Unbroken
Lost It All
I woke up to my phone ringing. I picked it up and saw who was calling. I felt my stomach sink. Andy was still asleep, so I walked out on the porch.
"What do you want, Mom?" I said in an annoyed tone
"I heard about you, you know. You're dating him again and now you're pregnant."
"So fucking what?! It's my life and you don't control what I do anymore."
"You're making yourself look like a whore, Allison. You're pregnant and not even married."
"If I look like a whore, then so be it. I'm not losing Andy again. You can't control who I choose to date or have a child with."
"You've only been together for what, a month?!" My mother yelled into the phone,
"Oh my god. We've been together for over 9 months, Mom!!!" I heard the door open and saw Andy standing there.
"Whatever. You should learn to stop being so slutty. I didn't raise you like this. Your father wants to talk to you."
"K." I heard her hand him the phone. I held up my finger to Andy asking for a minute.
"Hey, sweetie. Look, your mom is just shocked. I'm glad that you and Andy are together again. He was always good to you."
"Thanks. Will you tell mom to leave me the fuck alone, please? I'm not forgiving her for that fight we had."
"i'll try. But just know that I love you and only want the best for you, ok?''
''Ok. I gotta go. Love you, Dad." I hung up the phone. I saw Andy sitting on a chair with his head in his hands.
"How'd they find out?" He asked as he looked up at me. I shook my head and walked to him and sat on the arm of the chair.
"I don't know. There's more of a problem with my mom than my dad," I said and kissed him on the cheek. "But it's gonna be ok. They aren't gonna interfere with us and the baby." I continued softly.
"Good. But what does your mom have against me?" he asked. I shook my head.
"Honestly, I have no clue. But let's just forget about that, please. We're together and happy and that's all that matters." I said.
Andy and I spent the day doing nothing but laying together and watching movies. We talked about baby names, etc.
Just before we started to get ready to go to sleep, I went to the bathroom. As soon as I saw it, I gasped. I finished my business and walked out. I stared at Andy.
"Andy..." I said, my voice quavering. He got up and started walking to me. He pulled me to his arms and I broke. I cried into his chest.
As soon as I pulled myself together, I looked up at him. I sighed and sat on the bed. He sat next to me.
"I miscarriaged, Andy." I wiped my eyes. He looked at me in shock.
"Are you 100% sure?" He asked. I nodded.
"I got my period. I know I miscarriaged because I lost the baby weight I had." He pulled me to him and kissed my head. I looked up at him and saw a tear roll down his cheek. I wiped it off and kissed him. He layed his head on my shoulder and I could hear him crying.
"It's gonna be ok. We can try again soon." I said and kissed his head. He fell asleep in my arms and I stayed up all night thinking.
"What do you want, Mom?" I said in an annoyed tone
"I heard about you, you know. You're dating him again and now you're pregnant."
"So fucking what?! It's my life and you don't control what I do anymore."
"You're making yourself look like a whore, Allison. You're pregnant and not even married."
"If I look like a whore, then so be it. I'm not losing Andy again. You can't control who I choose to date or have a child with."
"You've only been together for what, a month?!" My mother yelled into the phone,
"Oh my god. We've been together for over 9 months, Mom!!!" I heard the door open and saw Andy standing there.
"Whatever. You should learn to stop being so slutty. I didn't raise you like this. Your father wants to talk to you."
"K." I heard her hand him the phone. I held up my finger to Andy asking for a minute.
"Hey, sweetie. Look, your mom is just shocked. I'm glad that you and Andy are together again. He was always good to you."
"Thanks. Will you tell mom to leave me the fuck alone, please? I'm not forgiving her for that fight we had."
"i'll try. But just know that I love you and only want the best for you, ok?''
''Ok. I gotta go. Love you, Dad." I hung up the phone. I saw Andy sitting on a chair with his head in his hands.
"How'd they find out?" He asked as he looked up at me. I shook my head and walked to him and sat on the arm of the chair.
"I don't know. There's more of a problem with my mom than my dad," I said and kissed him on the cheek. "But it's gonna be ok. They aren't gonna interfere with us and the baby." I continued softly.
"Good. But what does your mom have against me?" he asked. I shook my head.
"Honestly, I have no clue. But let's just forget about that, please. We're together and happy and that's all that matters." I said.
Andy and I spent the day doing nothing but laying together and watching movies. We talked about baby names, etc.
Just before we started to get ready to go to sleep, I went to the bathroom. As soon as I saw it, I gasped. I finished my business and walked out. I stared at Andy.
"Andy..." I said, my voice quavering. He got up and started walking to me. He pulled me to his arms and I broke. I cried into his chest.
As soon as I pulled myself together, I looked up at him. I sighed and sat on the bed. He sat next to me.
"I miscarriaged, Andy." I wiped my eyes. He looked at me in shock.
"Are you 100% sure?" He asked. I nodded.
"I got my period. I know I miscarriaged because I lost the baby weight I had." He pulled me to him and kissed my head. I looked up at him and saw a tear roll down his cheek. I wiped it off and kissed him. He layed his head on my shoulder and I could hear him crying.
"It's gonna be ok. We can try again soon." I said and kissed his head. He fell asleep in my arms and I stayed up all night thinking.
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