweatpants soon after. We were able to get them off without breaking the kiss this time because neither of us were wearing super skinny jeans. I started to play with the waistband of his boxers, then moved on. His hands had slid down to where my underwear was, but kept going to my thighs. I put my hands to his hipbones and stopped rubbing them for a second. I slowly grabbed the waistband of his boxers and slid them off. I felt his hands slide up to my underwear line. Andy slowly pulled them off of me. He pulled me closer and broke our kiss whispering "beautiful." Then bent his head down to my stomach and kissed it lightly. I kissed him again but pulled away. I looked into his eyes, thinking for a moment, those contemplating voices were coming back again.
'No.'
'Yes. You love him. Show it.'
'You're not ready.'
I pushed them away thinking,'yes I am.'
Andy looked at me curiously, before widening his eyes and whispered, "did I go to far?"
I looked directly into his eyes, my voice full of confidence. "No. Andy I've decided I don't want to be a virgin anymore."
Andy stared at me for a few painful seconds of thinking before asking, "are you sure?"
I put my forehead against his and whispered. "Yes. I've never been so sure of anything in my life."
I pushed my lips against his and.... (you know what happens after this... ;) (AUTHORS NOTE: sorry for this but I'm not comfortable with describing it...)
*******
I lay with my head against Andy's chest, our breathing had slowed down and is now in sync. I look up at him and whisper, "I love you Andy."
I haven't said those three words in a very long time. I rarely say them because they have been thrown around meaninglessly so much that eventually, you don't know whether they are genuine or not. I never told Erik a full 'I love you.' Only 'love you' or 'I love ya'. But right now I am sure that, even after just a few short days, I am truly in love with Andrew Biersack.
He looks down at me with loving eyes and whispers, "I love you too Lola. I love you so fucking much." We soon fall asleep to the sound of our steady breathing and each others life giving heartbeats.
(Morning.)
I wake up still laying my head on Andy's chest. I find my phone and read the text from Sammi about the photoshoot.
Sammi: Lola, I need you to be at my house by 10:45. It's going to be in our backyard so we don't have to drive anywhere. Make sure you look presentable;)
I look at the bedside clock. Right now it's 9:45. I have an hour.
"Andy," I cooed seeing him stir. "Andy baby, I have to get going."
He opens his eyes and smiles at me, leaning down and pecking my lips. "Aww. I wish you didn't have to." We sit up in bed and look at each other and start giggling. Clearly we both remembered last night at the same time. "Andy, I'm so glad that we did it last night."
"me too." He leans down and quickly kisses me again. "You are definitely the best I have ever been with. I love you so much Lola." He kisses me again then adds, "now go get ready! You have a big day ahead of you!"
I climb out of bed with Andy right behind me. I feel his hand lightly slap my butt. I roll my eyes and giggle.
"Sorry, had too, you're just too cute-wait hot..-no wait sexy. Gahh! I can't find the words." I laugh at his struggle and start getting dressed into my clothes I brought over. He helped with my bra again. He pulled my Of Mice And Men shirt over my head. Then says to me, "we need to get you some bvb shirts.."
I chuckle at his comment and pull my half solid black, half black & white vertical striped jeans on, then slipping my feet into my solid black vans. Andy is dressed now and grabs my phone off the bed. He starts messing with it and I go to get us some breakfast. After making us some toast, I walk back in and take my phone from Andy. He pouts and looks at me eagerly as I unlock the phone. The lock screen is still of him making a heart shape, the background is now a picstitch of three pictures of us from the past few times we have taken pictures. The first is one of us kissing from the first night. One Andy took. The second is from in my bedroom, us making funny faces. The last one is the one of our tongues touching from last night. I have to admit it did look kind of cute. I grab Andy's phone and change his background to one of us kissing, then get up and walk towards the door. It's already 10:15 and I want to be early. "Come on, I need to go." I say sweetly as he gets up from where he is sitting watching me..
"Ok." He kisses me quickly and we get to the car. He pulls me into a long passionate kiss before pulling out of the parking lot. He holds my hand the whole way to Sammi's, even though I'm sweating buckets. Luckily my anxiety hasn't become a problem so I'm still pretty calm.
"You are going to do great today! I wish I could stay but I have to help Jinxx with some guitar stuff." He says as we pull up.
"Thanks Andy." I hop out of the car as Jinxx walks out of the house.
"Sammi says I distract her so I have to leave." He tells me pouting, before getting into Andy's car. I head inside to find a huge setup of makeup and hair products. To the right of all this is a large rack of clothes. Sammi sees me and runs up to me squealing. "Yay! Your here! Ciara is going to help you get through all this since its your first time." She motions toward a tall girl that has walked up next to her.
"Are you Lola?"
"Yes. Are you Ciara?"
"Ya. Lets go get you ready. We're going to start with makeup, not that you need much." She starts walking to a section of the long table, it has a chair that I sit down in. In about 15 minutes she is done. The rest of the models are still being done up. She put light blue eyeshadow around my aqua eyes, making them appear a brighter blue. She put on enough mascara to make my lashes look real but fake, and added some purple mascara to my bottom ones. I had on clear lipgloss on my already pink lips.
"I love your hair color! And the purple and blue are so cool. I've never seen anyone have hair like yours." She exclaims while starting on my hair. She just straightened it and styled my bangs so that they were perfect. "Wow." Ciara says. "Ok, your just going to be wearing this black and white sundress. I need to help you change into it so that your makeup and hair don't get messed up." The dress she is holding is a 50's style halter that puffs out on my ribs. It has some tulle underneath it near the bottom. She carefully takes off my top making sure to not let it touch my hair after I slip off my pants. She starts giggling and points at my lower neck. "Woah. You get some action last night?"
I look to where she was pointing. I didn't realize andy had given me a large hickey right at the start of my neck. I started majorly blushing and she kept giggling. After she helped me into the dress she pulled me back over to the makeup counter. "Don't worry, I can fix that." She puts a green stick over it to cancel out the redness, then adding some concealer and foundation. "All done." She says quietly. It's gone! "Thanks!" I say embarrassed.
"no problem! I have to say, you are definitely the prettiest model here." She hugs me quickly and goes to find Sammi. I look in the mirror for a while. This dress fit me perfectly. The black and white flower pattern contrasted with my pale skin. I looked amazing.
I heard Sammi squeal behind me and saw her reflection in the mirror run up to me.
"Lola, you look amazing! Your the first one done so you get to go first!" She grabbed my hand and pulled me outside. The shoot was just set on the green grass in the middle of her lawn. Sammi told me to just act like I was having fun and messing around. I picked up the edges of the dress and did a little curtesy. Then I spun around, looking at the ground with my arms in a parallel angel to the dresses skirt. I messed around a little more before asking if I can sit in the grass. The company owner said it was fine as long as I didn't ruin the dress. I plopped down and looked up at the sky. Then I tucked my legs that were bent beside me under the dress. Still looking up I bent my knees underneath me pulling the dress so that it would cover my legs. Sammi got right over me and took a few pictures.
"Lola, I think we've got plenty!" She says after pausing to look through the photos. "What did I tell you, you're a natural!" She showed a few to the company owner who agreed. I went to go get the dress off and get back into normal clothes. Afterwards I went into my room and texted andy.
Lola: heyy. I'm done.. :)
Andy: how did the shoot go?
Lola: it was amazing! They really liked me:)
Andy: I've got to go :( I'm coming over there in a hour though. Sammi won't let us stay because we're distracting. Right now I'm at Ashley's and cc just broke something-.-
Lola: that serves ash right!
Andy: yep! I have to help clean it up. Bye! xxxx<3
Lola: bye!<3
After we get to Andy's apartment, both go to the bathroom, and he cleans up a bit because his apartment has gotten messier, Andy and I start to watch Batman. He had pulled me onto his lap like the last two times but without the deathgrip. The movie ended at about 10:45. I got off his lap turned off the tv only to be picked up by Andy, carrying me bridal style, and ran into his bedroom.
"Don't worry Lola, batman is here to keep you safe." He declares before setting me on his bed.
"Oh batman," I giggle, "how could I ever repay you?"
"batman is a superhero and doesn't need to be payed." He says, and sits down next to me on the bed.
"Then Andy... how should I repay you?" I whisper before climbing onto his lap. I slowly start to kiss his neck, along his collar bone, then to his jawline. He stops me and places his lips on mine, kissing until I gently nibble on his bottom lip, he opens his mouth just enough for me to slip my tongue in. He begins to take off my shirts, I do the same with him, we have to break the kiss for a moment to get the shirts over our heads. We start making out again and Andy's hands reach to unhook my bra. I pull away for a second, "Andy do you want to take pictures again?"
"Whatever you want baby." He smiles and pokes my nose.
"I need to practice modeling for tomorrow. And maybe it will help get Ashley's phone out of your mind." I get up and grab both our phones. Then slide back under the covers with him.
He kisses me quickly and says,"tomorrow you are just the model, so if its ok I'll take the pictures." Andy takes his phone and kisses me while taking pictures. We press out noses together and look deep into each others eyes, he takes a picture. I stick my tongue out at him and he takes a picture before putting his tongue against mine. He takes a picture before I can pull away.
"What were you doing?"
"I've seen people do it before, I thought I would try it. I agree it's weird." He says blushing.
I lick his face and poke his nose. We start taking silly selfies again. Until he buries his face into my neck and kisses it while taking a picture. I hide my face in his chest next and he takes another picture. He starts to take off my bra, sliding off the straps and unhooking the back. He takes a picture quickly but before he can again I smash my lips into his, urgently. He dropped his phone in surprise on the bed and wrapped his arms around my back. My hands running through his hair. Gently I slid them down to his back and was rubbing them allover there. He had his hands all over my body, exploring every inch of exposed skin. He was fingering the buttons on my jeans and undid the zipper, I felt the cold air hit my legs for a second but only to be banished by our body heat. I quickly took off his sweatpants soon after. We were able to get them off without breaking the kiss this time because neither of us were wearing super skinny jeans. I started to play with the waistband of his boxers, then moved on. His hands had slid down to where my underwear was, but kept going to my thighs. I put my hands to his hipbones and stopped rubbing them for a second. I slowly grabbed the waistband of his boxers and slid them off. I felt his hands slide up to my underwear line. Andy slowly pulled them off of me. He pulled me closer and broke our kiss whispering "beautiful." Then bent his head down to my stomach and kissed it lightly. I kissed him again but pulled away. I looked into his eyes, thinking for a moment, those contemplating voices were coming back again.
'No.'
'Yes. You love him. Show it.'
'You're not ready.'
I pushed them away thinking,'yes I am.'
Andy looked at me curiously, before widening his eyes and whispered, "did I go to far?"
I looked directly into his eyes, my voice full of confidence. "No. Andy I've decided I don't want to be a virgin anymore."
Andy stared at me for a few painful seconds of thinking before asking, "are you sure?"
I put my forehead against his and whispered. "Yes. I've never been so sure of anything in my life."
I pushed my lips against his and.... (you know what happens after this... ;) (AUTHORS NOTE: sorry for this but I'm not comfortable with describing it...)
*******
I lay with my head against Andy's chest, our breathing had slowed down and is now in sync. I look up at him and whisper, "I love you Andy."
I haven't said those three words in a very long time. I rarely say them because they have been thrown around meaninglessly so much that eventually, you don't know whether they are genuine or not. I never told Erik a full 'I love you.' Only 'love you' or 'I love ya'. But right now I am sure that, even after just a few short days, I am truly in love with Andrew Biersack.
He looks down at me with loving eyes and whispers, "I love you too Lola. I love you so fucking much." We soon fall asleep to the sound of our steady breathing and each others life giving heartbeats.
(Morning.)
I wake up still laying my head on Andy's chest. I find my phone and read the text from Sammi about the photoshoot.
Sammi: Lola, I need you to be at my house by 10:45. It's going to be in our backyard so we don't have to drive anywhere. Make sure you look presentable;)
I look at the bedside clock. Right now it's 9:45. I have an hour.
"Andy," I cooed seeing him stir. "Andy baby, I have to get going."
He opens his eyes and smiles at me, leaning down and pecking my lips. "Aww. I wish you didn't have to." We sit up in bed and look at each other and start giggling. Clearly we both remembered last night at the same time. "Andy, I'm so glad that we did it last night."
"me too." He leans down and quickly kisses me again. "You are definitely the best I have ever been with. I love you so much Lola." He kisses me again then adds, "now go get ready! You have a big day ahead of you!"
I climb out of bed with Andy right behind me. I feel his hand lightly slap my butt. I roll my eyes and giggle.
"Sorry, had too, you're just too cute-wait hot..-no wait sexy. Gahh! I can't find the words." I laugh at his struggle and start getting dressed into my clothes I brought over. He helped with my bra again. He pulled my Of Mice And Men shirt over my head. Then says to me, "we need to get you some bvb shirts.."
I chuckle at his comment and pull my half solid black, half black & white vertical striped jeans on, then slipping my feet into my solid black vans. Andy is dressed now and grabs my phone off the bed. He starts messing with it and I go to get us some breakfast. After making us some toast, I walk back in and take my phone from Andy. He pouts and looks at me eagerly as I unlock the phone. The lock screen is still of him making a heart shape, the background is now a picstitch of three pictures of us from the past few times we have taken pictures. The first is one of us kissing from the first night. One Andy took. The second is from in my bedroom, us making funny faces. The last one is the one of our tongues touching from last night. I have to admit it did look kind of cute. I grab Andy's phone and change his background to one of us kissing, then get up and walk towards the door. It's already 10:15 and I want to be early. "Come on, I need to go." I say sweetly as he gets up from where he is sitting watching me..
"Ok." He kisses me quickly and we get to the car. He pulls me into a long passionate kiss before pulling out of the parking lot. He holds my hand the whole way to Sammi's, even though I'm sweating buckets. Luckily my anxiety hasn't become a problem so I'm still pretty calm.
"You are going to do great today! I wish I could stay but I have to help Jinxx with some guitar stuff." He says as we pull up.
"Thanks Andy." I hop out of the car as Jinxx walks out of the house.
"Sammi says I distract her so I have to leave." He tells me pouting, before getting into Andy's car. I head inside to find a huge setup of makeup and hair products. To the right of all this is a large rack of clothes. Sammi sees me and runs up to me squealing. "Yay! Your here! Ciara is going to help you get through all this since its your first time." She motions toward a tall girl that has walked up next to her.
"Are you Lola?"
"Yes. Are you Ciara?"
"Ya. Lets go get you ready. We're going to start with makeup, not that you need much." She starts walking to a section of the long table, it has a chair that I sit down in. In about 15 minutes she is done. The rest of the models are still being done up. She put light blue eyeshadow around my aqua eyes, making them appear a brighter blue. She put on enough mascara to make my lashes look real but fake, and added some purple mascara to my bottom ones. I had on clear lipgloss on my already pink lips.
"I love your hair color! And the purple and blue are so cool. I've never seen anyone have hair like yours." She exclaims while starting on my hair. She just straightened it and styled my bangs so that they were perfect. "Wow." Ciara says. "Ok, your just going to be wearing this black and white sundress. I need to help you change into it so that your makeup and hair don't get messed up." The dress she is holding is a 50's style halter that puffs out on my ribs. It has some tulle underneath it near the bottom. She carefully takes off my top making sure to not let it touch my hair after I slip off my pants. She starts giggling and points at my lower neck. "Woah. You get some action last night?"
I look to where she was pointing. I didn't realize andy had given me a large hickey right at the start of my neck. I started majorly blushing and she kept giggling. After she helped me into the dress she pulled me back over to the makeup counter. "Don't worry, I can fix that." She puts a green stick over it to cancel out the redness, then adding some concealer and foundation. "All done." She says quietly. It's gone! "Thanks!" I say embarrassed.
"no problem! I have to say, you are definitely the prettiest model here." She hugs me quickly and goes to find Sammi. I look in the mirror for a while. This dress fit me perfectly. The black and white flower pattern contrasted with my pale skin. I looked amazing.
I heard Sammi squeal behind me and saw her reflection in the mirror run up to me.
"Lola, you look amazing! Your the first one done so you get to go first!" She grabbed my hand and pulled me outside. The shoot was just set on the green grass in the middle of her lawn. Sammi told me to just act like I was having fun and messing around. I picked up the edges of the dress and did a little curtesy. Then I spun around, looking at the ground with my arms in a parallel angel to the dresses skirt. I messed around a little more before asking if I can sit in the grass. The company owner said it was fine as long as I didn't ruin the dress. I plopped down and looked up at the sky. Then I tucked my legs that were bent beside me under the dress. Still looking up I bent my knees underneath me pulling the dress so that it would cover my legs. Sammi got right over me and took a few pictures.
"Lola, I think we've got plenty!" She says after pausing to look through the photos. "What did I tell you, you're a natural!" She showed a few to the company owner who agreed. I went to go get the dress off and get back into normal clothes. Afterwards I went into my room and texted andy.
Lola: heyy. I'm done.. :)
Andy: how did the shoot go?
Lola: it was amazing! They really liked me:)
Andy: I've got to go :( I'm coming over there in a hour though. Sammi won't let us stay because we're distracting. Right now I'm at Ashley's and cc just broke something-.-
Lola: that serves ash right!
Andy: yep! I have to help clean it up. Bye! xxxx<3
Lola: bye!<3
Notes
So it's morning somewhere..:) sorry. I told myself I wouldn't put in the cliche things like batman and pizza.. That didn't work. I'm putting the next chapter up in about 3hrs or more.THANKS FOR READING!!! Almost 2,000 reads! Thanks for all the comments, votes and subscribing!
I got dirty looks today at the mall because I was wearing a bvb shirt. :( just saying...:( oh and I really like the next chapter. It's pretty long and it has alot about twitter on it so I hope that won't get annoying. I'm excited to put it up later! *sing Song voice* "Lola lost her virginity!"
-C
@MoanaBVB
Thank you! I do recognize that parts you left me broken are pretty offensive and disgusting at times and I don't recommend reading it :) but thank you and maybe I will be able to update them again sometime soon <3
2/21/14