Novocaine Hearts

Lexa's POV

I bolted.
Stepping out of the room was not enough.
I had to be far away.
I sprinted passed Nate and Saxon. I heard them calling after me, but I never turned. I just kept going.
I ran all the way down the street and I kept going until I hit the board walk along the beach.
The day was hot. I didn't realise how hot until my pale skin started to glow against the sun's rays.
My breath was still jaggered, but I continued to walk away from the general direction of our place.
How could Parker drop a bomb on me like that? That wasn't fair. I had spent the last few weeks trying to get over him and now he wants me back? Does he not know me? After everything I've been through, this is what he does!
"Oh my God! Lexa?!" Someone shouted in shock.
I looked towards the voice and saw Juliet.
My eyes widened in surprise, I hadn't seen Juliet in 2 years.
"Juliet? What the hell are you doing here?" I asked, not sure if I was happy to see her.
"Me and Andy finally tied the knot and decided to do it in Miami. Everyone is here with us!" She said excitedly as she wriggled the fingers on her left hand at me.
"Everyone... Everyone as in Jake..." I commented.
"Of course. But how are you?! Oh my God it's been sooooo long! What brings you to Miami?" She gushed.
"Ohh, umm I actually just got in today. My band mates have been down here for a bit and I decided to join them" I shrugged.
"Ohh, finally got sick of Malibu? Don't worry, me too. It's so dull over there" she said waving it off.
"Umm, no. Just got to get back to work... I should probably head back..." I trailed off.
"Yeah, you look a bit flustered. Are you okay?" She asked cluelessly.
"Ummm, not really" I said flatly.
"Aww, that sucks. Well, if you want, I can organise lunch for us and Riley if you like. I'm sure she'd love to see you" she smiled sweetly.
"Sure. You guys have my number. Talk to you later" I said, turning and starting to walk back.

After about an hour I finally found my way back to the house. Had to admit I did get lost.
Nate was sitting on the porch step when I arrived.
"Hey" I said quietly.
He looked up at me and I couldn't tell if he was relieved or pissed.
"Thank fuck. Where have you been? You left your phone here!" He sighed.
"I'm sorry, but did you know that Parker was gonna drop that bomb on me?" I said, plopping down next to him.
"What bomb?" He said confused.
I sighed and blurted it out. "Parker wants to get back together."
"Oh..."
"Yeah, oh... I don't know. I do and I don't" I said, resting my head on my knees. The frayed edge holes of my jeans tickled my face.
"He didn't talk to us about it. Look I already know you love him, but if you don't believe he loves you back a hundred percent. Don't do it. I don't mean to sound selfish, but it's not just you in this."
"I know. I mean, last time we didn't really think about it cause we had no intention on telling, but now... I don't know. I spent all this time away to get over him and write new 'inspired' material, which I've done. I feel like I just can't go back" I shrugged, turning my face towards Nate.
"Then don't. You don't have to make this decision now. I'm sure Parker can wait a few days or how ever long it takes you. I just want you to be sure" he said touching my shoulder. "Now, I'm gonna order some food. I'm thinking pizza, what topping do you want?" He smiled at the subject change.
"Vegetarian please" I smiled back.
"Since when?" Nate said scrunching up his face.
I just shrugged.
"Okay, well you get a whole half to yourself then" he said standing up and walking back into the house.
I sighed and followed him.
Nate was already on the phone, placing our order, while Saxon lay spread out on the couch.
"Move over" I said slapping his legs.
"Make me" he said without looking in my direction.
I was silent for a moment and realised he wasn't wearing any socks, so I decided to tickle his feet.
Saxon yelped and started to flap his legs back and fourth.
"LEXA STOP! STOP!" He yelled between laughter.
"Make me" I mimicked him.
He continued to shake violently until he fell off the couch and I quickly took his place.
I smiled at him on the floor, out of breath from laughing and screaming.
"I hate you" he said after a minute.
"Hate you too. So, what have you guys been up to here?" I asked.
"Not much really. Nate really wants to start writing. Have you been able to do much...?" He asked carefully.
"Umm, yeah. It was really great to be by myself for a bit. Got a few songs done."
"Can I hear?" Nate butted in.
A small sting pierced my heart. "Umm, they're really personal..." I whispered.
"Lexa, that's what being a musician is about. And it's what makes a song great" Nate commented.
"It's what makes us relatable" Saxon chimed in.
I sighed "Can you grab my guitar?"
Nate smiled went to pull out my acoustic guitar from my case.
I quickly warmed my fingers up and strummed the tune for a bit, then the lyrics came back to me.

One more time,
one more time I said,
as we rolled around in your bed,
thinking this was perfect.

You looked at me and I looked at you,
didn't know your words weren't true,
didn't know we'd end this way.

I stopped abruptly when a tear rolled down my cheek.
I tired to wipe it off on my shoulder, when in the corner of my eye, I spotted green hair.
I spun my head around and saw Parker.
"How much did you hear?" My lips quivering.
I felt Nate touch my arm to comfort me.
"Enough" I saw his Adam's apple bob, as he gulped to hide his own tears.
I couldn't say anything. I couldn't lie through lyrics.
The silence went on until there was a loud knocking on the front door.
"Okay, you guys really need to sort through stuff, but for now, I'm gonna pay the pizza guy and we are gonna have a family dinner and forget about this for now" he sighed. "Can you guys please set the table?" Nate instructed as he felt his pants for his wallet.
Saxon moved from the floor, but I couldn't stop looking at Parker and he couldn't stop looking at me.

Notes

Comments guys. Would really help.
Had such a stressful week. It's crazy at work.
-Tina xx