Heart of Fire

It felt so right I didn’t even consider saying no to him. I was so hopelessly in love and I barely knew him, it scared me so much I wasn’t sure what to do. I wasn’t even sure if we were really dating. I didn’t care, none of it mattered, nothing mattered. It was just him and me.

He pulled back, “Follow me. I don’t really want our first time to be at a party. We can go back to the bus.”

I nodded and he led me out. I hadn’t even thought about that I was just willing to do anything as long as it involved Ashley. We went downstairs and everyone was even more drunk than when we left. A girl with long light brown hair and heavy eyeliner was doing shots and turned around to see us.

“Hhhhey babyyy.” She said slurring her words and throwing a lazy arm around Ashley.

Great, my luck. I’m sure my face twisted in confusion. For some reason I thought that Ashley would deny her and we could continue on. Instead he smiled and brushed her hair away from her face. It was sweaty and sticking to her face and neck.

Her makeup was smudged across her face and her eyes were bloodshot. If these are the kind of girls he’s into I guess he can have them.

There was my answer to the dating question. I silently left, I didn’t want to disturb him and his "friend." I can’t believe that we were just having so much fun and it came to a crashing standstill. He didn’t even seem to remember I existed.

What was going on? Maybe he thought of me and replaceable, he could definitely have any girl he wanted.

Why did I even care? It’s not like we were really dating or anything. We barely knew each other. I had to keep my guard up, I let myself fall for anyone too easily. I saw Jackson talking to who I presumed was an important person. He was wearing a suit and had the tricky confidence of a business man.

They split up before I reached them and Jackson turned and looked like he would explode any moment with excitement.

“We did it!” he yelled crushing me with a huge hug, “he saw you guys on the internet and came for a show and liked what he saw!!”

“Oh my God are you serious?” I couldn’t believe this, I completely forgot about everything that had just happened.

“Yes! He said he wanted to give us a record deal. He never does this but he really liked you guys. He wants to start recording right after tour. After all the paper work of course…”

“This is so great! We can be like a professional band!” I squealed and hugged him again.

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I took a shower and climbed in bed. All the events from earlier immediately came flooding back. I was so upset with myself for even considering being with Ashley. This new record would be the perfect escape. I would show him I could be just fine without him. He will find out that I’m way more badass than he ever thought I was. He’ll see…

Notes

I'm back!!! I really missed it and I finally was able to update i'll try to do a lot more again. Let me know what you think I'm not sure where i'm going with this