Lost It All

The knocking wouldn’t stop and Katerina was getting rather annoyed. She lightly groaned in her sleep. She didn’t want to move because she was rather comfortable and warm. She snuggled against the wall of warmth as the knocking continued. Finally giving up she opened her eyes. That’s when she realized just where she was. Reality hit her full force. Rubbing her eyes, she looked around and a smile played upon her lips. She wasn’t in her apartment. She was in Andy’s hotel room and she was curled up in bed beside him.

Lifting her head Katerina looked at the sleeping man beside her. Andy Biersack may be a ball of intense energy when he was on stage as he entertained the thousands of BVB fans. However when he slept he looked as innocent as an angel. His dark hair was messed up and fell over one closed eye. His chest rose and fell with each deep breath he took as he snored slightly. One tattooed arm was still wrapped around Katerina’s body as he held her close and the other was throw haphazardly over the top of his head. The covers were lying just under his hips and that left his chest bare. That gave her a chance to exam all the ink there. Biting her lower lip, her eyes roamed over his skin as she took it all in. She loved the dragonfly and the quote the best. She was going to trace them with her fingertip again but she was interrupted by that damn knocking again.

Growling low in her throat, Katerina got out of bed as quietly as she could. She made sure that she didn’t jostle Andy too much. She knew that he needed his sleep because he had his show later tonight. They had a late night yesterday and she felt bad for keeping him up. Tiptoeing across the bedroom she walked over to the hotel room door and looked through the peep hole. She was only wearing her satin nightie so when she saw who it was she sighed in relief. Opening the door she smiled at Ashley. “Hey stranger. Good morning.” She spoke softly.

As soon as he saw Katerina, Ashley’s whole face lit up. He stepped forward and wrapped his arms around her in a hug. “Good morning Kat!” He said a bit loudly.

“Shhh!” She put a finger to his mouth and then she giggled as he captured it and suckled on it. “Andy is still sleeping. I don’t want to wake him. He had a long night.”

Ashley wiggled his eyebrow. “Did he now? Just what did you kids do last night?” He smirked. “Did you sink your claws into him Kitty Kat?”

“Nothing! You perv!” Katerina laughed. “We talked and made up. No more fighting.” She whispered. “Besides I couldn’t stand to let him sleep on the couch. The guy is 6’3” and he was too damn tall for it. He was tossing and turning and was driving me crazy.”

“Why do you think we have to get extra large bunks for the tour bus?” Ashley laughed softly. “Hey listen do you want to meet the rest of us for breakfast downstairs? You can let the pretty boy sleep. He’ll be fine. He can just meet us when he wakes up.”

Nodding her head, Katerina smirked. “That sounds great! I’m starving actually. Let me get dressed and I’ll meet you boys downstairs in the restaurant.” She told him. She couldn’t remember when she last ate. It was sometime yesterday morning. She was so nervous for the show that she only ate something light. Then of course being reunited with Andy had her forgetting to eat dinner afterwards.

“Sounds good. We’ll be waiting for you. Don’t take too long. Jinx gets grumpy if he doesn’t get his food.” Ashley teased. “If he gets grumpy I’ll let you deal with him.”

Katerina rolled her eyes. “I’m sure all I’ll have to do is just give him a smile and then a hug. You boys love to go on about your tempers but really you’re nothing but a bunch of teddy bears.”

Ashley playfully put a hand over her mouth. “Quiet woman!” He looked around to make sure no one was listening. “We’re rockstars! We have reputations to uphold!” He felt Katerina lick his hand. He playfully moaned. “Ooo do that again baby girl!”

She jerked her mouth away. “Eww I guess I should have asked you where that hand has been.” She wiped her mouth with her hand.

“Do you…REALLY want to know?” Ashley licked his lips as he moved closer to her.

“NO!” Katerina playfully pushed him towards the door. “Now go and I’ll meet you boys downstairs for breakfast!” She told him. “I will only be about ten minutes.”

Ashley headed towards the door. “Yeah I’ve heard that before.” He opened the door. “Write Casanova a note so he knows to join us.” He thumbed towards the bed. “See ya downstairs Kat.” He gave her a kiss on the cheek as he left.

Katerina closed the doors and shook her head. Ashley was going to be a handful. Yet she thought he was adorable. Heading towards her suitcase she grabbed a pair of blue skinny jeans that hung low on her hips. She topped that off with a crimson belly top and her black leather jacket. Being that it was March, New York still had a chill in the air. Her black heeled boots made the outfit. She quickly wrote Andy note telling him where she was and then she was out the door.


~ ~ ~


“Any hangovers this morning?” Katerina took a bite of her bacon as she looked around the table. Ashley sat on her left and CC on her right with Jake and Jinx in front of her. Only Ashley looks awake enough to be there. The other three looked as if they should be sleeping still or at least should be popping some Motrin. She gave Ashley a sly look out of the corner of her eye as CC, Jinx and Jake groaned. “That good, eh?”

“Pass the bacon please?” CC’s head laid on his folded arms.

“Dude this isn’t a buffet. If you wanted bacon you should have ordered it. Kat was the only one who ordered some.” Jinx nudged him.

“Kat!” CC whined. “Can I have some of your bacon?” His dark hair hid his face and his voice came out muffled under all that hair.

“Funny. That’s the first time a man has ever asked me for my bacon.” Katerina tried to keep a straight face. But turning to look at Ashley she lost it and completely started to laugh loud.

Both Jinx and Jake groaned at the loud noise. “Don’t yell!” Jake groaned again.

Holding out a piece of bacon, Katerina nudged CC. “Here you go sweetie.” Lifting up his head, CC opened up his mouth and Katerina began to feed him. “Good boy.” She giggled.

Just then Andy came around the corner and stopped as he looked at the chaos in front of him. He cocked his head as he watched Katerina feeding CC bacon while his two guitarists were nursing huge cups of coffee while Ashley just laughed at everyone. “Dare I even fucking ask?”

“Dude!” Jinx glared up at him. “Shut the fuck up! Too loud!” He took a huge gulp of his coffee.

Turning to give Ashley a look, Andy waited until his bass player moved so he could sit next to his best friend. Raising his brows, Andy slid next to Katerina. “Thanks.” He gave Ashley a smirk.

“Sure thing.” Ashley shook his head as he shared a look with Jake. It was clearly evident that Andy was getting quite possessive and he didn’t want to share the beautiful blonde at all.

“That wasn’t nice at all.” Katerina glared at Andy.

Andy reached over and stole her last piece of bacon and began to eat it. He chewed it before smirking. “What wasn’t?” He asked with mock innocence.

“Excuse your leather covered ass!” Katerina growled. “That was my last piece of bacon!”

Andy raised his eyebrows. “Have you been staring at my ass lately, Kitty Kat?” He smirked as he continued to eat the piece of bacon.

“Andrew Dennis Biersack you know how I am with my bacon!” She growled again. “I’m going to hurt you!”

“Ooo you know how much I like it when you hurt me.” He moaned as he ate the bacon.

She rolled her eyes. “Ugh! Fuck you perv!” She pushed him, causing him to knock into Ashley.

“Hey watch it!” Ashley pushed Andy back which caused Katerina to knock into CC.

“Falling for me already princess?” CC teased as he pulled her against his chest.

“You know it stud!” Katerina laughed as she leaned against him.

Andy’s eyes narrowed as he chomped on the bacon. He reached over and snagged a glass of water, not caring who’s it was. “Good morning to all of you too.” He took a huge gulp of the water. He didn’t know what was coming over him. He was glad that Katerina was getting along with his friends. After all she was his best friend. He wanted her to fit in. However seeing her flirt with them was a different story. None of them were good enough for her. He was her friend and he had to make sure she was treated with respect.

Just then Katerina’s cell phone rang and she scrambled in her jacket pocket to grab it. When she saw the number her eyes widened. She pressed the talk button and held her breath for a second. Then she spoke. “Hello?” She listened and then bit her lower lip. “Hey Alan. Yeah I’m feeling great, why?” She listened again and then her head snapped over to Andy as she waited for the other person to speak. Her face lit up as excitement flooded over her. “Really? She canceled? Yeah…I’d love to. When? NOW? Are they serious?” Katerina suddenly grabbed Andy’s wrist as if checking for a watch. When she didn’t find one she growled. Then she shoved his arm away and then grabbed CC’s phone and checked the time on there. “Yeah, if they could give me an hour to get ready and catch a cab I’ll be there. Right…thanks so much Alan. I owe you. Ok, an hour. Bye.” She hung up her phone and then giggled loudly.

“Ok who was that and why do you look like you’re going to fuck the entire cast of Magic Mike?” Andy asked sarcastically as he reached over and grabbed her toast off her plate.

“That was my agent, Alan.” Katerina went to grab her toast back but it was already in Andy’s mouth. “One of the models that he booked for a shoot canceled and they need one ASAP. Like in an hour. So he wants me down there. It’s for a lingerie shoot.”

“Lingerie shoot?” Andy and Ashley said at the same time. One of them had a huge grin on his face while the other had his eyes narrowed. Take your pick at which was which.

“Yes, it’s for a big client.” Katerina told them. “So I’m going to take a cab down there to the hotel where they are shooting. The client will pay for the cab.” She turned to Andy. “Can I keep my stuff here until tonight so I can go apartment shopping afterwards?”

Andy looked around at the guys and then back at Katerina. “Kitty Kat, listen I’ve been thinking. With us just being reunited and then with you losing your apartment, maybe we came together again for a reason ya know?” He asked.

Her brows crinkled. “What do you mean?” She grabbed her phone and then scrambled to find her purse to find her wallet to pay for breakfast.

Reaching out Andy took her hands in his and stopped her. “Hold up, I’ll pay for breakfast. Katerina, listen to me.” He dropped her hands and cupped her face. “Since you don’t have a place to stay right now, I want you to come on tour with us. We’re finishing up the States and we’re heading over to Europe in a month.” He told her.

Katerina’s eyes widened as she stared into his eyes. “Andy are you crazy? I can’t go on tour with you!”

“Why not? I’d love to have you with me. I’m sure the guys would agree. Right guys?” Andy turned to his bandmates, hoping they would back him up. He knew it was a low blow using the guys but he was desperate. Desperate times called for desperate measures. The thought of Katerina without a place to stay here in the big city didn’t sit well with him. Not when he just got her back.

“Hell yea Purdy Woman!” Ashley nodded his head up and down repeatedly. “You have to go on tour with us. It will be fun as fuck. You’ll get to see us play all the time. Plus we’ll have fun!”

“Come on Kat!” Jake begged. “You can be our sexy mascot!”

Looking around the table Katerina’s eyes moved to all the guys until she came back around to Andy. The truth was she didn’t have a place yet. The money she earned last night would get her a month of hotel rooms. Then the money she’d earn today would help. But she’d miss Andy and the thought of spending more time with him did appeal to her. Plus there were the rest of the band. They already were like family to her in such a short time. She bit her lower lip. “Guys, I don’t know…”

“Please Kitty Kat?” Andy found himself begging even more. “I’ll talk to our manager and have him book your flights and you can share our bus with us. You’ll keep us from going insane.” He let his forehead rest against hers as he stared into her eyes. “Please?” He whispered.

Andy was going low and she knew it. But then how could she say no to him. “Fine…I’ll go!” Katerina told him. At least for the next couple of months she had a home and she knew she’d be safe. She could tell Alan she’d be taking a vacation. She needed to relax anyway. She had to get her life together and what better way with her best friend.

As soon as she said yes the whole table erupted into chaos. Andy hugged her tightly from the front and CC hugged her from behind. Both of them rocked her in their arms as Ashley banged on the table with his hands. Jake and Jinx slammed their mugs on the table in tribute. “Hell yeah! Now we have our pin up girl for the tour!” Ashley shouted.

Hugging Andy back, Katerina buried her face in the crook of his neck. “The things I do for you, Andrew.” She teased. She gave him a kiss on the cheek. “Before I go I have to go to this shoot today. In fact I have to hurry if I’m going to catch a cab.”

“Hold the fuck up. I’m going with you.” Andy narrowed his eyes. “I want to make sure things are on the up and up.”

“Andy my agent booked it. I’m sure it’s fine.” Katerina sighed and then smiled. “Really. But thank you.”

“I don’t care. I’m going with you. We’ll take the limo. So go get what you need. Be down here in ten minutes.” Andy leaned forward and kissed her temple.

“If Andy’s going, so am I. I mean he may need some backup.” Ashley pointed out. “I can’t let my lead singer getting into trouble.”

“But—“ Katerina looked at him.

“I’ll be damned if I let my bass player get in over his head. I’m coming with them.” CC called out.

“Me too.” Jake raised his hand.

“Count me in.” Jinx added.

“Guys!” Katerina held up her hands. “I’ll be fine! Really. It’s just a normal shoot.” She looked around to see each of them staring at her with a determined look on their faces. She looked back at Andy and he raised his eyebrow and smirked. “Oh for fuck’s sake Andy. Come on!”

“Sorry Kitty Kat. It’s all of us or nothing.” His lips twitch with amusement. The truth was he wasn’t too keen on allowing some strange photographer ogling her in skimpy lingerie. He didn’t care if it was her job or not. At least not without all of them guarding her.

Katerina turned to look at CC. “Aren’t you too hung over to go?” She asked hopefully.

“Nope. You heard him. All of us or nothing.” CC grinned.

Katerina glared at all of them. “You all suck, you know that?” She stood up and cuffed Andy on the back of the head.

“You say such sweet things Kitty Kat.” Andy tore off a corner of the toast with his teeth.

“Fuck off!” She growled as she headed upstairs to get her things.

He chuckled as he sat back watching her go. He grabbed her abandoned OJ and took a lengthy swallow. If she wasn’t going to finish her breakfast he might as well. “Hurry up. As soon as she comes down we’re going to be heading out.” He told the rest of the guys.

“Are we really going to sit around and watch Kat model lingerie for us?” Jinx stared across the table at his lead singer.

“No. I’m going to watch my best friend work.” Andy grabbed a fork and dove into the scrambled eggs on the plate. “You guys are going to make sure the photographer keeps his hands to himself and doesn’t do anything that we have to kill him for.” He looked up and gave Jinx a big cheesy smile. “You guys keep your eyes off Katerina’s body.”

Ashley smirked as he looked at CC. “Sure thing Andy. Sure thing.”


~ ~ ~


“Ok that’s it Katerina. Look up for me baby. I want to get lost in those gorgeous eyes of yours doll.” Nick Martell, one of the industry’s leading photographers called out orders to Katerina.

Lying on a bed of red satin sheets, Katerina did as she was told. The lingerie she was wearing was a matching set consisting of black panties and bra set which was covered in pink and white lipstick marks over it. It had pink garters and black fishnet stockings. The bra gave her breasts a push up and the position on the bed helped as well. Her blonde hair was teased and ratted, falling around her face. She arched her back as she posed with a purely seductive look on her face.

Sitting in the back of the room were all the members of Black Veil Brides and they were all glaring at the photographer as if they wanted to kill him. Each time Nick gave Katerina an order and made a comment about a part of her body, Andy clenched his fists. “I’m going to kill this fucker!” He whispered heatedly. “I’ll tell him exactly where to get lost.” He growled.

“I’m going to shove my foot so far up his ass he won’t have to worry about getting lost.” CC’s eyes narrowed.

“At least he hasn’t touched her.” Jake sighed.

Just then Nick walked over to Katerina and smirked down at her. “Very good doll. Now I want you to really show off that bra and what’s inside them. Women are going to want this bra when they see it in the pages of the magazine. When they see it on you, they will want it. Men will want to buy it for them.” He reached down and grabbed the straps of the bra as if to adjust it.

“Yeah, I’ve got it.” Katerina gave him a fake smile.

Andy leapt forward and it took Jake and Jinx to hold him back. “Down boy. She’s a big girl. She’s got it.” Jinx whispered to him. “This is her job.”

“The fucker was going to grope her!” Andy snarled. “No one touches my best friend like that!”

Suddenly Nick turned around and glared at the rockers. “Is there a problem here?” He snapped. “We’re trying to work here. If you boys can’t keep it in your pants I’m going to ask you to leave.” He turned back to Katerina and glared. “Do you think you can control your dogs?”

Katerina swallowed hard as she looked past Nick. “Guys, come on.” Her eyes held a pleading stare. She didn’t need anyone to fuck this up for her. This was her job. Her livelihood. She was used to photographers flirting with her and trying to cop a feel.

Andy could see the worry in her eyes. He sighed and held up his hands in defeat. He leaned back against the wall and gave her a soft smile. When he saw her return the smile, he relaxed. She was so damn beautiful. When in the fuck did that happen? Where did the bratty smart assed kid that he knew go? When did the beautiful intelligent woman take her place?

“Good now that we have the dogs caged, lay back down so I can get your sexy side.” Nick smirked.

Katerina’s eyes narrowed as he spoke of her best friend and his friends that way. “Yeah sure.” She leaned back and took on the personality of a sexy vixen waiting for her man. She trailed her fingers down her body and then bit her lower lip.

Leaning over Ashley whispered. “Is anyone else but me getting a chubby?”

Andy’s head whipped around as he hit Ashley in the chest with the back of his hand. “DUDE?” He whispered harshly.

The rest of the band snickered as Ashley looked at Andy with innocence in his eyes. “What? I just asked a question. No need to get violent.”

“Fuck you! That’s my best friend. Keep your dick in your pants.” Andy growled.

“What? She’s gorgeous! You can’t deny that.” Ashley pointed out.

“I can deny anything I fucking well please.” Andy snapped.

“Um guys…..” Jake started.

“Come on be a man for ten seconds instead of the best friend.” Ashley sighed. “Have you even told her about Tori?”

“What the fuck does that mean?” Andy turned to face him. “I’ll tell her about Tori when the time is right.”

“GUYS!” Jake raised his voice.

“WHAT?” Both Andy and Ashley screamed at the same time.

Jake turned them around and pointed. Nick was bending over Katerina and he was saying something to her but Katerina wasn’t having it. She was angry and trying to push him away. “I think our girl is in trouble.”

“Fuck!” Andy broke away from Ashley and walked as quickly as he could over to the bed.

“I’m not a piece of ass in skimpy lingerie, Nick!” Katerina raised her voice. “I’m a woman with a brain. Keep your hands off me!”

“You’re what I tell you to be sweetheart.” The photographer retorted. “We pay you to look pretty and if that means we want to position you a certain way, you let me put my hands all over you to achieve that.” He snarled. He reached down and tried to grab her shoulder to push her down on the bed.

“Get off me!” Katerina raised her voice.

“The lady said get off her!” Andy growled as he grabbed Nick by his shoulder and whipped him around. He pushed him far enough away so he could get between him and Katerina. He took a protective stance in front of his best friend. No one was going to hurt her as long as he was alive.

Nick rolled his eyes. “Oh look who’s come to the rescue? The wild dogs. Look kid, this is the fashion world, something you know nothing about. Let us pros handle it. Your girlfriend knew what she was getting into when she agreed to pose. Now get the fuck out of here before I call the cops.”

“You know I think that’s the best idea you had all day, Dick.” Andy smirked. He taunted him. Turning towards Katerina, he held out his hand. “Come on Katerina, we’re leaving.” There was no room for argument in his voice.

“My name is Nick!” The photographer snarled.

“Like I said Dick, we’re leaving.” Andy stared down at Katerina.

Getting up from the bed, Katerina took Andy’s hand. His hand felt warm and safe. She stood and sucked in her breath as she felt his arm slid around her body, pulling her tight against him. Her arms wrapped around his waist as she laid her head upon his chest. Katerina was shaking but tried not to show it. That’s why she pressed closer to Andy. She took a full deep breath when she felt him kiss her forehead.

“Come on boys we have a tour to finish.” Andy smirked as he walked past Nick with Katerina in his arms. When he got close to Nick, he stared at him in the eyes. “You will pay Katerina for her time. If you don’t, I’ll have my lawyer contact you.” He nudged him as he walked past.

Nick turned to watch Andy disappear into the dressing room. Ashley glared at him before turning and following him. The rest of the guys did the same, each stopping to glare at him. He sat down and reached for his cigarettes. After this, he needed one.

In the dressing room, Katerina waited until the door was closed before she slumped against Andy’s chest. “Tha-ank you.” Her voice shook. “It’s never been that bad before.” She whispered.

Turning to look at her, Andy stared down at her. “What do you mean, that bad before?” He rubbed her back as he tried to get her to calm down. He could feel her body trembling in his arms. By now the guys had joined them and were blocking the door to guard them.

Katerina looked up at him as she took a long deep breath. “I’ve had some pretty scummy photographers before but that was in the beginning of my career. I thought those days were long past. Nick came highly recommended. He’s supposed to be one of the best.”

“Just because he’s one of the best doesn’t make him any less of an asshole, Kat.” Jake scoffed.

“His pictures may be great, but his manners are horrible.” CC shook his head.

Picturing Katerina going through this early in her career had Andy pulling her tight against his chest. He rubbed her back as anger seeped through every pore of his body. He wanted to hit something, or someone. Preferably Nick. The thought of any guy touching her like that had him growling.

“Andy, it’s ok.” Katerina whispered. “I’m fine.”

Snapping out of his train of thought, Andy looked down. He cupped her face and kissed her forehead. “I should just kick his ass. You won’t be going through that again. Even I have to send my bodyguard with you instead.”

Katerina shook her head. “I don’t think I’ll be working while I’m on tour with you. I think after this I need some time off.” She hugged him tighter. Right now all she wanted was to spend time with Andy. She wanted to focus on him and her future. Modeling was something she fell into. But was she really happy with it?

“Why don’t we all go back to the hotel? We have soundcheck in a few hours anyway?” Jinx offered. “I’m sure that Kat will want to rest up before her first Black Veil Brides concert too.”

“That’s a great idea. Go get out of those and we’ll wait here for you, Kitty Kat.” Andy reluctantly let go of her. “When we get back to the hotel we’ll watch a movie before soundcheck. Maybe take a nap?” He gave her a reassuring smile. He reached out and caressed her face.

She let out a small laugh. “Ok. That sounds great. I’ll be right back.” She leaned up and kissed his cheek. “Thank you for all your help.” She looked over at the others. “You guys too. My heroes.” Grabbing her bag, she disappeared into the bathroom.

Andy turned to his bandmates. “No one touches her as long as I’m with her from now on. I’ll kill anyone who does that to her again.” There was venom in his voice.

“No way dude.” Ashley shook his head. “We’ll make sure of it as well.” He put his hand on Andy’s shoulder. “We’ll take care of her as well.” The others nodded in approval.

Andy smiled at them gratefully. “Thanks guys. She’s just….she’s my best friend and I just got her back. If anything were to happen to her.”

“Nothing is going to happen to her.” CC promised. He watched as Andy slumped in a chair. Once again he looked at Ashley and they shared a look. If no one else guessed it, they did. They knew Andy too well. This wasn’t just any girl to him. This wasn’t just a best friend. Fuck no, this went way beyond that.

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