Between The Roses

A break in the stormy weather brought an overdue sense of happiness and freedom. The last week has been one of the most stressful, sleep depriving, mood altering weeks. But I knew it was going to be that way; having a newborn means that they don’t have a schedule or routine or anything and because of that, they do whatever they want. Andy has been good about it though. He’s been taking turns with me at night and even during the day.

Since I was trying to figure things out with my band, Andy has stepped up and let me do what I need to. But, unfortunately, Andy had to fly up to Vancouver with Black Veil to re-record some vocals that were messed up somehow. This means I get the house to myself with Lincoln and have to do all the parenting alone for roughly two weeks. He left two days ago and I have definitely noticed a difference.

I picked Lincoln up from in the bassinet in the living room and laid him down in my arms. He had been fussing and he loves it when either me or Andy hold him and walk around the house. I’ve seen online about those moms who use the sling to create a bond while they still did everyday things. So I ordered one yesterday. As I walked into the kitchen to grab a bottle for Lincoln, I heard the doorbell ring.

“Who could that be?” I mainly spoke to myself but also partly to Lincoln. That was another thing that had developed over the last week. I talk to myself out loud more. When I got to the door and opened it, Callum and Brett were standing there.

“Hey guys,” I smiled and let them in. The two of them were silent and not making eye contact as they walked into the living room. I closed the door and looked down at Lincoln.

“Callum and Uncle Brett are being bigger babies than you are. But mommy will get to the bottom of it, I promise,” I ran my hand over his head before I headed into the kitchen to grab a bottle for him. When that was in my hand, I walked back into the living room and sat on the chair by the window. As I got Lincoln comfortable in my lap and began feeding him, I looked up at the two men sitting on my couch.

“So, nice of you two to come over,” I started and Brett looked at me.

“Does this have to do with what you mentioned the other day?” He asked and I nodded.

“It does and I really hope you consider it,” I told him and he sighed.

“Sadee, he was an ass to the both of us and lied for over a year about Zara’s drug problem, how have you forgiven him?” He asked.

“Because he was my best friend for years. And the band doesn’t feel like the band without him in it,” I said and he shook his head. Callum sat quietly on the couch with his arms crossed over his chest.

“I understand that Sadee, but that isn’t good enough of a reason to make me want to let him back into the band,” he told me and I sighed as I shifted Lincoln.

“Look, I know you can’t trust me, I understand that. But me keeping the secret from you guys didn’t change or affect how I played my instrument or the shows. I’m not asking for you to just let me back in without question. But Sadee’s going to be taking some time off until January which means we have about two months to decide and come to a conclusion about me being in the band,” Callum finally spoke up and I looked over at Brett, who was just staring at the wall.

“Fine, but I’m not going to talk to the label until after you can prove you can be trustworthy and not an ass to everyone,” Brett told Callum. I yawned and looked down at Lincoln, who had finished his bottle and was looking up at me with his big blue eyes.

“That’s understandable,” Callum seemed defeated and like he was only going to say things that we wanted to hear. Suddenly I heard a phone ringing. Brett immediately grabbed his phone and answered it. I shifted Lincoln again so that I could burp him. As I watched Brett talk to whoever it was that called him, he just kind of nodded along to what they were saying before hanging up.

“I hate to just up and leave, but that was Lettie and she needs me to come home, so. I’ll talk to you guys later,” he said before he got off the couch and left. I looked at where he was just sitting and sighed.

“That went well,” Callum chuckled.

“Brett was never close to you. And he’s not the same kind of person as I am. He’ll come around eventually,” I told him and he nodded.

“When did Andy leave?” He asked and I sighed.

“Two days ago. I have gotten no sleep and I fear that I won’t get any ever again,” I rested my elbow on the arm of the chair and then leaned my head on my hand.

“You’ll get sleep. He’s like a week old, give him a bit of time to get a schedule down. Ryley was hell when she was born. Neither Lucy nor I got any sleep for like three months. But Ryley was also born with a muscle thing that kept her awake,” he told me and I chuckled.

“So, when are you gonna marry Lake?” I asked.

“Whoa, who said we were going to get married?” He asked.

“Cal, if you don’t put a ring on it, I will kill you. You two are so great together and she loves you so much. Please do her the favor of marrying her,” I said and he smiled.

“I will don’t worry,” he kept this cheeky smile on his face and my eyes widened.

“Wait, you’re planning on proposing? When?” I asked and he looked up at me.

“Tomorrow night we’re going to Beck’s and I am planning to ask her,” he told me and I got a big smile on my face and let out a squeal. Immediately after that I looked down at Lincoln because I felt him squirm.

“He has two singers as parents, he’ll be a deep sleeper,” Callum told me and I smiled.

“Let’s hope,” I muttered. It was nice to have my best friend back in my life. While I was mad at him and Zara for lying for over a year about her drug problem, I didn’t hate him. Now I just hope that Brett can forgive him and let him back into the band without any problems.

Notes

New chapter! Sorta just a filler, sorta maybe important. Also it's rather short and I'm sorry about that. I hope you like it though!

Sadee's Outfit:
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=200604162

Peace <3